aiiii... it's depressing.

remb i signed up for gym somewhere in june2018 and i was soo bloody enthu that i went almost every lunch time?

yes, with that kind of rigorous training, and after 1.5 freaking yrs, i only managed to lose 3kg. 

and then it kind of went on a plateau and i was consistently at the same weight, no more losing. 

fuk. 

then, came feb when i was trsf to tpy due to split ops. as it was much further away from the gyms, i could only go 3x a week. and worse, tpy got so damn many bbt shops.. so i realised my weight was slowing increasing since feb..... 

at that time i was still bearing the hope that the gain is only temporary, cuz though the frequency of visiting the gym is lower, the duration is longer, so perhaps, the body is needing time to get used to the new training routine. 

who knows, the weight never went down. 

and then lagi worse came the CB. no more gym. but i hell promise i still did jog and do online training. but......... the eating part also increased alot. haiii. if only i could turn back time, i swear i would be more mindful of my diet!!

yes, that cb period, really ate alot as compared to usual times in office. wake up eat, lunch time eat, tea time eat, dinner time eat. 

OMG!

and kept ordering foodpanda for bbt.... for snacks... even after dinner. 

haiiii. 

so now, i gained back that 3kg which i had painstakingly lost. 

WTF???!

and though now i try to swim/online training/jog at least 3x a week, the weight is not budging. not at all. 

haiiiiiixxxx

why like that. 

losing weight is really not easy. 

long story short, according to some app, for me, i can only consume 1574kcal/day if i want to lose weight of 0.25kg/week.

i was desperate until i kept a food diary.. but i tell u... keeping strictly to 1574kcal every.single.day is no easy feat!

some days can hit, some days in excess, but net-net, im in excess every.single.week!!!!!

no wonder the weight gained despite exercising. 

haii. siannnx... 

gaining back that 3kg is really uncalled for.

and i know it will not be easy to lose liao. considering all the shit that i'd done at the gym, and only 3kg loss... 

haiixxx 

ok, i admit, if i can control my diet more, losing weight should not be an issue. cut out ALL the carbs, ALL the sugar, ALL the oil, ALL the salt, halves ALL portions.....

but..... why so 辛苦? for what?

i guess 算了啦, 看开点. 

so long i continue to exercise, dont 太过份的吃, i should stop watching and get disturbed by the number on the weighing scale. 

anyway, life's short. who knows whats going to happen next?

dont be too hard on yourself ok. 

oh and losing weight is one thing. able to MAINTAIN at the lost weight is another. 

look at how many pple have rebound. i personally know a few peeps who really managed to lose weight, just to rebound after that. 

and look at joyce cheng, the daughter of lydia sum. didnt she managed to lose weight drastically?

if it were so easy, why didnt she managed to maintain it? given that she had the money, sure have one team of dedicated trainers/dieticians to help her maintain right?

but in the end, she also decided to put a stop to this nonsense of maintaining lost weight. 

yep. so, just live per normal ok. 

no need to go exceptionally hard on oneself. 

eat normal, exercise, and be happy!