To TaiPei

blogging frm changi airport now. boarding in abt another 15mins time. juz ate a plate of chix rice which costs $6.80 and a can of drink which cost $2. i feel like a carrot cake !!!!

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okay, so there.. will be back 2dec late at nite.

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bon voyage!

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EvaLuaTiOn TesT

had the evaluation driving test today.. somewad like prelims in school... or mock exams~

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quite demoralizing.. cuz i tot im ready le... but the instructor pointed out soo many errors. he even said i should have opted for auto car instead of manual car and tt if i want to change my mind, i still can do so... and he said, if im not confident enuff, i can always delay my test date... wad is he trying to hint huh???

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he also said i needed at least another 10 more lessons b4 i can take the test. haaaaaiiiiiiiiii........

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looks like i better buck up liao. really wished can pass the very 1st time round.

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it's really sucky being a L plate. all those silly crappy rules... who the hell will follow them when it comes to real driving??? stopping at the stop line???? c'mon lorr.... even the police car did not do that!!!!!

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it's juz like cheating little kids in school. remember how the teachers said must raise ur right hand when crossing the zebra crossing? and when crossing traffic lights, must turn ur head right then left then right again????? those r all craps arent them? no one does tt, for god sake!

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as a kid i alrady think teachers r making a fool of me... and now.... how to comply????

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i really must get out of the bloody L plate state.... SOON!

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Okay, 1 thing to share.. the instructor said there's also 10 commandments in driving and the 1st thing is 'TO LOOK FAR AHEAD'... lol ~

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quite an interesting guy.. too bad he doesnt coach.... if im under him, i guess i'll learn better. hmmm ~

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@ WorK

something happened at work and i felt v bad abt it. there's this colleague who joined in may. i was the one who coached him when he 1st came. during the coaching period, i already find him quite presumptuous. apparently he likes to assume alot and not really following wad im passing down to him. tt time already not v happy with him, but it's wasnt tt bad until some time later...

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beginning he joined us for lunch. but along the way, he made so many of us unhappy with his silly comments, tt we decided to exclude him frm our lunch group. we'll go off silently 5mins b4 time and leave him behind. eventually, he also gave up and now he lunches alone.

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along the way, i start to dislike him more and more. besides his insensitive comments, i find him v wayang and a darn slacker. also, he forgets many things which i've told him and he'll claim he doesnt know and tt puts a v bad light on me cuz pple will think tt i did not teach him properly. i was really frustruated at 1 pt of time cuz i feel so unjustified! but i guess, ultimately, it was this conflict of interests tt caused me to dislike him so much. apparently, im assigned to do a difficult portfolio which will affect my productivity but he's not. i start to feel the unjustice because we r both of the same rank, so y am i made to kio sai and have to work doubly hard and fast in order to hit productivity while he can get the easy way out??

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also, i find him not a keen learner and is someone who will escape at every opportunity and who will think of the easiest (but not the correct) way to get out of trouble. i dont know if it's genuine unawareness or issit pure manipulations.... 是真的不懂? 还是扮猪吃老虎?

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our work nature requires teamwork and initiatives, if not it's easy to cause teammates to be kenna bombed by customers. and this colleague had caused us to be kenna bombed a few times. i remb dropping him a 'warning' email. i admit i was a little too much with tt email. hence, subsequently, whenever he commits a mistake, my email to him will always end with something like 'if u r unsure, feel free to chk with us'. however, he seldom check things out with me. i donnoe issit tt he doesnt like talking to me, or there's nothing tt he's unsure of, or he juz could not be bothered.

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up till some point in time, im sick of getting into trouble with customers because of his inability to follow up on the acc/s. i started cc-ing the bosses in my emails to him. intially the bosses did not act on it. until today......

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basically tt particuler acc was not properly followed up and tt caused me and another colleague, A, to be kenna bombed by customer. i referred the acc back to him and cc the bosses. then in btw there were the exchanges of emails but throughout everything, he doesnt appear to be apologetic at all. then colleague A 'exploded' and sent him a super harsh emai and cc the bosses. the email stunned me as well cuz the tone, the diction and the color choices were juz - HARSH.

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few mins after, the bosses asked me and him and colleague A to the meeting room. haii...

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bosses explained to him wad should have been done to the account and wad issues tt me and colleague A have ....

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throughout, he looked sooooo pathetic. almost like wanna cry liao. then he said in quivering tone 'i apologised to the 2 of you'... goshh... i really feel sooo bad.

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i didnt think things will get so big till the mgmt wants to talk to the 3 of us privately. i really did not mean it to turn out tt way.

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suddenly, i feel like a wicked witch, causing soo much embarrassement to someone who mite really be innocent and helpless (cuz everyone ostracises him!). it's not his fault tt mgmt made me do difficult stuff and not him... so y should i take it against him? true tt he did not follow up properly, but as his mentor, shouldnt i be more tolerant than all others?? shouldnt i render more help to him than all others should??

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suddenly i feel so small, so petty, so narrow-minded. i feel so wicked. i feel like a trouble-maker. i feel like a gossiper. i feel like a back-stabber. i feel like a politician in all these office politics.

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im sorry. i promise i will be nicer to him. i promise i will guide him along in all the ways i can. i promise i'll stop being prejudice. i promise i will be patient with him.

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but then, i always believe help should only be rendered to pple who need help and who ask for help.

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if he doesnt even bother to seek help, y should i so kpo and constantly chk with him if he's okay or not?

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okay, the devil side of me is working again.

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i feel so contradictory. but 1 thing's for sure, almost everyone of us ostracises him and he's juz 1 pathetic fellow. and... i always have this soft spot for the underdogs. o well.

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tt reminds me of sec sch. sec sch there was this malay gal whom the whole class ostracised as well. till the xtent tt the form teacher had to step-in and talk to us. i remb there was once during some talk when i sat nxt to her. she was on my right and i was sitting in a manner tt my body tilted slightly to the left and after tt, the teacher questioned y i had to do this to the gal... i was like.. man.... seated with body slightly tilted to the left also cannot??!

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haii...

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TaiPei 2008

yeah, i've xtended my taipei's trip duration. originally we'll be departing on 26nov and coming back 30nov. but like i mentioned earlier, 5d4n is really too little... hence, we called and chk out with the airline and we juz have to top-up $45 each for a rtn air tix on 2dec. so now, we r going for 7d6n!! yeahhhh!!!! im soooooo happy! it makes more sense now. :)

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previously din really tink much of the itinery cuz effectively, only 3 full days.. not much time so nothing much to plan...more or less will follow the itinery i had last year with yh. but now, really gotta do some planning liao. if time permits and if it's convenient, hopefully can travel out of taipei.. perhaps to kao shiung or something ~

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2 more weeks..... finally can go away for a while. :)

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英雄or狗熊

one of the UOB branches nearly kenna robbed today..
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bank robbery.... and i thought it'll only happen in movies...
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single man, 单枪匹马, w/o guns, w/o knife, w/o weapons.... juz a fake bomb.....
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garang, or madness?
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i think, it's juz plain desperation.
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SaVinG FoR 下雨天

DBS will be laying off 900 staff to cut costs... read from papers tt retrenchment will be the last option for UOB, but cost cutting will come from the reductions in increments and bonuses.

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uh-oh... that's not good news at all.

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right at this mmt, 'retrenchment' is not a threatening word to me. im young, i dont have much commitments, so if i really kenna retrenched, it's not tt depressing either (except perhaps, the impact on the morale and the dignity put aside).

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but i imagined... if 1 day, im 30years old with 2 kids (1 who is a newborn), a newly bought car with 7years instalments, a house with 30-years more repayment to go, 2 parents to maintain, and tons of instalment plans signed with the credit cards........... wad will the understanding of 'retrenchment' become?
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to make thing worse, let's put in the assumption tt i've newly joined the company for only 1year before i was retrenched. which means the compensation will only be a mth of my salary.............

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wad will happen then?

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so conclusion?
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let's all be more prudent with our spendings. the essence of 'saving for rainy days' has never make as much sense as now. no one can predict the future.. but there's one fact which all of us understand ie. w/o money, nothing is achieveable.
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TimE To PuT To A StoP

im back. im finally back.

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not tt i went anywhere, but i've lost myself for a while. for a long while. i've finally found myself. finally got back on my feet. finally know where im heading. 1nov, tt's the date.

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i guess when one gets older, the determination gets bigger. or perhaps, i've never wanted it as badly as now.

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all these years... there's always 2 things tt r bugging me... it's time to change things and stop them frm disturbing me. the shame... the sorrows.... the self-pitiness......the imbalance..... they all shall come to a stop.

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u know, sometimes, or rather, most of the times, things happen sooo gradually that u failed to realise that there's any difference. it's only when the difference becomes soo significant that you start to be more aware. but by then... it's really tooo late.

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i hope im not too late. but even if im, im determined to change it.

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i believe i can. i've never been so sure about myself b4.

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If I can see it, then I can do it

If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

I believe I can flyI believe I can touch the sky

I think about it every night and day

Spread my wings and fly away

I believe I can soar

I see me running through that open door

I believe I can fly

I believe I can fly

I believe I can fly

See I was on the verge of breaking down

Sometimes silence can seem so loud

There are miracles in life I must achieve

But first I know it starts inside of me

oh If I can see it, then I can be it

If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

(frm the lyrics of R Kelly's I Believe I Can Fly)

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BaD TiMes

21oct had a sudden team meeting with the mgmt.. and it was chaired by the head who is of a higher rank than my direct mgmt.. it doesnt bode well when someone of the higher mgmt has to come and give pep talk, does it?

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basically wants us to work harder, to put in more effort, to show more teamwork.... and wad was repeatedly mentioned was 'the good times are over and bad times are here'.... o well...

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i guess most human beings need to be intimidated b4 they can move. somehow, initiative is not in everyone of us. i must say the meeting did bring some effect becuz apparently, pple r working harder and OT-ing more. but then, as always, it's juz gonna be a phase thing. human beings are human beings.. it wont take long b4 pple r back to their normal selves..

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all i can say is 真金不怕红炉火. i believe in consistency and steadiness. i believe in moving w/o pple having to tell you. i believe in taking intiatives.. and i hope the mgmt can see.

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the meeting dragged till 7pm.. and thinking it was a short meeting (as stated in the email!), i did not bring my hp with me and did not infm hubb. and.... all the while, poor hubb was waiting downstairs w/o knowing wad had delayed me.. haha.. paisay paisay..

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UpDaTes

woah, looks like oct will be the month with the lowest produce. now only the 3rd entry.. o well..

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some updates.. am going to taipei with hubb end nov! yeahh! leaving on 26th and back on 30th. travelling by jet* and accomodation will be at royal castle. airfare + accomodation < $700. good deal yea? though not as gd deal as the one i had last year when i went with yh, but still not too bad le lar.

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this trip was long awaited for. basically has to accomodate many things.. mainly tt fat boy! apparently he's only available after his exams which means after 25nov. but b/w 2dec to 9dec, he's down with some army stuff which means he cannot leave singapore. so, we can only travel after 9dec. promo every now and then, but either the wrong period, or the pricing wasnt low enuff. waited and waited and finally came this 50% discount whereby after all the surcharges, the price is still reasonable. the only 1 thing im not satisifed with is tt the duration's a little too short. 5days4nites... mmm... wished it were 7days6nites.

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hubb's neber been to taipei b4 and i know he's always wanted to go. for me, i juz wanna go away for a while, to take a break, to rest and relax. apparently taipei's the best option. not too ex and can take plane. heh ~

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taipei left me a v gd impression and my trip with yh was one of the best trip i had... i sincerely hope tt fat boy will not spoil the past experiences.. but i guess it's kidda hard la. somewhere, somehow, we'll always quarrel when we r overseas. uh-oh ~

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well, am still looking 4ward though. hope it'll be cold but gd weather :)

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coming yr end, many things to look 4ward. nxt nxt wk got a public hol, nov got my trip, dec needless to say lar, the whole mth will be in festive mood. then jan will be cny. feb will be a short mth. and march will be the bonus mth. hehe.. from now till march, at least there are things to look 4ward to.

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but talking abt bonus.... looks like there's definitely gonna be a big slash this yr. haii... anticipated for soo long, finally can receive my 1st full-year bonus.. but the last part of the year doesnt look gd at all. so many adverse news... bad economy, finance and banking sectors badly hit.. my bonus's gonna lost one huge part i guess. booooooooo ~

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talking abt the recent financial news... i really cannot understand how those investors can protest and expect the government to pay them back. those are investments lei... it's either win or lose. when win, they happily pocket the payout.. when lose, they claimed tt they r not aware and not informed of the risks involved and now they want the government to pay back. wad logic is tt? human beings r really scary creatures. nobody force them to take up the investments.. if unsure, y the hell sign and take it? juz plain greediness isnt it? once signed, it means tt u r fully aware of wad u r signing for... so wad for feign ignorance now? these pple huh.... juz plain jialek. using other taxpayers' money to pay for these pple's ignorance, folly and greed.. this juz doesnt make sense.

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okay, still need to do the self-evaluation. time to glorify myself in order to get higher bonus (hopefully). lol~

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bLinD

I hate losers...... stupid lousy losers...
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i guess i only have myself to blame.
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always thinking doing things good for others... however, pple mite not appreciate at all.
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o well.. i shld juz stop being a smart aleck.
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mmob - MIND MY OWN BUSINESS!
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InVaSiOn Of ForEigN TaLenTs

'invasion of foreign talent' - this was the topic tt my grp did during the jc project. jc was like 5 years back. back then, it was a problem. now, more so.

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went down to chinatown tdy after driving lesson to meet pa and ma for dinner. took the NEL line and there were sooooo many bangladeshies taking the train... when finally alighted frm the train, along the way, there were sooooooo many chinese..

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singapore is more and more unlike singapore. foreigners are really invading our land!!!!

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chinatown is where all the chinese go... little india is where all the bangla go.... orchard is where all the filippinoes go..... this is soooo OMG ~

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the restaurants/coffeshops/hawker centres are using more and more chinese. soo many of those waiters/waitresses/helpers r frm china. for the filippinoes, besides being domestic helpers, many work in banks' call centres or customer service side cuz they can spk english. try calling the call centres of the banks, most prob u'll hit a filippino. was @ samsung customer care @ plaza sing tt day and almost all the officers r filippinoes...

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and not forgetting the malaysians as well...... mostly in factories and beauty industry.....

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actually understandable y they r so much more popular to employers than singaporeans do. the 2 magic words - cheap and good. where else to find rite?

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sometimes i really wonder wad singaporeans can do. the top positions are held by foreign expatriates. the low positions are held by the foreign labourers. we singaporeans? nowhere here nor there. i really worry 1 day singaporeans can be soooo easily displaced tt all the job openings are held by foreigners while the singaporeans eat grass.

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i sincerely think we r not too far off frm there.

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imbalance. but somehow the government doesnt think so.

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still remb in school, the scholars are mainly frm india, china, vietnam. wad is left for singaporeans? issit tt we r so incapable tt we have to allow, or rather, invite foreigners to come in and work for us? or issit that we have no opportunity to excel at all?

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this is juz so sad.

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while singapore strives to be a multi-hub, how many singaporeans truly play a part in reaching tt aim? and... more importantly, how many singaporeans will truly enjoy the benefits tt come with being a multi-hub?

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serious business aside, tdy's driving lesson was cuii ~ almost as bad as the 1st lesson. donnoe wad the hell got into me. 11th lesson le. really no more excuses i can find for myself le, except perhaps, the sun was real scorching hot and i was too irriated by tt to focus on driving. o well. mistakes made in changing lanes, right turning, exiting frm a filter lane.. mount the kerb when going thru the crank course... making soo many damn mistakes! and... i actually mistook the green light as the red light and almost come to a stop when im not supposed to! gosh.. i must be so dreaming! i think after i get the license, i mite not have the guts to drive on my own either. argh. such a loser.

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listening to the superband finals now.. sorry, but i seriously think the 'tu zi' cannot make it.. i find the 2 gals in the grp vvvvv freakish. im sorry, no offence, juz personal views.. i really have no idea how come they can make it to the finals. and... i guess they'll emerge as the final winner.. wad is the world coming to huh? ~

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BdAy CeLeB

bday this year was spent up on singapore flyer. meant to be a surprise, but tt silly boy is not my match at all. way b4 hand i already knew wad he had planned. lol ~ bday this year seemed 'quieter'.. also dont knw y.. but it's juz like any normal day. somehow, already lost tt kind of anticipation and enthusiasm in celebrating bday. perhaps, old liao, bday celeb is no longer as fun as it was years back ~

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he booked the 7.30pm slot, apparently wanting to catch the sunset and the nite scenery. stated on the tix tt we'll have to go in half hr earlier and so we went in at abt 7pm. in the end, there wasnt a queue at all and v soon, we were allowed to 'board' le. but then he decided it's too early and so we sat there and waited til abt 7.15pm then board. and as i said, there wasnt a queue at all, and so in the end..............

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the 2 of us had the whole cabin to ourselves!!

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the cabin's quite big and it's a little scary with juz the 2 of us. though going at a real slow speed, as it rises, i got a little scare too. soo high up ~

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mmm.. actually nothing v spectacular or breath-taking lar. juz a different level of seeing the same things. perhaps more appealing to the foreigners. juz like how the nite sceneries of other countries will attract me more.
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after half-hr and we exited frm the cabin, bumped into tis controller who asked us how was it and did we managed to catch the sun-set etc. then he said the best time to catch the sunset will be abt 6.30-6.45pm. and the nxt thing he asked was 'how? want to go again?'... the 1st thing tt crossed my mind was to pay and go again. so i asked him 'need to pay again rite?' but the man's answer was.. 'no need, u want?' and soooooooo.............

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we went up the 2nd time round!! hahaha.. but this time round not juz the 2 of us liao.. with many other pple as well.. lol ~

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~cool pic yea? cabin and landscape side by side ~

*some interesting business acumen in this s'pore flyer.. b4 u can enter to board the cabin, all passengers are required to take pictures. it's tt kind of computerized pics whereby they take ur picts and backgrd will be computerized. the end result will be u inside the cabin with the landscape as backgrd. of cuz, compulsory to take, but not compulsory to buy. $15 for 1st copy and $10 for the subsequents. we bought a copy. haha ~ abit ex lar, but i think it'll be the 1st and the last time i'll spend money to board the flyer. it's not tt worth it lar~ we r singaporeans lehh, not foreigners..

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the unplanned 2nd round worried hubb a little cuz he had made reservation at the restuarant and it closes at 9.30pm. and so we took a cabby down to this home-style restuarant along pasir panjang rd. hubb kind of know the owners as his grp is doing a project on the resturant.

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tt's my v yummy choco bday cake. yum yum! and.. the assistant chef suddenly appeared with his guitar and sang a bday song for me. then all others at the restuarant started clapping and stuff.. kidda embarassing sia.. too bad no pics taken as tt silly boy was stunned too. and after tt, we r too malu to ask the chef to come out with his guitar again. lol ~

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*yepp! happy bday to me!
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2nd time i went high up during my bday. 21st bday was up on cable car... sat inside and ate dinner.. tt year was a real surprise cuz din xpect it at all. talking abt it... where are the pictures huh?? gosh ~

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ShoCk

i woke up literally in shock juz now. my eyes juz clean opened and i decided i cannot fall asleep again. i strongly believe if i continue to sleep, i'll have such stupid dreams again. one of the rare times in life when im so relieved to be awake and it's all a dream. now is barely 9am. mum was also quite shocked y i woke up soo early. the 1st thing she saw me was 'y u wake up so early? u r going out?'.. in a blur state, i tot it was already 10+am... looked into the clock then realised it's only 8am+. diao ~

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i dreamt i was still in uni. then for the whole 3/4 of the semester, i forgot tt monday i have lessons and i havent been attending all the lessons on monday. i remb looking at the timetable and saw 'jetstar' as the 1st lesson. then in between there's some break and the 2nd lesson was a maths lesson. then some breaks later, got a last lesson for the day. then i remb flipping thru the maths book and consoling myself tt there werent too many chapters and the topics werent too tough and tt i should be able to study on my own. also remb me analysing y i can totally missed out monday. the reason was due to me taking tt slot alone. no other frens took the same slot as me. finally also remb i was angry with hubb and frens for not reminding me of the lessons. o, and i remb wondering y no professors or anyone who contacted me since i mia for sooo long and tt i'll sure be getting zero for participation.

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wad a dream rite?

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i woke up and it took me a while to realise i've long said byebye to study life and am now working. the reality came as such a big relieve! phew........ lucky it's all a dream!!!!!!!!

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i guess this dream showed a few symptoms. 1st, im greatly affected sub-consciously by hubb's complaints of sch work. 2nd, i really hate monday. 3rd, it juz goes to show how much i want to travel cuz 'jetstar' can even appear as a module! 4th, i really like working > studying.

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thank god.

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B-DaY MorNinG

ta-dum! yeah... im on leave today.... it's my day afterall, rite?
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but then.. i kidda regret the final decision. 'final' becuz initally, the plan was to take 1/2day leave, then i'll knock off at 1pm. hubb's got an impt presentation in school tdy, so he can only meet me ard 5pm. cant work full day cuz he's got some secret plans going on whereby the timing does not allow me to work till 6.30pm. and so, i decided intially to work half-day, to at least clear my profile at work. but then my colleagues started pyscho-ing me telling me how dumb it is to work on bday... how dumb it is to travel home after work then come out again in the evening etc etc... and so here im, doing nothing and wasting my time away.
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i really shld have gone for the half day. was having great dilemmas ytd on the half-day or full-day leave thingie. in the end, i succumbed to the pyscho-ness. haii. i hope it doesnt affect my productivity much.. and hopefully on monday, i wont have to deal with the accumulation of acc/s in my profile. monday is blue enough.. i seriously do not need a tons of shit acc/s for me to deal with early in the morning. boo hoo~
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well, freakish arent i? bday still worry abt work.. made a decision yet blame it on others.. made a decision then regret and be bothered abt it... im juz soooooo un-cool!
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anyway, it's really ironic how things work. on working days and the alarm goes off, u'll hope sooo much u r off tdy then can continue sleeping. then half-awake, u'll start contemplating the possibility of taking urgent leave or taking mc. when u decided it's not ethical to do so, u'll freaking wake up and with closed eyes, visit the washroom and with half-opened eyes, sit on the chair and brush teeth. then u'll start to sigh at how pai-mia (bad life) u r. then the tots of taking mc or leave tmr will cross ur mind. and the nxt day, the cycle starts again.
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finally comes the day whereby ur officially on mc or leave. but when the alarm goes off, surprisingly wad takes place everyday doesnt take place! the alarm went off, u tried to search for tt kind of tiredness u experience every morning, so tt u can fully enjoy the fact tt ur off and can continue slping, but somehow, it's not there. u know how cuiiii tt feels???
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it's really super siann lar. i woke up the same timing i woke up every morning but not feeling the kind of sleepiness, the kind of longing to go back to slp.. wad da hell is going on here? then... all the more i felt tt i should be back at work...all the more i felt i have wasted the half-day leave. gosh.. this is all sooo wrong!
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perhaps in the v 1st place, when the alarm went off, im already blaming myself for taking the half-day off. ytd nite im already asking myself if tt's a rite decision.. tt's y something is bothering me and hence i couldnt go back to slp... haiii~ im really freakish.
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ytd was the 8th driving lesson. much better le. wil never forget the painful experience of 2nd lesson though. haha.. instructor is getting more and more stern n more and more impatient. natural cuz the expectation will go higher as the number of lesson increases. mistakes which took place in 2nd lesson shld not be taking place again in the 8th lesson. though he's no longer the patient and assuring instructor he used to be, i still admire him alot. i think he's v professional. he's able to control his temper, his tone, his emotions to fit each and every student at the different levels of learning.
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say for example he has 3 students in a day. 1st student is at the 18th lesson, the next is at 2nd lesson, the last one is at 10th lesson. for the 1st one, he has to higher his expectation and attitude cuz the student is already at the 18th lesson. he has to be stern and unforgiving becuz at the 18th lesson, u really shouldnt be making any more non-sensical mistakes. then immediately after tt, he'll has to take the student who's at 2nd lesson. then his whole mentality has to adjust. he cannot be stern, he cannot be impatient, he cannot be unforgiving, he must be assuring cuz the poor guy is only at the 2nd lesson which most prob will be disastrous. then after tt, his mindset has to change again and adjust to the attitude tt shld be shown to a guy at the 10th lesson.
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u see wad i mean?
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hubb said it shld be tt way wad... true.. but he's a human being also lei.. how to adjust so easily?? hence, i sincerely feel he's very professional. at different stages, he knows how to treat the student. i will never forget how assuring and how patient he was with me on the initial lessons. now, though at times, i feel he's too fierce and too impatient, i still respect him alot. he should treat me tt way, else how will i learn, rite?
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will try to take a pic with him one of these days..

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such a long post.... juz goes to show how bo liao im.... uh-oh.

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HaPpY BirThDaY

Im officially 23 years old.
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happy birthday to me.
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may all my wishes come true.
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cheerz :)
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MoOnCaKe FesTiVaL

it's mooncake festival again. feels extraordinarily quiet this year. it's juz like any other normal day. if dont mention, wont even know it's the mooncake festival. o well.. all the chinese festivals like getting less and less celebrated and remembered. mm.. ~

tmr's monday again. sianz. y does the wkend have to pass so quickly? 2 days passed juz like tt. haii... okay, wkdays pass equally fast.. but... it's juz sian lar.. u know, have to work 5 days juz for tt 2 days break.. not in equilibrium leii..

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i juz hope it'll be a gd week ahead. monday pls pass quickly. once monday is over, the rest of the days will zoom past.

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jiayou.

HenDeRsOn WaVes

it's a homely sat ytd. hubb came over after his tuition.. then we were both too tired to go out. so took a nap at home and went out to botak jones for dinner. finally tried the choco cheesecake there. ehh... not too fantastic i will say..

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after dinner, went to henderson waves.. this new bridge at mount faber. the shape is like a wave or a sine (or cosine?) curve, hence the name 'henderson waves'. lol~ it links all the way to clementi. been around for a few months le, ytd finally got a chance to go up and visit. in the past only went past it on bus. it's really tall from below.. then i was thinking the bridge looks rather fragile and how come pple dare to walk on it cuz it's really high up.. but in fact, it's v wide up there. not wad i imagined when i see it from below...

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*the interior*

*the exterior*

*my neighbourhood @ night*

*the road from high above*

*the moon on lunar 14 aug*

*77.88m above sea level*

*hubb and me*

*the bridge from below*

quite an interesting place to go. if got chance, shall try and see if it really will lead me to clementi. lol~
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ChoiCes In LiFe

read in the newspaper ytd, tt there's this 30-yr old guy jobless guy who beat up the 58-yr old mother after getting drunk and the mother had no choice but to call up the police and have the son arrested. it was reported tt the son was a drop-out in school since pri-2, is jobless and is a drinker and will turn violent after getting drunk. the family is being supported by the meagre pay of the 2 parents, both 58, 1 being a dish-washer and the other a cleaner.

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so there really are such hopeless people in this world huh? 30 years old and still living off the old parents. unable to get a job (or maybe doesnt want to), no money yet still want to drink and get drunk and violent. seriously, who's fault isit? the parents? cuz they failed to bring up the son properly, letting him drop out of school at the age of 8, allowing him to indulge in himself for the past 30 years? ... or the son? cuz he chose to lead such a 'useless' and aimless life? indeed, low qualifications = lower options in life. but he can be a cleaner, a driver, a hawker helper, a labourer etc rite? i mean, tough work but at least it's decent and fetching income rite? perhaps, it's juz easier said than done. im not him, i dont know wad kind of difficulties there are.

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reading the papers, my thought flow again. cant help but compare him with the hi-fliers customers in my profile. the same 30-years old.... but some are sooo high up there.. but some are perhaps, lower than where hell is.. why?

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then some days back, there's this 16 or 17-yr old student who drove w/o license and tt sent him on his way to meet the lord. again, whose fault issit? the brother who failed to keep the car keys properly? the parents who failed to discipline the boy properly? the school who failed to educate the boy? the government, the public, the society who failed to create greater awareness? or isst the boy himself who chooses to do such stunt and pay for it?

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seriously, im sorry to say tt, but he really deserves it. it's big fortune tt he did not crash some other pple, else really 害人害己. at such a young age already doing something so reckless and brainless. it's only right that he pays for his actions. to me, driving w/o license is more irresponsible than drunk-driving. esp now tt im taking driving lessons.. there's no way u can driver properly w/o going thru proper training. for those idiots out there who thinks tt u can drive juz cause you can come in 1st in a darn daytona game, pls wake up your freaking idea!

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i guess in life, there are things which we can control and there are things which we cannot. there are things which we can choose and there are things which we cannot choose. for those tt we cannot choose, let's juz pray tt the guy up there will arrange something gd for us. for those tt we can choose, then it's really up to the individuals. for every choices made, you have to bear the responsibilities and the consequences.

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remember... u have a choice.. and if u failed to make a good one, then face the consequences urself. one have to be responsible for one's actions.

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Silly FruiTLesSnEss

had the monthly dept meeting tdy. one of the most heated meeting ever since i joined the company. or rather, it's not one of the most heated.... it's the most heated.

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so many different viewpoints, each arguing for own stand. then pple digressing away and started discussing their own issues.. everybody started talking within themselves.... soooo noisy... sooo bizarre..

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i always tot it's issues with other departments.. but in fact, there are soo many internal conflicts going on...

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somehow... everyone seemed to have their own agendas.. everyone trying to cover their own asses.. trying to push things away...

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to me.. things are getting more and more absurd and more and more senseless.

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i juz hope those pple who are ever so unsatisfied with the mgmt, with the company, can leave soon. juz shut up and go away and stop affecting the morale of others. if so unhappy, wad for stay on? if want to stay on, then wad for talk nonsense and influence others?

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really kan4 bu4 shuang3.

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anyway, as usual, i'll juz do wad i can. if unhappy, can always come to my desk and talk to me.

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ha~ it's really more than meet the eyes huh???

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MRT..

i once tot tt being a mrt train driver will be the best job ever cuz they dont have to face customers, they dont have quotas to meet, they juz stay in their little control room and make sure everything's on time will do le..

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but.. im wrong..

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because....

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THEY WILL KENNA COMPLAINTS ALSO!!!

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i juz did a complaint juz now. was on the train from TPY to Raffles Place. then gotta change train at RP. when my train arrived at RP, the train opposite (heading Boon Lay) was waiting for the commuters to board. when the door of my train opend, the commuters opposite were still boarding. so naturally, those on my side chiong to get on board tt train. then the toot-toot-toot-toot sound came on and the door closed knocking onto me and another gal. then a few others were shut off and they couldnt board!

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i mean... wad da hell lorr?

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cant tt bloody fellow see the hell lot of us trying to rush and get on board? cant he juz wait for a little while more?? and.. doesnt they take a last look at the passageway to make sure tt there's no more exiting/entering b4 they shut the doors???? lucky me and tt gal managed to sqz thru. if nt the train mite as well drag us along! tt gal was worse off then me la. i got a knock on my left arm but tt gal kidda sqz by the door. wth ~

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complaint @ the control station. but not too sure if they'll take it seriously. perhaps i should drop an email to smrt. but again... do they really care?

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sometimes, it juz doesnt make sense lor. experienced a number of times when our door opened and we rushed for the opposite train but the train will juz shut up and leave. even when the train is rather empty and we r already halfway there, the train will still shut and leave. doesnt make economical sense. super irritating also. know they have to run on schedule... but.. we r already halfway there! cant even wait for 1 min?????!!!!!!

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sometimes.. i juz don understand wad is this world coming to.

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