SuffeRinG FrOm PGS

I know im suffering frm PGS - Pre Graduating Syndrome. Yes. Im suffering frm it. i cannot believe im goin to say byebye to sch, maybe forever. I cannot believe im already 22 years old (by year). I cannot believe im stepping out into the society SOON. No, i cannnot accept.
*
primary sch sometimes seemed so far back. but sometimes, when u really go think abt it, there are many things which i can still remember clearly. suddenly pri sch seemed like juz yesterday. when ur in pri sch, u know u'll have to do well for PSLE so tt u can go into a gd sec sch. when ur in sec sch, u know u'll have to do well in order to go to a jc. and when ur in jc, u know tt u MUST do well in order to reach the final destination - university, or else, u'll be worse than a diploma holder. and now... i've reached my so-called 'final destination'. in fact, im leaving my final destination soon. i don know where else to go liao. all the while, i know where im heading... pri sch, sec sch, jc, then uni. but now.. im lost. wad's next?
*
the next step is to step into the REAL world. i don knoe if im being pessimistic or im being influenced, but i know is this real world, no one is real to u. ironic huh? it is a very competitive world and pple are all scheming. if u want to succeed, u have to be schemeier. u have to be really careful, else kenna stab also don know. it's really scary.

*
but, wad do i really want? do i juz want a stable job, get a steady pay every month, be a xiao3 ren2 wu4 in the co, and work till i retire? or do i want to compete, climb the corporate ladder, and be someone hong1 hong1 lie4 lie4 in the co/industry? being the former is relaxing, not much pressure, not much responsibilites, and of cuz no one bothers to stab u, cuz u r only a xiao ren wu. equivalently, u'll earn little. stable, but little money. most prob for the rest of ur life, u'll be like most of the other singaporeans. juz a commoner. being the latter is challenging, pressurizing, and full of responsibilites. many pple will be watching u, and i guess u'll be involved in many politics. but then, u can earn alot. then u can possess the 5 Cs or maybe even excced the 5 Cs. how?? wad do WU HUIPING want? even WU HUIPING herself doesnt know.

*
whenever i go sch, i'll see the working class rushing to work. take bus, take train, squeeze... then lunch time, go makan, and if got time, go jalan a while. knockoff time, then gotta take bus, take train and squeeze again. day after day, years after years. is this wad i want? or rather, besides this, is there any other thing which i can choose frm?

*

juz watched a taiwan variety show. interviewing this taiwan artiste. he said b4 he was famous, he lived on only 10 taiwan dollars per day. then he gotta work those boliao jobs which earns vv little. then finally, a director gave him a chance, and he finally managed to "salted fish turnover". i think in life, most of the times, u r only waiting for a chance lor. if no one gives u a chance, no matter how gd u r, it's no use. all u need is a chance to prove yourself. but how often can we find someone who's willing to give us a chance? haii.. ok.. see? i already said im suffering frm pgs liao.. getting more and more pessimistic and not proactive. i used to think that u don wait for pple to give u a chance, u urself go grab a chance. but... grab a chance? how?? u can be proactive and do this do that, but ultimately, if no one gives u a chance, tt's it, rite???

*

anyway, i juz cannot accept tt im 22. im no longer the little gal whom i know. im no longer the carefree gal whom i know. i no longer can act like a little gal, cuz im not anymore. suddenly i feel like crying. pple often say when ur having transition periods in ur life, u tend to be depressed. now i really believe le. im entering into the next phase of my life. a new chapter will be written. im scare. i don want to grow old. can things juz remain as it is now? i don know how long pa and ma can be with me. when i get older, they'll get older too. one day, they'll leave me.. i cannot accept. 我不想, 我不想, 我不想....

*

i know everyone goes thru the same phases. study, work, married, give birth, children grow up, ownself die. this is life, and since im a human being, like all other pple, i have to go thru this cycle as well. i used to kan4 de4 kai1 de... and i understand fully tt there is no other way out, i will have to follow these cycles. 根本轮不到我选. 其实也根本没有别的选择.

*
i will be okay. everyone else can survive. i can survive too. ok.. im only suffering frm pgs.. once i recover, i will be okay. but.. when will i recover? ok, shall end off with a meaningful pic. the 1st time i wore a "square hat". taken when i was like.. 6 years old?? lol... 16 years ago!! pls scroll down ......

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

**** Scroll more pls ******

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

****Scroll somemore la!***

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

*

***TADA!***

~Cute le baa?? haha ~