today took half day off.. cuz got interview.. and cuz of tt, i gotta eat lunch alone. and i did! miss wu actually ate alone in the foodcourt! woohoo! great improvements!in the past, there is no way i can sit alone in a place and eat. i'll feel so conscious and weird. as if everybody's looking @ me and thinking how pathetic im to eat alone. i'll tabao or worse come worse, not eat or juz take finger food. but now i did it! im so proud. it started off with eating alone in fast-food restaurants, then to "not-so-many-pple" de foodcourt/hawker, and now, in orchard road, i can also! yea!! i can feel myself maturing and really growing up! yea yea yea! im proud! i love growing up! and i hope, when it comes to matters of the heart, i can also be more mature and steady. then maybe hubb will suffer less? hahah.. i love growing up! i recalled myself as a kid. always a scaredy cat.. spellings cannot memorize will cry... forgot to bring books to school will panic... don know how to do hw will cry... im so glad i've grown up. being a kid is pathetic!
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so much as i said i've matured, i still cannot be decisive. there r many dilemmas now. too many choices.. too many options... kidda lost.. how?? i guess no one can help me or decide for me. it's really up to me. i gotta make a choice and once i made it, i gotta go ahead with it. there's no turning back, i cannot regret or blame anyone cuz it's a decision tt i made. yes.. heavy responsibility. think huiping, think! it's not a matter of life and death. but.. pls make a prudent choice!
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hahah.. i v mysterious eh? many things lar.. but too long to blog. and im too tired to blog.. i shall make up my mind, SOON.
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