2nD YushenG

ahha, v fast and had the 2nd yusheng of the year liao. 

kekekek.

@ senjyu restaurant at bugis juntion. 

with the dear gals! huat ahhh! 

the food at the restaurant really so so only. the sushies are very small sized and the presentation is different from that on the menu for some items. i dont think i will visit again. 

anyway, counting on to the 3rd yusheng soon. hahaha.

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also had my 1st uber ride the same day during lunchtime! LOL.

quite 'fun' actually. we were waiting down there and then almost mistook another car for our uber car. and apparently, that car which we mistook should also be an uber car cuz it's quite obvious that the passenger and the driver do not know each other. 

and that kind of brought me back to one day when i was waiting for hubb's car, and as i enter on the other side of the car, there's one blur woman who also opened his car door at the other side wanting to board. OMG. she must had mistook hubb's car for her uber car!

and just that day, when hubb's car was waiting at the traffic light and i turn to look at the car waiting beside us, i saw this uncle driver with an angmoh passenger behind. and throughout the traffic light waiting period, there was no conversation made at all. 
so, quite obvious.... uber (or maybe grab car or the likes) again! 

LOL. 

but one colleague was asking if we are ok to board uber alone. umm... i told her SG should be ok bah.. but then again, think think about it... maybe i wont if it's at night. somewhere somehow... the 'feel' is just different from taking taxis.. and though we r in sg, still tot it's kidda dangerous if to uber alone at night. 

and so, after the meet-up with the gals, i cab back from bugis to boon lay.. and that was $25 of cab fare!! 

wah. super expensive lohhh! 

1st YuShenG FoR ThE YeaR

my 1st yu-sheng for the year. 

@ the dining room restaurant in suntec. 

sitting in a table where i dont think i belong. 

looking at faces which are so distant from me. 

flipping my eyes secretly in my heart for the unknown number of times. 

putting on that fake smile and enthusiasm and trying to make sense of everything. 

simply omg

The ReaL PaRenThooD

sometimes, things in life is really funny. 

it's like.. u have been trying and wishing so hard to get there.. yet when u finally did get there, actually, u'd prefer it to be where it was orginally.

uh-huh. too abstract and cannot understand?

haha. 

i've heard many times that the best time to take care of babies, is when they are just newborn. all they do is eat and sleep, fuss-free. when rayous was at that stage, i did not agree with that at all. as a newborn, he was fragile and did not really respond to the surroundings. so i was hoping that he can quickly grow bigger and it'll be easier to take care. 

and then when he was a newborn, we had to hold him very carefully when bathing him. quite tedious cuz have to support him and grab him. then, i was telling MIL that it will be easier to bath him when he grows bigger and can support himself. 

and then when he was a newborn, he would wake up in the middle of the night, wanting to be fed. so i was hoping and convincing myself (and everyone else) that it will be better once he reaches 6mths and start eating stuff other than milk. 

and then now that he is at 6months.... 

how wrong was i to think that things will get better when he's bigger! 

apparently, taking care of him is much tougher now cuz he will toss and turn. u cant just leave him alone somewhere. and he will start grabbing anything that he can grab! and he will pull ur hair, pull ur specs, whack u... etc etc. and.... u have to give him ur full attention, cuz when u dont.... he will just whine and whine and whine till u give ur attention to him! 

and bathing him is a lot more challenging cuz his legs will kick kick kick kiccccccckk. be prepared for a big splash time when bathing him! and same goes for changing diaper and clothes.. he will just toss and turn and toss and turn and it's sooo much more difficult to change him now! 

and then.. the ultimate nightmare. i had always tot that he will be able to sleep thru once he reaches 6mths old and eating semi solid stuff.. who knows... it's worse worse off than before! apparently after he started weaning, he's been waking up almost every hour at night!! 

believe it or not!! 

this is no joke at all. his waking up every hour is killing me (and MIL!). so much so that i was down with fever and had 2days mc this week! im super deprived of sleep and body aching everywhere! 

and feeding him is also not as simple. the 1st time round was ok. but subsequently, his pattern came liao. eat abit then refused to eat... cry.. struggle to move around... etc etc.... and MIL was so discouraged when he simply refused to eat the 愛心 porridge that she cooked for him. 

see?? 

still tot things will get better as he grows... who knows..... haiizzz. 

no wonder everyone was stunned when i declared that i want 4 children. apparently, the 1st 6mths is honeymoon. now then is the real start to parenthood!!! 

woohoo!

really.. all these are things which i hadnt anticipated... and worse, they are contrary to what i had anticipated. what irony! 

so that's life huh. u tot u will be better off when u r there, who knows, u r actually worse off. ha.

and i bet.. anyone reading this post with older children will be sneering at me and saying... 'wait till he can start crawling and walking..' 'wait till he's at terrible two'... 'wait till he goes to school...'. 'wait till he's at puberty age..'etc etc.... 

ohh hoho... parenthood! 

I really hate having to be so negative.

But I really hate being where I'm now.

If only I could just f**k care and throw in tmr.

I hate having my mood spoilt every day (or rather, on days when I have to be at that damn place seeing those damn pple).

This is so detrimental to my mental health. 

It's my problem. I'm a misfit in the environment.

Need to get out.

Save me!!

honestly, i really hope i can just throw in the damn letter tmr. 

it's really eating into my personal well-being and making me super unhappy everyday. 

how to work with a bunch of shameless people?

come in late.. take long lunches.. go off early... slack..... and even dozing off at work. not a tinge bit of guilt and taking everything for granted. 

how??

in rome, do what the romans do. 

but... i really really just cannot stoop to that level. i just cant. 

it's super demoralising and imbalance. 

working with them makes me feel stupid.

why am i working so hard and sticking by the common work ethics when NO ONE else does? 

it's a wrong fit, wrong culture, wrong environment. 

i want to go. 

i want to go. 

I WANT TO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WeAninG Time!

yay! and so, baby rayous is 6mths old!!! can start to introduce him some other food other than milk liao!! 

very happy! i finally accomplished the mission of breast-feeding him exclusively for 6mths! 也算是仁至义尽了!! i was sooo damn hell worried that my supply will not be able to last him for 6mths, lucky it did! all thanks to the papaya fish soup that MIL has been cooking for me. haha. phew.  now can chill and relax liao. 有就有,沒有就沒有. no need so stress liao. hoho. 

tada!

1 teaspoon of powder with 4 teaspoon of breast milk. so we started with 3 teaspoon of powder. hoho. the texture is just like mash potatoe. nice.

my boss and i

ahhhhh... uummp

yes, i read and knew it's gonna be a mess. but actually still ok lah. not as messy as i had anticipated. hoho. good job!

he quite likes it! very good! LOL. shall go shopping soon to see what else we can buy for him to eat. so exciting! kekekeke.

XmAs XchaNges 2015

xmas xchange 2015 w bnf peeps!

we had dinner at sho teppan at raffles city, then gifts xchange at mos burger

so (from top left) yh received an agnes b lanyard from ant, i received a hair mist and baby clothing for rayous from yan, yan received bowls/trays from jas, jas received an adult coloring book and travel organiser from xh, ant received a belt from yh and xh received a painting collage from me! 

hohoho

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also had gift xchanges with the gals on the same week. dinner was at fish & co at somerset then gift exchange was at starbucks.

yan with travel bag from glo

glo with candle from yy

jo with pillow and masks from yan

yy with shoes ornaments clips from me

and i received a mascara and measuring tape from jo 

hohoho merry xmas!!!

love the xmas xchanges. stay tune to this yr-end's exchanges! 

Hello 2016!

1st day of 2016 - had lunch at canton paradise at star vista with hubb and friends. 

then was a visit to our house to see rayous and play game..

so there goes the xmas long holiday and new year holiday. knocked off at around 1pm on ny eve, then went to collect passports/nric for myself and ray and had dinner at mum's house before coming home to count-down to 2016. ahh. so not happening huh. 

and... unfortunately, been feeling quite down these few days, just like the gloomy weather out there. so wrong a mood to welcome the new year. 

anyway, no public holiday in jan. that's ultra sian. need to take some leaves man. well, at least still got cny to look forward to. 

time really is passing soo soooo soooooo fast. one more month to cny. 

woohoo! 

hope 2016 will be a good year. really.