Diaooooo

i really don know wad am i doing... now @ raffles place... pacific coffee... using their internet services... spent 6 bucks on a coffee juz to use the internet. wad the.. ok...i juz went for another interview. a private securities company. later at 2pm, im going over to uob to discuss the contract and at 5pm, i have an interview with the overseas bank. can someone pls tell me wad am i doing??? i already had a contract on hand... so y am i still attending interviews and getting myself into more trouble?? diaoooo.....

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well .. i guess i juz wanna try... anyway, no harm going for interviews rite?? gd experience ma.. and not as if they'll offer me.... but i really don know y am i doing all these lorr.. being so fickle and jumping to whichever side tt is giving me more. i don like myself to be like tt! how could i ??!! i signed the contract with JUST.. yet when uob came, i entertained the tot of jumping to uob. and later im going to discuss contract with them. so, if the overseas bank gives me an offer, am i going to do the same thing i did to JUST to uob? and happily jump to the overseas bank cuz it's better??? i know this is not the way of doing things. u don juz jump cuz the other side is better. so y am i still doing it? i cant stand myself being so fickle! i hate myself for being like tt!

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im such a bitch. im despicable and incorrigible. i have no sense of responsibility. im selfish. im not focused. i don knoe wad i want. im HORRIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!