IlluSiOnz

我的向往,我的憧憬,我的希望,随着今天而破灭. relieving classes is my fav and as i mentioned so many times b4, i love relieving classes. but today...... that sec 2 class which i took.... it totally shattered my passion. usually in a class, there r bound to be the noisy ones and the quiet ones. so u can always find comfort in the quiet ones.. at least u know whatever ur teaching, someone is listening. but today.. the whole class was noisy except for 2 gals. the boys were bad, and so were the gals! one gal totally showed me attitude and i ticked her off w/o giving her face. show me attitude... wad the.... for naughty students, there r many kinds. one kind is juz 顽皮 and like to act funny and make funny remarks and make u 啼笑皆非. another kind is rebellious and 目中无人. today i bumped into the 2nd kind! use hp despite my constant warnings, talk among themselves, make noise, talk back, ignored me when i asked them qns....... 简直当我不存在!! finally i lost it and yelled at them. and yesh, better after tt. but still, they use hp, talk, and refuse to do the work.

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actually only 1 or 2 boys were naughty. the rest i can see tt they r willing to learn de. but somehow, they kenna influenced by the naughty boys. in the past i cannot understand y parents must go do volunteer work, go make donations, go queue early in the morning etc juz so tt their kids can get into gd schs. parents even cry when their kids cannot get into the sch of their choices. i used to think it's so silly of those parents. wad for? if the child is born smart, he is born smart. wherever he goes, he'll still make it. but.... this is TOTALLY WRONG!! who u mix with is of fundamental importance! 近朱者赤,近墨者黑, this is really really true. if u r a naughty boy, but all those ard u r gd and studious boys, u will turn to be like them too. conversely, if u r a gd boy, but all those ard u r naughty boys, then u'll turn into a naughty boy too. 出污泥而不染不是不可能...但又有几个能做到?? so frens, in future become parents liao, pls pls take note of who ur children hang out with! as far as possible, set up a gd environment for them to grow up.

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now i understand y some teachers totally bo chup the students. they simply continue the lesson even though no one's listening and everyone's making noise. they understand tt there is no pt scolding and wasting breath on these students. this kind of teachers is smart.. no need to stress ownself, no need to gek sim, no need to puke blood, no need to get angry. so long as he/she delivers the lesson as scheduled, it's considered job done. i need to learn this approach. i don wanna be like some teachers who scold, scold and scold and in the end, the one who suffer most in the teacher him/herself. make myself vomit blood.. wad for? and now.. i can understand y my teacher cried in front of the whole class when a classmate showed her attitude le. the feeling's really bad when students 不把你放在眼里.... but then, i still cannot accept a teacher crying in front of the class cuz kenna bullied by the students. it juz shows how weak the teacher is. cannot cannot...

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next week i still gotta relieve 3 classes.. omg... something i love becomes something i dread... how sad can life be? tell me, wad else can i look forward to?