MoNey

i know money is a very very impt stuff. in fact, it is a very lethal power. double-edged sword, i should say. it can bring you plenty of happiness and satisfaction. but at the same time, it can hurt and break you. it causes pple to come together, yet at the same time, it causes pple to have conflicts and split-ups. how many times we saw in the news tt family members are fighting lawsuits because of money issues? that hk filthy rich woman who recently passed on.. she too fought in court with her father-in-law because of that big sum of inheritance, right? how many times we saw in the news tt family members/frens are killing each other because of money?? fathers and sons, family members - the same type of blood flows in their bodies, yet money is able to make them turn their back against each other. friends - the years of friendship cannot even stand against the temptation of money. husbands and wives - pple who are so intimate, who sleeps together every night, can also betray each other when it comes to money. so, why shld i expect so much out of a pure boy-girl relationship? why should i expect him to lend me his debit card just in case i met with emergencies when im overseas and i can have access to money? why should i think tt he'll trust me with his money? why should i think tt he'll let me use his money? i must be crazy. or should i say, im juz plain naive? thinking tt love will make everything work?

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he doesnt understand y i always love to use money as a guage of how much he loves me and i think he never will because instead of trying to understand why, he simply smsed me "childish". so "childish" is all tt he can use to describe this tendency of mine. how sad. like wad i wrote in the v 1st sentence - money is v v impt. if someone is willing to trust me with his money, to let me have access to his money, doesnt it simply shows tt in tt person's heart, im soo much more impt than money? is this not the logic tt i've always think is correct? how can i rely/depend on someone who views money so much more impt than me? how can i rely/depend on someone who doesnt even trust me with his money? if one day, i need to borrow a large sum of money frm him, will he lend me? if one day, someone wanna rob us, will he grab his money and run and leave me to die? if one day he has to choose btw his money and me, will i be the second choice?

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dramas always show those husbands giving the wives supplementary cards to spend. in reality, issit like tt? or such things only occur in dramas? i think it does happen cuz my bro-in-law gives a supp card to my sis. will he? maybe we are juz not in tt stage yet.

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i know im contradictory. rite in the beginning i cited so many examples showing how money can destroy relationships. yet i still believe tt there will be someone who will trust me with his money. hahahaha... im so naive!

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i cant help but feel hurt and disappointed. quoted frm my fren "expectation is the root of all heartaches" - I think i fully understand the meaning of this sentence le.

TiaN Ahh....

ok.. im here to complain abt tuition again. i know i shouldnt be mean. kids are kids and i should not expect them to be... erm... to be unlike kids?? but .. arghh.. why they cannot understand very simple thing??

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Cecelia bought a dress for $102. then she bought a jeans which is $45 cheaper than the dress. If she still had $2802 left, how much did she have at first?

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o well.. i don know wad to say. i think it's the understanding of the english tt is a prob. or maybe, they cannot see the logic that amt spent + amt left = amt at first. or maybe,they cannot understand comparison words like "cheaper", "taller", "more than", "less than" etc etc etc.. haii.. his mid-yr is starting this fri, which is also the day tt im leaving for taipei. haii.. really worried for him. i think most kids have prob with problem sums. last time tt gal also. those short ans de, they can handle. but when it comes to prob sums, they cannot handle. why issit like tt? i really think is the understanding-of-the-english problem. but....... how to cure this when everything is already stated so simply????? explain explain and explain.. but when u ask them to do .. they cannot again. why?? o man.... o man... :( this is juz frustrating!

27th ApriL 2007

27/04/2007 - this is a very impt day. a day i've long been awaiting for. hahaha... my last paper in ntu ended on this day!!! wooohooo!!! although the paper really super cui.. but.. well.. there's nothing else i can do but to forget it and enjoy!! but then, im really prepared for the worse le lorr. most prob will flunk this paper. haii.. backside really itchy. ge all fulfilled liao.. then kenna sai go take 308.. don know for wad.. originally all passed, no fail de.. in the final sem then fail one module... arghh!! wad the.... see lar?? result of backside-itching! but really no regrets la. the saddest thing is not when u don know how to do the paper. rather, it is when u know the paper is easy but yet u still cannot do. this happened to me once in jc. the maths paper was super easy and i knew i could do it if i studied. but... i still cannot do it though i know it's easy. tt paper disturbed me soo much till the extent tt once i reached home, i burnt it. yes, i burnt it. haha.. i was so angry with myself. cried and cried and burnt the damn paper. but this 308 paper is diff. the questions were really tough. and i know even if i study really hard, i still wont be able to do it de. so... not so bad.. haha.. ok.. im incorrigible. happily finding my way out for not doing well.. duh..

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anyway, after tt cursed paper, we went out to celebrate. the 'we' refers to my dearest frens frm ntu banking and finance (blue:xiuhui, yellow:jasmine, black:qiuyan, purple:yinghan, pink:me! colorful ba??) heheh.. yeah.. went to this jap restaurant in wisma. something like sakae but the food's of wider variety and "style". but the chawanmushi they sell is $3.90. boo.. ex! we ate like 25 plates? hehe..

look at the bottom left potatoe croquette. hehe.. special? big piece and comes with 2 sauces for u to dip. only $1.90. same as most other sushi restaurants but this one bigger piece. hehe.. yummy!

after eating went took neos. haha...took 2 times. nice nice sweet sweet pics!!!

soooo sweeeet yeaa????

these pics very artistic yea? ah yan's idea. taken in a toilet using the mirror. we r caturing our images in the mirror. duh huh?? hahaha

finally went to this hk cafe in cine.. sat there and chatted till abt 12am. yea! lucky got late nite shopping else no more train by tt time le!

Wad we DranK

yepp.. had a funnn time. 1st time the 5 of us really went out tog. happy! hehehhe!!hope our frenship will last 4eva!

OnE MoRe To Go!

ahh... today's cold.. according to mum, it has been raining since 4am... but the rain only woke me up at 6am. haah.. woke up and closed the windows.. the rain was so big tt it started splattering at my windows and making loud thud sound... scary... i think i prefer sunny days then rainy days.. cuz im so freaky scare of coldness. hhhehe..
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alrite!! one more paper and one more day to go! hehe.. yesterday had my translation paper. real diaoo.. there were questions which were completely duplicated frm the test tt we had. the tutor ar.. lazy neber change questions! tt time after tt test, he gave us the ans sheet. so i have been looking at the ans sheet for the final exams! but cuz i never expected the questions to be exactly the same, i din really bother to rem wad i saw on the ans sheet. and ... yeah.. yesterday, for those questions, i still ans them in the same way as i ans for the test. after the paper, i heard some pple saying tt they will never forget how to ans the questions cuz tt time the tutor marked him wrong..... but then.. did the tutor returned us the test paper? no rite????? then how he know tt the tutor marked him wrong?? shit... did i miss out on anything?? bu hui ba?? diaoo... maybe the tutor wasnt lazy.. he purposely set in same questions to see who really paid attention to their mistakes and learn the right way. but, translation, there's no 100% rite or wrong de rite?? as long as the gist and the structure correct then can liao ma. no need word by word correct rite. but according to wad i overheard, the tutor seemed to be a strict marker. gosh... cannot afford to flunk this paper lei... if flunk then no more minor le leii!! don scare me... still wondering how tt guy know how the tutor marked for the test lei...
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yesterday after the paper met up hubb and went eat dinner. ate the jp's crystal jade. they renovated.. but i prefer the previous one. last time it was bright inside.. now tt they renovated, becomes rather dark inside. think they trying to produce the "classy" feel. anyway, these were wad we ordered :
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top left corner: sze-chuan dan dan mian
pls do not order this. usually at crystal jade, i will eat the mince meat la mian. but yesterday i ordered this dan dan la mian. cuz last time at taka, there's this food fare. then the dan dan mian they sell is yummy. tt's y i always tot tt dan dan mian is yummy. but this dan dan mian at crystal jade failed me. the 1st mouth was ok. but subsequently, argh. there was only noodle. nothing else. not even abit of meat or veggie or anything besides noodle. maybe except spring onions. and the taste was.... argh!the soup was thick and got this peanut smell. argh.. felt cheated.. haii..
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top rite corner: chicken in shaoxing wine
i never like alcohol but hubb loves. this one is he ordered de. it looks gd, doesnt it? but... i don like the taste as well. maybe cuz of the wine. and.... the chicken's cold. literally cold lorr.. think is served cold de.. weird....
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bottom left: deep-fried pork rib
ok.. this one is gd. and the pork rib v bigg pieces. ok la.. taste gd.
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bottom right: xiao-long-bao in soup
hmm.. normal lorr.. juz xiao-long-bao.. nothing super special.
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dessert was this souffle ball with red bean paste and banana. sounds yummy rite? but actually not so. and.. it's hot de lorr.. think they go fry the ball with the paste and banana inside. the skin tastes weird also. when i expected it to be hot, they served me cold stuff. when i expected cold dessert, they served it hot. (-_-''')
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all in all, i din exactly enjoy the meal cuz the food not nice. boo.. disappointed! but.. hubb treated de. so i still enjoyed la! thanks hubb!

been eating and eating and eating. and with the taipei and hk trip.. sure whole day do nothing but eat, eat, and EAT!! ahh.. becoming fatso liao.. :(

ok.. juz one more day!! hippie! gotta be busy liao.. with the planning, purchasing and packing! hhaha... marketing got 4Ps... travelling got 3Ps! hahah.. yeah!

HeAd PaiN

gosh.. i have this pain in my head.. shit.. seldom like this de lei.. but recently like getting more and more frequent. fine.. i know im 22 years old.. but all these symptoms of being old need not come out de right???!!! arghh.. i need panadol.. the pain's killing me!

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and i think it's time to take supplements. i better start b4 it's too late. somehow, the elders ard me all seemed to be suffering frm leg pain. pa used to walk back home frm bukit merah after work. but now.. he's legs are giving him problems. and he's not the only one! so many living examples for me.. i better start taking care. time to take some calcium pills and stuff. and say im vain, i don care. i wanna find supplements or facial care tt will protect my eye area. i realised when 1 aged, the areas ard the eyes are the part tt aged 1st. look at those artistes.. they can have baby, flawless skin, but their eyes totally "betrayed" them. i don wanna be like tt... old also must old till no one knows!!! it's time to sleep early, stop late bathing, stop sleeping with "un-dried" hair, and start taking supplements and tonics! hahaha... kiasu le ba? well.. u cant blame me.. with all the symptoms showing.. headache, neck ache, here ache there ache.. haii..... sad... im only 22 lei!!! ... :(

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3 more days. juz 3 more days! we will make it!!

BuggEd By The sLeePy WoRmiE

freakish weather. earlier on it was so sunny and hot. then started drizzling.. drizzle for a while and the sun came back. after a while, the sky turned dark again and followed by a super heavy rain. now the rain smaller le.. but thunder and lightning still occuring.. how weird... weather having mood swings...

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i think 308 is a cursed module. or maybe someone put "sleepy powder" on my notes. ah yan issit u?? or han or xh or jas??? haha..i wonder y i'll always feel sleepy whenever i read the 308 notes. sitting on the sofa reading and eventually, i'll end up napping on the sofa. don know why. maybe it's too comfy, tt's y. but how do u explain when the same thing happened when i sit on a proper chair and read on a proper table? to make myself uncomfy, i even tried sitting on the floor so i wont doze off.. but.. haii.. the concentration span is juz too low. read for a while and i wanna do something else like..... munching?? haii... it din help when there's so many tidbits at home.. wan dan le... F-A-T!!!!!!!

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having a craving for cakes. thick chocolate cakes. yummy! but now.. where got worr? haii.. sad sad sad! super sian.. really cannot wait for this to end! 4 more days! hurry!!

MisSiOn NoT DoNe

Today's supposed to go out with hubb to study de... wanted to go to tt burger king near bugis, cuz usually quite vacant. but ended up.. haii.. he came over to my hse ard 2pm. then we slack, talk crap, do crap etc till 5 plus then left home. went tiong bahru 1st cuz wanted to claim something. then took dinner there as well. went to this western restaurant at the top level. our 1st time there. haha...the menu looks gd, with a wide variety of food. but due to money constraint, the 2 cheapo us settled for the student's meal. only $4.90 per set. i ate fish and chips and hubb ate dory on some special rice. hmm .. can lar, not bad. and the drink is served in a jar, not in those normal cup. yep, quite a large drink, so we can juz share. hehe.. cheapo eh?? gee..

Us in the restaurant

After eating, we went vivocity cuz i got a 10 dollars haggen dazs voucher and there's an outlet in vivocity. the ice-cream at HD really kidda ex eh. i tot 10 dollars can get me something, but in the end, except for the single and double scoops, nothing else is below 10 bucks. how sad.. alot of choices to choose, and in the end, we settled for this ice-cream called "The Perfect Match". i wanted the brownie ice-cream de, but it's too common le la. so ordered this instead..

Ice-cream prata??

erm... that big piece of thing... it's name is don-know-wad-bread on the menu.. but seriously, it's juz a not-so-oily version of a prata. the whole thing costs like $13.90. even with voucher, we still have to top up $6, with the charges inclusive. yah lorr... 2 scoops ice-cream with a prata = $16. best! but it's delicious la. but then i still prefer swensens ice-cream lei. hehe...

after tt went shop ard and went daiso.. bought many boliao stuff.. wasting money again.. haii..

Bought this eyebrow shaver. finally! hehe.. wanted to buy quite sometime ago le, but always hesistating cuz i don know how to use and the tot of using seemed scary. and sis was telling me tt if i don know how to use, i better dont. true.. it's a blade lei... wad if it cuts my skin? or simply shave off all my eyebrow?? so i always see see look look but never buy though i really wanna try. today finally bought liao. eh.... seriously, it's not as scary as i tot. and it's quite easy to use also. haha.. interesting item. it's specially designed... wont cut skin le. shld be quite safe ba. haa..

Wonder y it wont cut the skin...

Another item tt i bought. a handheld fan. hubb bought 1 too.. but his one slightly different design.. hehe.. was having jb in mind when i bought this. next time cross tt stuffy and hot m'sia custom, even super long queue also no need to worry le. guess many situations also will need this mini fan. so bought it lorr.. can juz carry ard and when hot can juz use. cool !

then bought aromatherapy stuff also. this one is backside itchy one la. juz buy and try try. hmm... actually not much use lei. 1st lit up is quite fragrant de... but after a while, the smell seemed to be gone. the smell cannot last de lorr.. and the oil v fast evaporate de.. so have to keep "refilling"..quite dumb.. waste money... or maybe the oil's cheap oil.. that's y the smell cannot sustain?? hmm... think im really slow. when everyone's crazy abt aromatherapy, i din wan to try. now die down liao... then i go buy and try. super last mover!

Pls fragrant up my rm so i can have a sweet sweet sleep!

woo.. and the oil is APPLE fragrance de.. hehe.. purposely choose de. it's a very sweet smell... but like i say.. cannot sustain. sad.... tot i can make my rm smell so sweet and then i can sleep sweetly. boohoo!

Yep.. and as usual.. took pics of ourselves every now and then..

haii... supposed to study de.. instead did so many nonsense thing and ended up not studying AT ALL. wad the hell are the 2 of us doing arrr???

24th JuLy 2007

ok.. so wad's so special abt this date?? haha, it's convocation day! o well, received the email informing us abt convocation. 24th July 2007, Tuesday. Have to arrive at 9.00am. seated by 9.10am and everything will end by 11.30am. hmm... frm the schedule, apparently there's only 1hr plus to present the certs and stuff to all the bachelor of business. so many graduands, 1 plus hr enuff mehh? i wonder how tt day will be like. it's an impt day, no doubt. as written on the homepage "Convocation marks a milestone in your life, as you complete your journey here at NTU ...." but then.. if i only get a pass degree, and all others tt i know got something better, isnt tt goin to be darn malu-ating? hmm.. then the most meaningful day becomes the most paisay day ... (-_-"') how sad....

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SuffeRinG FrOm PGS

I know im suffering frm PGS - Pre Graduating Syndrome. Yes. Im suffering frm it. i cannot believe im goin to say byebye to sch, maybe forever. I cannot believe im already 22 years old (by year). I cannot believe im stepping out into the society SOON. No, i cannnot accept.
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primary sch sometimes seemed so far back. but sometimes, when u really go think abt it, there are many things which i can still remember clearly. suddenly pri sch seemed like juz yesterday. when ur in pri sch, u know u'll have to do well for PSLE so tt u can go into a gd sec sch. when ur in sec sch, u know u'll have to do well in order to go to a jc. and when ur in jc, u know tt u MUST do well in order to reach the final destination - university, or else, u'll be worse than a diploma holder. and now... i've reached my so-called 'final destination'. in fact, im leaving my final destination soon. i don know where else to go liao. all the while, i know where im heading... pri sch, sec sch, jc, then uni. but now.. im lost. wad's next?
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the next step is to step into the REAL world. i don knoe if im being pessimistic or im being influenced, but i know is this real world, no one is real to u. ironic huh? it is a very competitive world and pple are all scheming. if u want to succeed, u have to be schemeier. u have to be really careful, else kenna stab also don know. it's really scary.

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but, wad do i really want? do i juz want a stable job, get a steady pay every month, be a xiao3 ren2 wu4 in the co, and work till i retire? or do i want to compete, climb the corporate ladder, and be someone hong1 hong1 lie4 lie4 in the co/industry? being the former is relaxing, not much pressure, not much responsibilites, and of cuz no one bothers to stab u, cuz u r only a xiao ren wu. equivalently, u'll earn little. stable, but little money. most prob for the rest of ur life, u'll be like most of the other singaporeans. juz a commoner. being the latter is challenging, pressurizing, and full of responsibilites. many pple will be watching u, and i guess u'll be involved in many politics. but then, u can earn alot. then u can possess the 5 Cs or maybe even excced the 5 Cs. how?? wad do WU HUIPING want? even WU HUIPING herself doesnt know.

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whenever i go sch, i'll see the working class rushing to work. take bus, take train, squeeze... then lunch time, go makan, and if got time, go jalan a while. knockoff time, then gotta take bus, take train and squeeze again. day after day, years after years. is this wad i want? or rather, besides this, is there any other thing which i can choose frm?

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juz watched a taiwan variety show. interviewing this taiwan artiste. he said b4 he was famous, he lived on only 10 taiwan dollars per day. then he gotta work those boliao jobs which earns vv little. then finally, a director gave him a chance, and he finally managed to "salted fish turnover". i think in life, most of the times, u r only waiting for a chance lor. if no one gives u a chance, no matter how gd u r, it's no use. all u need is a chance to prove yourself. but how often can we find someone who's willing to give us a chance? haii.. ok.. see? i already said im suffering frm pgs liao.. getting more and more pessimistic and not proactive. i used to think that u don wait for pple to give u a chance, u urself go grab a chance. but... grab a chance? how?? u can be proactive and do this do that, but ultimately, if no one gives u a chance, tt's it, rite???

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anyway, i juz cannot accept tt im 22. im no longer the little gal whom i know. im no longer the carefree gal whom i know. i no longer can act like a little gal, cuz im not anymore. suddenly i feel like crying. pple often say when ur having transition periods in ur life, u tend to be depressed. now i really believe le. im entering into the next phase of my life. a new chapter will be written. im scare. i don want to grow old. can things juz remain as it is now? i don know how long pa and ma can be with me. when i get older, they'll get older too. one day, they'll leave me.. i cannot accept. 我不想, 我不想, 我不想....

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i know everyone goes thru the same phases. study, work, married, give birth, children grow up, ownself die. this is life, and since im a human being, like all other pple, i have to go thru this cycle as well. i used to kan4 de4 kai1 de... and i understand fully tt there is no other way out, i will have to follow these cycles. 根本轮不到我选. 其实也根本没有别的选择.

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ReaL Cuiiiiiii

Juz completed the 311 exam. in free access lab now. haii.. siann.. last core paper liao.. i shld be happy de. but somehow, i don feel happy at all. i wonder y. the paper simply cannot make it. so long, so tough. crapping my way thru. don know can make it or not. sad.. everybody's responses more or less the same. but who knows? some pple will claim tt it's diff and etc, but in the end still get gd results de. anyway, in a real siann mood now. ultimately, im really worried abt the degree thing.. haii.. don know how.. don know how... don know howw.....

CanNoT WaiT

i cannot wait for this to be over. i guess tmr by this time, i shld be v happy liao. cuz my last core module in ntu will be over and done with! then left 2 more ges. still got one more week before EVERYTHING will be OVER! alright!! jiayou! very fast de! yeh !!!!hurry hurry HURRY!!

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Ok, a pic sent to us by our 214 tutor, prof lee hon sing. i guess we shld all be like the frog?? though in the mouth of the bird liao, but still struggling to escape?? lol.. ok.. jiayou all!

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WE WILL SURVIVE !!!!

GonE

juz saw my 311 coursework grade. real cui... only got a B. not even a B+. 50% coursework, 50% final exams. wan dan le... if final examz i got a C, most likely for 311, i'll get a final grade of C too... o.. o man... O MAN!!! y is this happening?? haii.. sian.. seriously speaking, im quite disappointed tt i only got a B. i mean, it shouldnt be tt bad lor. at least a B+ baaaa?? aiyohhh....
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i realised for me, in ntu, whenever i thought tt i'll do well, i will not do as well as i expect. and whenever i tot im confirmed gone, i will do ok. diaooo... really lorr... for some modules, im quite confident and am expecting a gd grade, but ended up not. then when i tot i'll cfm do badly, it will turn out okay. haii.. don know wad's wrong man!

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juz went to take a look at my degree audit. haii.. im really worried.. i wonder wad degree i'll receive... i wonder how convo will be like... wad if i cannot even get a pass with merit?? now im not even hoping for a hon. juz a merit. diaoo.. how failure can i get? sometimes i wonder wad did i learnt in ntu? after spending so much time and money, wad did i achieve? if i had a chance to start all over again, would i have done better?

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seriously i think uni life's not for me. uni requires alot of discipline, initiatives and self-motivation. no one is there to push u. no one is there to scold u. no one is there to force u. u learn wad u want to learn and no one cares. maybe tt xplains y im so slack and y i have this 'cant-be-bothered' attitude. and uni really requires u to be smart. in a 2 hrs lecture, they can bombard u with so much information. if ur not smart, there is no way to catch up. the pace is juz too fast.. haii...

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cant spend too much time here. wait till exam's over and i'll post a long and detailed entry on my "感想" of my 3 years uni life. i juz hope everything will turn out fine and tt my worries are unduly. pls.. gimme at least a merit... plsss !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FracTioNs vs NumBeRs

went for tuition today. i simply hate teaching fractions because the kids can never understand that fractions can be equivalent to numbers, BUT fractions are NOT the SAME as numbers!! y cant they understand??? last time i almost puked blood teaching the p4 gal... now.. same thing again.. primary fours...!!! arghh....how to xplain to them?????? y cant they see it???

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Doris spent 3/8 of her money on a doll and had $40 dollars left. How much is the doll??

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they simply cannot see the connection between 3/8 and the $40. it's problematic man.... i remembered last time, there was a question that asked "how many boys are there", and the p4 gal left the answer as "3/5" or something like tt. anyway,she left the ans as a fraction la. come on lorr.. the question asked "how many".. is there such a thing as "3/5 boy"????? diao.... already said 100 and 1 times tt fractions is not the same as numbers.. why they still cannot get it ???

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i sincerely don know how to get thru this fraction chapter smoothly. it's a big chapter lor. siannn.... can anyone teach me how to teach them and make them understand?? ok, i shld stop blaming the kids. it's me who's lousy. i don know how to teach fractions. fine, i admit!! arghh..

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and 311... 2 more days to the exams. real shitty. the case's so messy lor.. i hate this kind of case whereby the industry is very confusing de.. i prefer those like panera (food industry) and making it big (clothings)... easier and closer to me. unlike these industries - automobiles, hotels, telecomm etc - very chim, i cannot understand.. haii.. sian.. don know how.. juz hope exams can faster over... then i can go for my hols le!!! yeah!!!!

I Can'T BeLiEvE iT

am i crazy?? am i nuts?? am i going to be alright? was i too impulsive?? was i too much?? o man...... i still cannot believe tt i booked air tics to go HONGKONG for 10 DAYS 9 NIGHTS!!!!! o my gosh! im going hongkong?! im going hongkong??!! IM GOING HONGKONG????!!!!!!

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yep. ok. it's true. i juz went to pay for the tix. not me alone. will be travelling with hubb. ok... im crazy, i know. bascially no one supports my decision. mum said don go, bro said im crazy, and wl said im wasting my money. but..i can explain... yesterday i received a call frm ntu IRO (international relations office??). they asked if i wanna go shanghai for exchange. of cuz i rejected. then i asked abt the hk exchange tt i applied for, and tt person said tt the exchange to hk are all filled up. only left shanghai. so... i cannot go hk for exchange le. all the while, im planning to borrow frm sis to go hk exchange, now tt it's no more, maybe i can borrow money to go hk for tour? there are many benefits if i go hk for tour rather than exchange :

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1. save money. if go for exchange, confirm need more money.

2. no need worry abt convo. if go exchange, the dates will clash with convo. then if i wanna come back for convo, i'll need to incur the extra air fare. so it'll be like frm sing, go hk for exchange. then frm hk back to sing for convo. then go back hk to continue exchange, and finally, when exchange ends, come back to sing. abit dumb rite? u think i so richhh mehhh??

3. no need to worry abt all the miscellanous concerning the exchange

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since in the 1st place, i already decided to borrow frm sis to go for the exchange, so y not juz do it? though the exchange is off, i can still go tour, right?? somemore more benefits. and 10days... though fewer days then exchange can allow me, but still 10days.. more than enuff le baa?? of cuz.. u can say tt i can juz don go waddd... but then... i really wish to go hk once more...

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and so, i did wad i did. after taipei, it'll be hk. i'll promise to settle down and hurry find a job once may ends. gimme a gd break and i'll stop all my nonsense. i'll be down to earth and will spend every effort to EARN MONEY!! i promise!!!!

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but then, indeed i feel quite useless. borrow money go tour. wad the heck am i doing? 22 years old, and i still need to borrow money to go tour. haven't i been working part-times every vacation? haven't i been giving tuition?? wad happened to the money? wad happened to the angbows i received for my 21st bday?? wad happened to the angbows money for cny? wad happened to the money tt pa gave me when he got his bonuses? wad happened to the bursary award money? o mann..................

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haii... tp and hk trip. basically, i only paid for the tp tix and accomodation. the spendings in tp and all costs invloved in hk will be borrowed frm ma, pa, and sis. though they say no need to return, but come on... im 22 years old!!! PLS STOP STICKING OUT YOUR HAND AND TAKE MONEY FRM FAMILY MEMEBERS !!! o man..... i better find a jobb soon. loaded, not with money, but with debts... haiiiiiiiii

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and i wanna thank hubb here. the guy whom i claimed i have prob communicating with. diaoo....(-_-!!) this time will be his 3rd time to hk. i know he's quite reluctant. but, he still parted with the money and go with me. im crazy and yet he's willing to accompany me in this craziness. thanks hubb. i will take care of u in hk. no worry tt u know nothing in cantonese. no worries at all! .. heeeeeeee

How??

Interesting lyrics from 李圣杰's song...

你想要的我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路

exactly how i feel now... when i care too much, im accused of being not trusting. when i do not care, im blamed for being half-hearted. i don know how to strike a balance. i don know how to do it right. i don know how to give pple wad pple want. i don know how to explain myself. and so, i chose to keep quiet. to stop trying to explain my way thru. to stop trying to make pple understand. to stop hoping tt someone will understand. because i know, when pple doesnt see wad u see, they can never understand wad u've said/done or wad ur trying to say/do or why u want to do certain things. communication becomes fruitless and pointless. how to continue when communication seemed impossible? how to continue when viewpoints are so different? how to continue when wad i think is impt becomes rubbish in other pple's mind and vice versa? how to continue when wad i think is a problem becomes a non-problem in other pple's mind and vice versa? i don know how. i really don. wad more can i do? wad more can i say? no one understands me.

Size Is ReLaTiVe

i've seen the advertisements of these mini cornettos before. but i din know they are really that mini until tt day soh soh brought some over. these are the minis, standing alone.... when compared to nothing, they dont seem small, right??

now..... compare them with their predecessors, the normal-sized ice-cream cone..

might not be so obvious in the pic.. but they are really small compared to the normal-sized. maybe only a quarter of the normal-sized...

and now... compare to my hand.......

ok, they are really miniii..... im really quite surprised. din expect them to be so small. on tv also not tt small. 2 bites and they are gone. and i think these minis are not cheap either. anyway, size is really relative. there is no absolute big or small... only relatively big or small.. hahah... sounds v scientific, dont i ??

ok .. i know im darn boliao... i also don know wad am i doing.. exactly one more week and i'll be having 1st paper.. and yet.. im still slacking. yesterday i took out the textbk and tried reading already.. but somehow... i juz felt like sleeping... somehow, i juz cannot concentrate... somehow i juz cannot finish reading and i juz feel like SLEEPING/do other stuff !!!! omg.... i don know how to continue, or rather, how to even start this very last battle. somehow, my heart is not there anymore. anyway, only 1 core module. 4aus. die or not die, also wont be very much affected by this 4 aus le. and 308 only ge. both modules also 50% final exams, 50% coursework. unlikely to fail ba... haii.. i know this is very not proactive and very pessismistic.. but.. haiii... my heart is juz not there and i juz don wanna think.

today hubb came over. it was fine at 1st... but we ended up quarrelling. there seemed to be soo many problems. why?? maybe we r really incompatible.. we juz held different views in sooo many things.... i understand tt relationship is about compromising and giving in. but .... doesnt that change who i actually am? if im a person who is tempremental, then because i have to compromise and give in, i changed myself to be less tempremental... then that is not me anymore, right?? why should i surpress myself and hide the real me?? why cant i be me and i do wad i like?? why is it like tt ???? if he loves me, he should love my flaws and everything also rite?? if tt's true, then why do relationship still need giving in and compromising ??? i don get it.... i really don get it.....

Full MonTh !!

woo.. today's my blog's full month! hhaha.... one month passed liao and my blog's growing strong. 1 month ago i started it cuz i was so sian and tot of writing some tots down so tt in future, i can "go back" and "see" wad happened before. and tt period i was having cold war with hubb, so decided to start a blog to "keep me company". yep.. and now, like wad i said in my previous post.. i seemed to be addicted. organising the pics to post and stuff took up so much of my time! haiii... i should really stop all these. at a crucial period like now, instead of studying and sending out resumes, im here spending all my time blogging! wth.... anyway, pls collect a box of cake each. a token of my appreciation to all of u for seeing the birth of my blog and seeing it slowly grow up! lol ....

May my blog continues to grow strong!

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Yesterday was the annual grave-sweeping day. yep, apparently, in a year, there will be 2 occasions when my ma will be super busy. one is new year, and the other will be qing ming. 7th month used to be quite a hoo-haa also, but now not so already. other than tt, the rest of the chinese festivals like nothing much le.

and so, we set out at ard 1030am. frm a few years back, we started hiring a van for this occasion. gotta go to 2 places, one is at bishan, and the other at cck. yep, with a van it's much more convenient. anyway, at bishan is to pay respect to my paternal grandpa and grandma and some other relatives. the place's juz beside RI. think tt place renovated b4. now very airy and clean already. hmm.. somehow like not so many pple le lei. last time i remembered there'll always be many pple... but year by year, pple seemed to get lesser and lesser. yesterday was a real hottttt day.. sweated like crazy~

The offerings

After praying, we will always stop at this little coffeeshop to rest and to makan the offerings tt we brought with us. and i took this chance to take a few pics. haha..

The brothers, expressions quite in' sync huh ~


My sis's gonna kill me for posting this pic and.. wad's my ma doing? so unglam!

I hate my bro for this! he's supposed to take me and the rest... but .. he only took my left eye and my hand! such an ass!!

The in-laws

The cousins. I loved this pic!

Something interesting to note. my sis is 5 years older than my tang jie. and my tang jie is 5 years older than me. interesting huh? opps... am i revealing their ages?? haha...

The Wu cousins!

This pic was suggested by my tang jie. know wad? i think the 5 of us had never taken a pic together b4. and tt was y my tang jie wanted to take one. it's so diff to get the guys to take pic. esp my bro. irritating means irritating. take one pic also so mafan! the one in black is my bro. and the one in white and brown sleeve is my tang ge. but the most interesting thing in this pic was..... who's tt guy popping a head behind and smiled a goofy smile??!! hahahha.... pa can be sooo cuteee sometimes!!!

Yumalicious!

And finally, dinner was at home. can expect a sumptuous meal. year by year, time really seemed to be faster and faster. i still remembered last year, bro-in-law came too and after grave sweeping, he drove me to tuition and tang jie to hospital to visit a fren, while he and sis went to buy stuff. abt dinner time, he drove us back home to have dinner. one year ago. ok, lemme see wad is significant this year. hmm... we took photos, it was a real hottt day, i wore a cap, and o, ma's finger was a little injured cuz of a smalllll accident. yep... ok, we shall see wad happen next year!

Disclaimer: This is grave-sweeping, not new year. appearance is super casual. and after half-day of sweating and being "smoked", pls do expect the persons who appeared in the pictures to be at least 50% better looking in real!

A DaY aT EasT CoAsT

finally gave in to hubb's request ... went east coast to cycle with him..o well.. i cant say it's not fun, but east coast's really too far la.. the journey took soo long. yep, and the weather was not v gd. raining on and off. we reached and snacked at a jap restaurant there. after tt rented bikes. 1 hr, free 1 hr. then cycle and took many pics. after cycling, i actually wanted to roller blade as well de. been years since i roller blade. but hubb don wanna. boo.... after tt dinner at the steamboat stall there. and then home sweet home!

i think i really shld stop blogging. yesterday i spent like don-know-how-many hours formatting the pictures and stuff.. was already so tired when i reached home and yet i slept at 430am! wad am i doing? can i stop all these nonsense. im addicted.. and it's time to get out of this addiction!!