NeeDinG a BrEaK

recently, i love to look at old people.

i love to look at them, and wonder what is going on in their mind.

i wonder, when the day comes, and i am at their age, what would be in my mind?

would i triumph over the facts that i own that house, own that car, have that amount of money in my bank account(s), and have left behind a decent legacy for the next generation.

or, would i be regretting that i had slogged my life away, and hasnt been truly enjoying it?

and then i start to think and imagine.

if i am on my death bed now, re-looking at my past 20odd years, would i triumph or would i regret?

i guess i would triumph over the fact that i had travelled to various countries, own a few luxury items, led a relatively decent life.......

but, without slogging, i wouldnt have been able to achieve all these items which i triumphed over.... right?

ironic isnt it?

im seriously in a state of confusion.

i guess i seriously need a hiatus... need a break... need a stop...

i cant say i have been slogging, but somehow... im seriously sick of working life..

6yrs down... and here i am.... flat. literally.

wondering how to go on for the next 40yrs.

is it just me? am i the so-called 草莓族??

haiiii...

wished i could be less rational.. wished i could think less and worry less... wished i could just have enough courage to do what i want to do.....

i need to re-charge!!

give me the batteries, please!!!