BdAy CeLeB

bday this year was spent up on singapore flyer. meant to be a surprise, but tt silly boy is not my match at all. way b4 hand i already knew wad he had planned. lol ~ bday this year seemed 'quieter'.. also dont knw y.. but it's juz like any normal day. somehow, already lost tt kind of anticipation and enthusiasm in celebrating bday. perhaps, old liao, bday celeb is no longer as fun as it was years back ~

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he booked the 7.30pm slot, apparently wanting to catch the sunset and the nite scenery. stated on the tix tt we'll have to go in half hr earlier and so we went in at abt 7pm. in the end, there wasnt a queue at all and v soon, we were allowed to 'board' le. but then he decided it's too early and so we sat there and waited til abt 7.15pm then board. and as i said, there wasnt a queue at all, and so in the end..............

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the 2 of us had the whole cabin to ourselves!!

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the cabin's quite big and it's a little scary with juz the 2 of us. though going at a real slow speed, as it rises, i got a little scare too. soo high up ~

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mmm.. actually nothing v spectacular or breath-taking lar. juz a different level of seeing the same things. perhaps more appealing to the foreigners. juz like how the nite sceneries of other countries will attract me more.
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after half-hr and we exited frm the cabin, bumped into tis controller who asked us how was it and did we managed to catch the sun-set etc. then he said the best time to catch the sunset will be abt 6.30-6.45pm. and the nxt thing he asked was 'how? want to go again?'... the 1st thing tt crossed my mind was to pay and go again. so i asked him 'need to pay again rite?' but the man's answer was.. 'no need, u want?' and soooooooo.............

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we went up the 2nd time round!! hahaha.. but this time round not juz the 2 of us liao.. with many other pple as well.. lol ~

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* wahahha.. we r secretly laughing away lorr.. so it's quite worth it afterall.. price for 1 trip but we went for 2x. hahaaha ~ 1st time was busy taking pics, the 2nd time finally can settle down and take a good look at the sights.. *
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~cool pic yea? cabin and landscape side by side ~

*some interesting business acumen in this s'pore flyer.. b4 u can enter to board the cabin, all passengers are required to take pictures. it's tt kind of computerized pics whereby they take ur picts and backgrd will be computerized. the end result will be u inside the cabin with the landscape as backgrd. of cuz, compulsory to take, but not compulsory to buy. $15 for 1st copy and $10 for the subsequents. we bought a copy. haha ~ abit ex lar, but i think it'll be the 1st and the last time i'll spend money to board the flyer. it's not tt worth it lar~ we r singaporeans lehh, not foreigners..

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the unplanned 2nd round worried hubb a little cuz he had made reservation at the restuarant and it closes at 9.30pm. and so we took a cabby down to this home-style restuarant along pasir panjang rd. hubb kind of know the owners as his grp is doing a project on the resturant.

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tt's my v yummy choco bday cake. yum yum! and.. the assistant chef suddenly appeared with his guitar and sang a bday song for me. then all others at the restuarant started clapping and stuff.. kidda embarassing sia.. too bad no pics taken as tt silly boy was stunned too. and after tt, we r too malu to ask the chef to come out with his guitar again. lol ~

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*yepp! happy bday to me!
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2nd time i went high up during my bday. 21st bday was up on cable car... sat inside and ate dinner.. tt year was a real surprise cuz din xpect it at all. talking abt it... where are the pictures huh?? gosh ~

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ShoCk

i woke up literally in shock juz now. my eyes juz clean opened and i decided i cannot fall asleep again. i strongly believe if i continue to sleep, i'll have such stupid dreams again. one of the rare times in life when im so relieved to be awake and it's all a dream. now is barely 9am. mum was also quite shocked y i woke up soo early. the 1st thing she saw me was 'y u wake up so early? u r going out?'.. in a blur state, i tot it was already 10+am... looked into the clock then realised it's only 8am+. diao ~

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i dreamt i was still in uni. then for the whole 3/4 of the semester, i forgot tt monday i have lessons and i havent been attending all the lessons on monday. i remb looking at the timetable and saw 'jetstar' as the 1st lesson. then in between there's some break and the 2nd lesson was a maths lesson. then some breaks later, got a last lesson for the day. then i remb flipping thru the maths book and consoling myself tt there werent too many chapters and the topics werent too tough and tt i should be able to study on my own. also remb me analysing y i can totally missed out monday. the reason was due to me taking tt slot alone. no other frens took the same slot as me. finally also remb i was angry with hubb and frens for not reminding me of the lessons. o, and i remb wondering y no professors or anyone who contacted me since i mia for sooo long and tt i'll sure be getting zero for participation.

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wad a dream rite?

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i woke up and it took me a while to realise i've long said byebye to study life and am now working. the reality came as such a big relieve! phew........ lucky it's all a dream!!!!!!!!

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i guess this dream showed a few symptoms. 1st, im greatly affected sub-consciously by hubb's complaints of sch work. 2nd, i really hate monday. 3rd, it juz goes to show how much i want to travel cuz 'jetstar' can even appear as a module! 4th, i really like working > studying.

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thank god.

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B-DaY MorNinG

ta-dum! yeah... im on leave today.... it's my day afterall, rite?
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but then.. i kidda regret the final decision. 'final' becuz initally, the plan was to take 1/2day leave, then i'll knock off at 1pm. hubb's got an impt presentation in school tdy, so he can only meet me ard 5pm. cant work full day cuz he's got some secret plans going on whereby the timing does not allow me to work till 6.30pm. and so, i decided intially to work half-day, to at least clear my profile at work. but then my colleagues started pyscho-ing me telling me how dumb it is to work on bday... how dumb it is to travel home after work then come out again in the evening etc etc... and so here im, doing nothing and wasting my time away.
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i really shld have gone for the half day. was having great dilemmas ytd on the half-day or full-day leave thingie. in the end, i succumbed to the pyscho-ness. haii. i hope it doesnt affect my productivity much.. and hopefully on monday, i wont have to deal with the accumulation of acc/s in my profile. monday is blue enough.. i seriously do not need a tons of shit acc/s for me to deal with early in the morning. boo hoo~
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well, freakish arent i? bday still worry abt work.. made a decision yet blame it on others.. made a decision then regret and be bothered abt it... im juz soooooo un-cool!
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anyway, it's really ironic how things work. on working days and the alarm goes off, u'll hope sooo much u r off tdy then can continue sleeping. then half-awake, u'll start contemplating the possibility of taking urgent leave or taking mc. when u decided it's not ethical to do so, u'll freaking wake up and with closed eyes, visit the washroom and with half-opened eyes, sit on the chair and brush teeth. then u'll start to sigh at how pai-mia (bad life) u r. then the tots of taking mc or leave tmr will cross ur mind. and the nxt day, the cycle starts again.
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finally comes the day whereby ur officially on mc or leave. but when the alarm goes off, surprisingly wad takes place everyday doesnt take place! the alarm went off, u tried to search for tt kind of tiredness u experience every morning, so tt u can fully enjoy the fact tt ur off and can continue slping, but somehow, it's not there. u know how cuiiii tt feels???
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it's really super siann lar. i woke up the same timing i woke up every morning but not feeling the kind of sleepiness, the kind of longing to go back to slp.. wad da hell is going on here? then... all the more i felt tt i should be back at work...all the more i felt i have wasted the half-day leave. gosh.. this is all sooo wrong!
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perhaps in the v 1st place, when the alarm went off, im already blaming myself for taking the half-day off. ytd nite im already asking myself if tt's a rite decision.. tt's y something is bothering me and hence i couldnt go back to slp... haiii~ im really freakish.
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ytd was the 8th driving lesson. much better le. wil never forget the painful experience of 2nd lesson though. haha.. instructor is getting more and more stern n more and more impatient. natural cuz the expectation will go higher as the number of lesson increases. mistakes which took place in 2nd lesson shld not be taking place again in the 8th lesson. though he's no longer the patient and assuring instructor he used to be, i still admire him alot. i think he's v professional. he's able to control his temper, his tone, his emotions to fit each and every student at the different levels of learning.
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say for example he has 3 students in a day. 1st student is at the 18th lesson, the next is at 2nd lesson, the last one is at 10th lesson. for the 1st one, he has to higher his expectation and attitude cuz the student is already at the 18th lesson. he has to be stern and unforgiving becuz at the 18th lesson, u really shouldnt be making any more non-sensical mistakes. then immediately after tt, he'll has to take the student who's at 2nd lesson. then his whole mentality has to adjust. he cannot be stern, he cannot be impatient, he cannot be unforgiving, he must be assuring cuz the poor guy is only at the 2nd lesson which most prob will be disastrous. then after tt, his mindset has to change again and adjust to the attitude tt shld be shown to a guy at the 10th lesson.
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u see wad i mean?
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hubb said it shld be tt way wad... true.. but he's a human being also lei.. how to adjust so easily?? hence, i sincerely feel he's very professional. at different stages, he knows how to treat the student. i will never forget how assuring and how patient he was with me on the initial lessons. now, though at times, i feel he's too fierce and too impatient, i still respect him alot. he should treat me tt way, else how will i learn, rite?
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will try to take a pic with him one of these days..

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such a long post.... juz goes to show how bo liao im.... uh-oh.

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HaPpY BirThDaY

Im officially 23 years old.
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happy birthday to me.
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may all my wishes come true.
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cheerz :)
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MoOnCaKe FesTiVaL

it's mooncake festival again. feels extraordinarily quiet this year. it's juz like any other normal day. if dont mention, wont even know it's the mooncake festival. o well.. all the chinese festivals like getting less and less celebrated and remembered. mm.. ~

tmr's monday again. sianz. y does the wkend have to pass so quickly? 2 days passed juz like tt. haii... okay, wkdays pass equally fast.. but... it's juz sian lar.. u know, have to work 5 days juz for tt 2 days break.. not in equilibrium leii..

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i juz hope it'll be a gd week ahead. monday pls pass quickly. once monday is over, the rest of the days will zoom past.

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jiayou.

HenDeRsOn WaVes

it's a homely sat ytd. hubb came over after his tuition.. then we were both too tired to go out. so took a nap at home and went out to botak jones for dinner. finally tried the choco cheesecake there. ehh... not too fantastic i will say..

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after dinner, went to henderson waves.. this new bridge at mount faber. the shape is like a wave or a sine (or cosine?) curve, hence the name 'henderson waves'. lol~ it links all the way to clementi. been around for a few months le, ytd finally got a chance to go up and visit. in the past only went past it on bus. it's really tall from below.. then i was thinking the bridge looks rather fragile and how come pple dare to walk on it cuz it's really high up.. but in fact, it's v wide up there. not wad i imagined when i see it from below...

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*the interior*

*the exterior*

*my neighbourhood @ night*

*the road from high above*

*the moon on lunar 14 aug*

*77.88m above sea level*

*hubb and me*

*the bridge from below*

quite an interesting place to go. if got chance, shall try and see if it really will lead me to clementi. lol~
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ChoiCes In LiFe

read in the newspaper ytd, tt there's this 30-yr old guy jobless guy who beat up the 58-yr old mother after getting drunk and the mother had no choice but to call up the police and have the son arrested. it was reported tt the son was a drop-out in school since pri-2, is jobless and is a drinker and will turn violent after getting drunk. the family is being supported by the meagre pay of the 2 parents, both 58, 1 being a dish-washer and the other a cleaner.

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so there really are such hopeless people in this world huh? 30 years old and still living off the old parents. unable to get a job (or maybe doesnt want to), no money yet still want to drink and get drunk and violent. seriously, who's fault isit? the parents? cuz they failed to bring up the son properly, letting him drop out of school at the age of 8, allowing him to indulge in himself for the past 30 years? ... or the son? cuz he chose to lead such a 'useless' and aimless life? indeed, low qualifications = lower options in life. but he can be a cleaner, a driver, a hawker helper, a labourer etc rite? i mean, tough work but at least it's decent and fetching income rite? perhaps, it's juz easier said than done. im not him, i dont know wad kind of difficulties there are.

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reading the papers, my thought flow again. cant help but compare him with the hi-fliers customers in my profile. the same 30-years old.... but some are sooo high up there.. but some are perhaps, lower than where hell is.. why?

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then some days back, there's this 16 or 17-yr old student who drove w/o license and tt sent him on his way to meet the lord. again, whose fault issit? the brother who failed to keep the car keys properly? the parents who failed to discipline the boy properly? the school who failed to educate the boy? the government, the public, the society who failed to create greater awareness? or isst the boy himself who chooses to do such stunt and pay for it?

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seriously, im sorry to say tt, but he really deserves it. it's big fortune tt he did not crash some other pple, else really 害人害己. at such a young age already doing something so reckless and brainless. it's only right that he pays for his actions. to me, driving w/o license is more irresponsible than drunk-driving. esp now tt im taking driving lessons.. there's no way u can driver properly w/o going thru proper training. for those idiots out there who thinks tt u can drive juz cause you can come in 1st in a darn daytona game, pls wake up your freaking idea!

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i guess in life, there are things which we can control and there are things which we cannot. there are things which we can choose and there are things which we cannot choose. for those tt we cannot choose, let's juz pray tt the guy up there will arrange something gd for us. for those tt we can choose, then it's really up to the individuals. for every choices made, you have to bear the responsibilities and the consequences.

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remember... u have a choice.. and if u failed to make a good one, then face the consequences urself. one have to be responsible for one's actions.

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Silly FruiTLesSnEss

had the monthly dept meeting tdy. one of the most heated meeting ever since i joined the company. or rather, it's not one of the most heated.... it's the most heated.

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so many different viewpoints, each arguing for own stand. then pple digressing away and started discussing their own issues.. everybody started talking within themselves.... soooo noisy... sooo bizarre..

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i always tot it's issues with other departments.. but in fact, there are soo many internal conflicts going on...

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somehow... everyone seemed to have their own agendas.. everyone trying to cover their own asses.. trying to push things away...

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to me.. things are getting more and more absurd and more and more senseless.

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i juz hope those pple who are ever so unsatisfied with the mgmt, with the company, can leave soon. juz shut up and go away and stop affecting the morale of others. if so unhappy, wad for stay on? if want to stay on, then wad for talk nonsense and influence others?

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really kan4 bu4 shuang3.

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anyway, as usual, i'll juz do wad i can. if unhappy, can always come to my desk and talk to me.

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ha~ it's really more than meet the eyes huh???

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MRT..

i once tot tt being a mrt train driver will be the best job ever cuz they dont have to face customers, they dont have quotas to meet, they juz stay in their little control room and make sure everything's on time will do le..

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but.. im wrong..

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because....

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THEY WILL KENNA COMPLAINTS ALSO!!!

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i juz did a complaint juz now. was on the train from TPY to Raffles Place. then gotta change train at RP. when my train arrived at RP, the train opposite (heading Boon Lay) was waiting for the commuters to board. when the door of my train opend, the commuters opposite were still boarding. so naturally, those on my side chiong to get on board tt train. then the toot-toot-toot-toot sound came on and the door closed knocking onto me and another gal. then a few others were shut off and they couldnt board!

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i mean... wad da hell lorr?

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cant tt bloody fellow see the hell lot of us trying to rush and get on board? cant he juz wait for a little while more?? and.. doesnt they take a last look at the passageway to make sure tt there's no more exiting/entering b4 they shut the doors???? lucky me and tt gal managed to sqz thru. if nt the train mite as well drag us along! tt gal was worse off then me la. i got a knock on my left arm but tt gal kidda sqz by the door. wth ~

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complaint @ the control station. but not too sure if they'll take it seriously. perhaps i should drop an email to smrt. but again... do they really care?

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sometimes, it juz doesnt make sense lor. experienced a number of times when our door opened and we rushed for the opposite train but the train will juz shut up and leave. even when the train is rather empty and we r already halfway there, the train will still shut and leave. doesnt make economical sense. super irritating also. know they have to run on schedule... but.. we r already halfway there! cant even wait for 1 min?????!!!!!!

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sometimes.. i juz don understand wad is this world coming to.

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FaiLinG MeMorY

some conflicts btw me and hubb. i think our memory are really failing us. perhaps time passes too fast, too many things happening.. so cannot remember the little little details already. i said my points, he said his points.. but none of us can remember wad happened exactly. i'm too tired and irritated to think further. it's really frustrating when u tried recalling something which u cannot remember. and so, i've decided to juz leave it behind.

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once heard or read from somewhere tt the brain tend to link up bits and pieces of originally unrelated stuff into something tt is related. say for example, i remember talking to Ms. A. Then i also remember someone told me "im tired". somehow or another, the brain will put the 2 pieces of info together and come up with the impression tt Ms. A was the one who said "im tired". but actually it's Mr B who said "im tired". but becuz there wasnt any memory of me talking to Mr B, hence Mr B totally disappear from the pic and it became Ms. A who said the sentence. get wad i mean??

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Or perhaps, i remembered i visited the library. then i also remembered i bumped into Mrs. C somewhere. automatically, the brain will generate the idea that I met Mrs. C in the library. but in actual fact, i could have saw Mrs. C in the restauarant but becuz the restaurant wasnt 'stored' in my memory, hence it got out of the mind and the library became the substitute.

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wah seii.. v impressive. i can be a physcologist liao.

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anyway, it really doesnt who's right and who's not. looking 4ward, we'll juz note everything in black and white to avoid confusion.

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anyway, hubb, i will give u the benfit of doubts. i dont think u will lie to me over such a small issue. i persisted in finding the 'truth' becuz i wanna get the facts right, not tt im doubting you. y would u lie to me over tt rite? but then there's no way to find the truth le.. cuz neither of us can remember wad happened. shit.. we r only in our early 20s leiiii.....

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well.. don be angry with me le yeah. if u r the one who remb wrongly, then juz take it tt it's something for u. if i were the one who remb wrongly, then take it tt i've bullied u again.

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dont let this small thing bother us okay. :)

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*HUGZ*

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SepTemBeR

it's a new month again!
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and... it's my bday month!
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woohoo :)
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secretly made a pact with myself.. i hope i wont falter. im really really sick.
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nothing wil make me stay... unless..............................
okay.. another half a year more to go.
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hang in there.
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when the time comes, hubb please remind me wad i've told u today.
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I WILL NOT CHANGE MY MIND.
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my mind's all set. yes. all set.
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