ConFineMenT NannY

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and so, the confinement nanny will be leaving tmr. today is her last full day already. 

on one hand, im worried of her departure, cuz i know life will no longer be as easy. yet on the other hand, im actually quite happy that she's finally leaving. 

finally i can take control of everything and of baby rayous. no one to interfere in how i manage him. 

 initially i was quite unhappy w her and had even thought of asking her to leave. i remembered her asking what kind of breakfast i want when i just came back from hospital and was in stress cuz rayous was down w jaundice. shouldnt she have more knowledge in what kind of breakfast i should have than ask me? and i was flabbergasted when she agreed to cooking maggi mee when hubb gong gong suggested it. and then, i was totally pissed when she gave me cold herbal water for bathing. and i was in shock when i saw she kept the prepared herbal water for bathing just beside the pail of mopped water.  and when she cooks, she had the tendency to cook alot which 还没吃就饱一半了. and when she coaxs baby, she got this irritating way of talking and this sneaky look which always steal glances at us. and i was pushed to my limits when we just came back from hospital and rayous was frequently crying and all she can say was that rayous was hungry and will push him to me for feeding when i was totally sore and probably 'milk-less' back then. and i caught her sneezing without covering her mouth! omg. 

oh oh.. and i remembered being unhappy with her for using the washing machine to wash small quantity of clothes. i think the washing machine has been the most 'hardworking' during this period because apparently, it is always in use! and i was also upset with her for watching tv, making personal calls and using pacifier on rayous. 

ok, all these kind of ironed out and along the way, we slowly got used to her and understand/accepted her way of doing things. 

no doubt, she has helped us quite abit, especially at night time when rayous sleeps with her. that gave us undisturbed sleep which i know will no longer be possible after she leaves. but personally, i think she'd instilled some habits which kind of made rayous a fussy baby. eg, wanting to have a bath as early as 7plus am, wanting to change clothes every so often... 

according to her, these are rayous's habits and he wont settle down unless we do all these at those timings. but then, hello, he's just a baby! what kind of habits can he have? and it's not as if he's aware of the timings right?! all these are behaviors that adults created!! so... i think, it's better that she leaves and i shall help rayous change these behaviors to make him less fussy. 

and just now, i noticed some small drips of brownish stain which looked like blood stains on rayous's clothes. went to ask her and i saw this cut on her finger. omg. i hope she's not down with some contagious illness... urgh

normal confinement period is for 28 days, yet i requested for 40days, as strongly advised by a colleague. kind of regretted for extending that long. i think an extension of 5days should be sufficient. no doubt the longer she stays, the more help we receive. but that will also delay us in experiencing the 'full force', which like it or not, will just come eventually. so what's the point of delaying and paying more? i'd rather embrace it than delay it. 

so all in all, im happy that she's leaving tmr. 

finally we can get down to having things done our way. 

looking forward. albeit with lotsa fear and agony. 

haha. wad contradictions, huh.