OT

ytd din managed to slp @ 10pm cuz had a super heated quarrel with hubb. haii... qi si ren le! blame it on my sensitivity, or rather, blame it on his insensitivity!! always making comments tt will make me think alot. 说者无心,听者有意... i had always been a v sensitive person, dwelling alot into pple's comments and actions. i am always told by pple ard me tt i always think too much..and i do admit.. i really do think too much. but then, how come after soooo long, tt fatty boy still cannot understand how to handle me? he shld knw better than anyone else tt im a sensitive ass.. so y he still always 口无遮拦 and make me quarrel with him ne?? 该说的不说,不该说的就一直说...haii... i juz hope he really doesnt mean wad he said and tt he's not lying abt anything... haiii..

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my eyes no longer painful le! though still abit swollen. but there's no more pain!!! sooo happy! 吓死我了! but.. im feeling really tired today. head giddy, a little sore throat, nose abit blocked, sneezing and coughing every nw and then... i wont say im sick, but i believe im nt far frm tt. symptoms of me falling real sick is showing. i better take care.

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today i did my 1st OT. time still passes v fast.. b4 i knew, alr 8pm. 1.5 hr of OT, but i don seem to have done alot of things in tt 1.5hr. worry tt supervisors will think i slack during tt 1.5hr and tt i stayed back juz to earn the extra bucks. oppps... thinking too much again??!

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and.. the 2 newbies who came in with me.. they both managed to hit target ytd. haii.. i knw today i did not hit the target, cuz was busy doing waiver and stuff. wad to do, break for 2 days, nw go bk sure many things to follow up. but...that is not an excuse. how cm pple can hit target and i cannot lei? but the targets... really abit too high-up lei.. but then again, if pple can, y cant i? am i too slow? or am i doing too many things tt r not necessary? hw to improve? hw to get myself out of the "red color"?? i really fear tt there will be one day, whereby no one else is red color except only me! o man.... how how how maluuuuuuuuuuuuuu can tt be?? tian ar...it's really hard lei.. i alr tot im v fast le.. but still cmi.. must try harder, must try harder!

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and today.. i felt lousy. cannot handle my own case and gotta find the old-bird to clear my mess. quoted the wrong amt to the client and nw he refuses to pay. spk to him a few times but he juz do not want to listen to me and kept stressing tt it is no fault of his and tt the bank created all the trouble. haii.. felt so damn lousy! if i were a temp or an intern, then i don mind. but nw, im a perm staff lei.. yet i cannot clear the mess that me myself created. i really have no courage to call him again. anw, he's not gonna listen to me. let the old bird do it ba. there shld not be a next time, huiping. bear tt in mind!

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today really not a gd day. many problematic cases tt require follow-up. need following up means will take up my time. taking up my time means cannnot meet target again. o tian.. but thanks to these nasty pple who came into my life. they make me stronger and better able to handle situations. life cannot always be smooth-sailing. if it is, then one will always be a nua-kia, 一旦碰到挫折就会cui掉. okok.. im juz jealous of those pple who r always smooth-sailing ok. but then.. i wish i can be a stronger person, 风吹雨打都不害怕.什么事都难不倒我. i tink im too nua alr. always worrying abt this and tt. this is not the way. time to 磨炼 myself. but how arr?? hmm...