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juz saw my 311 coursework grade. real cui... only got a B. not even a B+. 50% coursework, 50% final exams. wan dan le... if final examz i got a C, most likely for 311, i'll get a final grade of C too... o.. o man... O MAN!!! y is this happening?? haii.. sian.. seriously speaking, im quite disappointed tt i only got a B. i mean, it shouldnt be tt bad lor. at least a B+ baaaa?? aiyohhh....
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i realised for me, in ntu, whenever i thought tt i'll do well, i will not do as well as i expect. and whenever i tot im confirmed gone, i will do ok. diaooo... really lorr... for some modules, im quite confident and am expecting a gd grade, but ended up not. then when i tot i'll cfm do badly, it will turn out okay. haii.. don know wad's wrong man!

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juz went to take a look at my degree audit. haii.. im really worried.. i wonder wad degree i'll receive... i wonder how convo will be like... wad if i cannot even get a pass with merit?? now im not even hoping for a hon. juz a merit. diaoo.. how failure can i get? sometimes i wonder wad did i learnt in ntu? after spending so much time and money, wad did i achieve? if i had a chance to start all over again, would i have done better?

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seriously i think uni life's not for me. uni requires alot of discipline, initiatives and self-motivation. no one is there to push u. no one is there to scold u. no one is there to force u. u learn wad u want to learn and no one cares. maybe tt xplains y im so slack and y i have this 'cant-be-bothered' attitude. and uni really requires u to be smart. in a 2 hrs lecture, they can bombard u with so much information. if ur not smart, there is no way to catch up. the pace is juz too fast.. haii...

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cant spend too much time here. wait till exam's over and i'll post a long and detailed entry on my "感想" of my 3 years uni life. i juz hope everything will turn out fine and tt my worries are unduly. pls.. gimme at least a merit... plsss !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!