F.A.I.R.N.E.S.S

unfair treatment at work again.

basically we are all grouped into different segments and different segments will handle different profiles. obviously,  different segments will have different targets to meet. 

now my questions are: 

1) are the targets truly reflective of the profiles that we have on hand?   

2) who decides on wad targets to be set for each segment?

3) on wad grounds are these targets being implemented?

feels really indignant when equal efforts are given but some get rewarded but some do not and it's due to some external factors controlled by that small group of pple called 'management'.

when can fairness prevail?

so demoralising and soul-wrecking.

seriously, i think 'fairness' is something only present in an 'ideal world'.

in reality, there's NO fairness.. becuz, it's IMPOSSIBLE to have total fairness.

even though we sit for the same PSLE papers, same O levels papers, same A levels papers - u think that is fair already?

NO!

how do we account for the fact that we have different teachers, different environment etc? who can confirm that the peice of paper given to me doesnt reflect more light to my eyes and therefore caused distraction and caused me to perform worse than u??

how abt the chairs and tables tt we were seated on? we all sit on different chairs and use different tables, who can confirm that such differences will not have an effect on the result?

how about position? i was seated right in front of the hall while u are right at the back. will that make a difference?

see?

it's totally impossible to have fairness.

even though we sit for the same papers, but there are tons of external factors out there which can cause differences in the results we get.

i should stop harbouring the thought that by arguing enough, there'll be a chance of having fairness.

also, i must have inherited alot of mum's genes... if not, why am i always soo good in pushing blames on all other things? it makes me really unbalance when i find that the problem that is affecting me does not lie with me at all! ironic!  

maybe there's nothing wrong with the targets afterall.

it's jus me. im just one of the suay ones to be chosen to handle such profiles. LL - lan lanz.

but i choose to believe that it's 能者多劳 tt im chosen to be one of them. ha. talk abt self-deception.

i sincerely pray that such ways of measuring productivity and such KPIs are not used in the new place that im going.

yes, im leaving my current position. will blog abt it later.

for the bettter? for the worse? i have no idea.

i only know that 此地不可久留 and i thank god that i still have the opportunity to escape.