TrauMaTiSeD

why are there sooo many traumatising happenings recently??!

there will soon be this annual company walk/run event whereby we can participate in the competitive run, lesiure run, or just walk.

current dept wants to send out a team to participate in the competitive run. thinking that i've been constantly running, i happily volunteered to be one of the runners, even though my very initial plan was to participate in the leisure run with my ex-dept colleagues, just like last year.

it's gonna be a 5km run. not too long, i initally thought. but after equivalenting 5km to 12.5rounds the track, it's actually quite intimidating.

i have no idea what is the distance that i usually run, but it's always around 30mins. so, i downloaded the appls that will track the distance. and that day, i went running with the phone.

and so, what i usually run, is 1.91miles in 30mins = 3km in 30mins.

oh-no. so what i usually run is only 3km?! and the max i have run before is only 4.5km. which means, im still short of 0.5km. which means, i still need to run another 1+ round the track! oh no. 4.5km is already kidda breathless. i really dont know if i can make it for 5km....

and.... i later realised that 3km in 30mins is D.E.A.D slow. apparently, walking speed is 4.5km/hour.. and so, my 'running' speed of 6km/hour is only slightly faster than walking!

and so.... all these while... i havent been running! i was only fast-walking!!!!????

oh-no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

super traumatising!!!!

and.. one of my team members in the competitive run is an auntie... and she told me.. she took about 30mins to complete the 5km run on the treadmill.

oh-no.

how????

i remb i used to score 4points in the napfa test for 2.4km and i remb the time i took was about 22mins. hubb said impossible, as 22mins to complete 2.4km is way too slow. not wanting to believe it, i went online to check out the score chart. and indeed, to score 4points for 2.4km run, one must run b/w 14:21 to 14:50.

if i really did score 4pts for 2.4km run back then, assuming my timing was 14:50, so to run 3km, i should take only 18mins to complete.

so y am i taking 30mins now???!!!!

oh-no.

isit an age issue?? or... maybe the road i run fast-walk, is not as smooth as a flat track, hence longer time needed???

i really am ultimate slow.

im soooo worried now.

on that day, competitive runners will be given tags to pin on their shirts. then they will be flagged off first, followed by the lesiure runner.

i cannot imagine how malu it will be if im kenna taken over by a leisure runner...

oh-no....oh-no....oh-no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

must buck up!!!!

really traumatising. din realise all these while, i have only been fast-walking. i still tot covering 3km in 30mins is super zai already.

why let me know the hard truth??!

Byeeee

You will not hear me complain about so-and-so anymore.

Cause it's already game over.

Great.

On first thought, it was rather cruel.

But on 2nd thought, I think it should have been tougher.

This is letting it go too easily.

He probably benefitted from this arrangement and is secretly laughing over it.

Say I'm evil.

But you reap what you sow.

And I'm so right about my gut feelings.

I'm a genius.

HaTe....

I hate it when those people do not reply to sms. im not expecting some nice replies, but at least, a reply to acknowledge right?! be it 'ok, noted' or even as simple as 'ok'. what's the problem with replying? if u dont bloody hell reply, how do i know whether u received and read the sms and is aware or not??! so i should assume u have read it, and if anything happens, i should just blame it back on you for not reading????? i deem it as a basic courtesy to reply to sms lor, maybe some pple are just not taught of basic courtesy like these. stupid silly wily old fox.

i hate it when nobody can conclude anything, and when something is finally suggested to be agreed upon, there will always be someone to disagree and then all will be back to square one with no decision made at all. kaoz. y are precious time spent on making decisions over things that are sooo simple and straightforward?? brainless.

hate everything that is happening around me.

urgh!

YuFei's FaReWell DiNnEr

farewell dinner for yufei @ swissotel merchant court.

the buffet is more of a peranakan style.. and so is the whole ambience. not the classy kind, but the sixties/seventies style kind.

variety is okay, if u like the spicy peranakan stuff. sashimies not all that fresh. overall very average.

yufei was the closest colleague when i first joined the bank.

still remb the days when i was super miserable and had to go back on sundays to work, she was there to work with me.

she used to sit just next to me, subsequently she changed her sitting area, and we started to talk less.

she's a very different gal from me.. and probably tt's y we din make it to be very good friends.

nonetheless, im still appreciative of her and all the very best to her in her new work environment. :)

自尊心的摧毁

an ultimate crush of my self-esteem.

a questioning of my self-worth.
in doubt.

知足常乐

不比较 只因人比人气死人

it's always easier said than done.

谈何容易

im starting to worry about the future.

how to move on from here?

someone is still on mc. today and tmr.

perhaps he's really sick.

or perhaps, just like me, he longer knows how to move on.....

probably he used to be as enthu as me... until he realised it's all futile and fruitless and hence he decided to maximise his pay by constantly being 'lawfully' away from work.

o well.

i'll never stoop to that level to be as irresponsible.

but.... can someone just tell me how to move on??

confused.

lost.

demotivated.

demoralised.

saddened.

upset.

unhappy.

imbalance.

sigh.

2/11/2011 - Day 5 台中/逢甲夜市

urgh. 3 days holiday passed just like that! emo.

time to resume my taiwan trip post.

day 4 ended with me vomitting all over the hotel lobby and praying that i'll be better after self-medication.

start of day 5. still at taichung.

hubb's hearty breakfast.

my pathetic breakfast, which later on was vomitted out as well. really no appetite for anything..

the fact that i continued to vomit and unwell left me with no choice but to seek proper medical advice. not to mention that we still have like another 1 week and much travelling to do.

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and so, we went to a nearby clinic..... and got medication..

all properly dispensed in small little cute packs..

and a jab to go along with...

while searching for the clinic, hubb had his lunch at one of the eateries. and while at the convenience store, he came across these yummy 便当s and succumbed to the temptation again.. for him it was truly an enjoyable 吃喝玩乐trip.

afternoon was spent sleeping in the hotel. wasteful, but no choice.

night time was to the feng-chia night market in taichung. it's a super super huge and 热闹 night market. very happening. must visit if u are in tai-chung.

hubb had his fill as usual... for me, the pics are kidda 强颜欢笑.. cuz i was still unwell. bad time to visit the feng-chia market. there are sooo many things to eat and see and buy... but just no mood lah... haiz.

resting at a convenience store. yes, this is the real expression that reflected my mood at that point of time. ultimate sianz..

after that we went to 忠孝夜市, which is a really quiet, small and ulu night-market. nothing much here.

and this is the hotel which i vomitted right at the lobby even before checking in. urgh, real paisay. lucky thing was, we had 2 nights in taichung. at least some time for me to rest and not travelling around. phew. and see that jacket around my waist? i left it in the hotel when check-out. haiz.

***************

someone chu pattern again. last last week, mc on wed and thurs. then friday got medical appointment which he later claimed mc, but he came back to handle his own work.

then monday, he came to work. tues took urgent leave. and then it was mc again on wed and thurs. and then public hol on friday, followed by the weekend.

fantastic, isint it?

apparently, he was knocked around his rib cage by his friend and now his rib cage hurts so much that 'even breathing is painful and as if it's broken'. and he has been walking around holding his ribcage, just like how a pregnant lady will hold her back. and then kept breathing so hard that as if worried no one can hear him.

WTF?

so is he going for some hospitalisation leave again? the year before last was leg. last year was 'un-said-able'. and this year will be the rib cage??

WTF X 100.

im sorry if i sounded so heartless and un-sympathetic. but i really have nothing more to say of this person.

irresponsible. shameless. irritable. plain shit-ass lazy.

ShaYna's BaBy ShoWeR

it's shayna's bb shower!

celebrated at Plaza Singapura's Lao BeiJing Restaurant.

with the 奶奶 and the little 表姐

with the 爷爷

with 叔公, 叔婆, 堂姑, daddy and mummy

with 姑妈 and  姑丈

with 姑妈 and mummy

and of cuz, with  姑姑 and 未来姑丈!

with 姑姑 and daddy

i love 姑姑!!! :)

祝小Shayna:

快高长大

平安健康

聪明伶俐

now, time do fly. refer to this post for miss cute's full month celebration in 2008.. now 4yrs down, she's miss naughty quek already! wouldnt be too long before shayna will start greeting me and be a miss naughty as well.

kekekeke :)