1st Year WeddinG AnniveRsary

it's our 1st year wedding anniversary! 

how time flies! one year had passed just like that! 

hohoho.

blessed =) 

GiVinG Up

能者多劳. and 能者 are expected to help 弱者. 

if this is the case, why should i work hard and be a 能者? 倒不如当个弱者，一直依赖别人就好了。

表现得坚强是为了不让人担心。 可惜与此同时，人家也以为你不需要帮助，不需要关心。

明明就是一个团队的事，为什么好像只有我一个人在努力，在付出？

自私是人的本性，但自私到这样的程度，实在让人吃不消。

我试着努力体谅配合，但自己顾自己，这样的团队怎样走下去？

我渐渐失去对团员应有的尊敬与爱戴。

我做错了什么？

是否应该放弃跟不上自己步伐的团员？ 还是应该拉他们一把，让他们也变强？还是应该把自己变弱, 让人家多关心疼惜自己？

做能者好累。

何苦。

何必。

Haha, interesting way to pack apples

Reminds me of how shuttlecocks are being packed...

Really small apples. Easy to eat, but probably will have to eat one whole tube to get the equivalent nutrients in a normal sized apple

LOL

All hell break loose!

It's been at least 10mths since I last ate sashimi!!

Woohooooo! Whackkk ah!

  

Ok, still got luxury to slowly dine at restaurant cuz we left rayous with my MIL albeit feeling a little guilty. Hiak hiak.

Had really really contemplated the idea of bringing him along for the dining and grocery shopping despite the 'risks' associated, but in the end decided not to, considering that he's still quite young. 

And really lucky that we did not.. sooo many pple and we had so many things to buy! Can't imagine how it would be like if we had brought him along.

Let's just not be too adventurous and ambitious first lah huh. 

Lol

Why is it that we have to think and plan and strategise over something as simple as grocery shopping and having a meal outside?

Haiii. 

ConFineMenT NannY

ahahhaha

and so, the confinement nanny will be leaving tmr. today is her last full day already. 

on one hand, im worried of her departure, cuz i know life will no longer be as easy. yet on the other hand, im actually quite happy that she's finally leaving. 

finally i can take control of everything and of baby rayous. no one to interfere in how i manage him. 

 initially i was quite unhappy w her and had even thought of asking her to leave. i remembered her asking what kind of breakfast i want when i just came back from hospital and was in stress cuz rayous was down w jaundice. shouldnt she have more knowledge in what kind of breakfast i should have than ask me? and i was flabbergasted when she agreed to cooking maggi mee when hubb gong gong suggested it. and then, i was totally pissed when she gave me cold herbal water for bathing. and i was in shock when i saw she kept the prepared herbal water for bathing just beside the pail of mopped water.  and when she cooks, she had the tendency to cook alot which 还没吃就饱一半了. and when she coaxs baby, she got this irritating way of talking and this sneaky look which always steal glances at us. and i was pushed to my limits when we just came back from hospital and rayous was frequently crying and all she can say was that rayous was hungry and will push him to me for feeding when i was totally sore and probably 'milk-less' back then. and i caught her sneezing without covering her mouth! omg. 

oh oh.. and i remembered being unhappy with her for using the washing machine to wash small quantity of clothes. i think the washing machine has been the most 'hardworking' during this period because apparently, it is always in use! and i was also upset with her for watching tv, making personal calls and using pacifier on rayous. 

ok, all these kind of ironed out and along the way, we slowly got used to her and understand/accepted her way of doing things. 

no doubt, she has helped us quite abit, especially at night time when rayous sleeps with her. that gave us undisturbed sleep which i know will no longer be possible after she leaves. but personally, i think she'd instilled some habits which kind of made rayous a fussy baby. eg, wanting to have a bath as early as 7plus am, wanting to change clothes every so often... 

according to her, these are rayous's habits and he wont settle down unless we do all these at those timings. but then, hello, he's just a baby! what kind of habits can he have? and it's not as if he's aware of the timings right?! all these are behaviors that adults created!! so... i think, it's better that she leaves and i shall help rayous change these behaviors to make him less fussy. 

and just now, i noticed some small drips of brownish stain which looked like blood stains on rayous's clothes. went to ask her and i saw this cut on her finger. omg. i hope she's not down with some contagious illness... urgh

normal confinement period is for 28 days, yet i requested for 40days, as strongly advised by a colleague. kind of regretted for extending that long. i think an extension of 5days should be sufficient. no doubt the longer she stays, the more help we receive. but that will also delay us in experiencing the 'full force', which like it or not, will just come eventually. so what's the point of delaying and paying more? i'd rather embrace it than delay it. 

so all in all, im happy that she's leaving tmr. 

finally we can get down to having things done our way. 

looking forward. albeit with lotsa fear and agony. 

haha. wad contradictions, huh. 

BreastFeeDinG

learning the ropes... 

but 总有失手的时候.....

parenthood is really not easy. 

night time is a battle. can only pray that he cooperates and sleeps well and not wakes up soooo often. 

im now struggling with breast-feeding. honestly, i dont know how to handle it. im into a vicious cycle.

rightfully, the theory is simply - supply and demand 

but i believe, the demand had been wrongfully inflated with the introduction of a breast pump. 

wrongfully inflated demand = over (wrongful) supply of milk 

over-supply will result in constant fullness (and soreness!!!) which means, u either let the baby feed or pump out again. 

but, if you pump out, more will be produce again! 

it's a never ending cycle. 

to combat that, i resorted to pumping fewer frequency and shorter duration. 

but i realised that doesnt solve the problem, cuz apparently, constantly having 'uncleared' milk will result in plugged ducts and inflammation. 

uh-huh. 

so my strategy now is to pump slightly more often but much shorter duration. just clear bit by bit. at one hand, the milk gets to clear. and on the other hand, it doesnt send the wrong message to the body that more milk is required. 

i really hope by doing so, the supply and demand can be balanced. 

breastfeeding is really an art and not so easy. 

見招拆招

learning and discovering along the way. 

ahhhhh.. parenthood! 

八年

Today marks the 8th year with the bank.

O my. How time flies.

First job since grad. Well done.

我是如此的忠心呀。

OMG.

Changed dept 3x. That's some consolation. At least I'm not stuck at one bank one place.

Supposed to have changes, but always thwarted due to circumstances.

Now, it will be even harder to have changes.

Well, it's not a bad place to work in after all.

Must learn to 惜福。

Shall see how much longer I can stay in there.

Ho ho.

Nua-inG

ahhh, one month of maternity leave had passed just like that. 

why so fast???!!

OMG.

3 more months to go nia... 

better cherish and enjoy while i can.. 

nua nua nua!!!!!!!!

im sooo loving it! 

Rayous's Baby ShoWeR

dear rayous's baby shower was held on the special SG50 PH - 7 Aug 2015. 

preparation of the red eggs...

initially we had wanted to hold the shower outside, but there was no good location. so in the end, we held it at our home sweet home. keke

photo montage showing our journey from marriage to pregnancy to birth to day-to-day growth of rayous. cool, isint it? LOL 

balloons... 

and more balloons..

actually the balloons abit waste of money cuz no real purpose, only for decorations. but we still went ahead lah, just to add on to the 'baby shower atmosphere'. lol. really lovee these balloons, if only they could stay afloat for a long long time! alas. 

and the star of the day - our baby rayous lee! 

finally his 1st month! really hope for him to 快高长大

we held 2 sessions of buffet - afternn session for relatives and night session for friends and colleagues. 

the confinement nanny. so far we are still having a comfortable time and havent really experience the full force of having a baby in the family. wait till she's gone.... im really worried, honestly. 

had wanted to take pics with all guests who came, but in the end was so busy and tired that din managed to take pics with the guests at all. grrrr. 

wishing baby rayous 健康, 平安, 快乐, 快高长大, 聪明伶俐, 听爸妈的话 =)

looking forward to celebrating his 1st birthday =)

Happy NaTioNaL DaY

happy national day! 

enjoy the long hols peeps. 

proud to be a singaporean.

may singapore always be prosperous and peaceful!

how will life be after my confinement nanny is gone??

ahhhh... unimaginable...! 

几stress一下...

howwwwww????