无奈

无奈, 无奈, 真无奈. 人生真的是充满了太多的无奈.

tonight, or rather, this early morning, is rayous's 1st morning away from home, ever since we brought him back from the hospital. 

yeah, we left him at my in laws' place, to let him (as well as my in laws) try out staying overnight there.

i guess there's a start to everything bah. 有一点不舍得, but...... also no choice bah. will be going back to work soon... and it's only a matter of time before we have to leave him overnight. 

likely will leave him there on alternate nights after i resume work. shall see how it goes. 

think about it, even if we were to bring him home every night, im sure there will be some nights whereby it's just too late to bring him home and we just have to leave him overnight with my in laws. so.. better let him get use to it now. 

used to 'despise' those pple who leave their children overnight with other caregivers.... yet.... im doing such a thing now..

again..... 无奈!!

coming from a very practical view, if we bring him back every night... it will mean mad rush in the morning... and deprived sleeps. not enough sleep during maternity period still ok... but if not enough sleep during working days... i think i will kill pple..

and more importantly, it's to rayous's benefits also lah. too disruptive to wake him up every morning and bring him to in laws' place and then at night bring him back home again... and in few hours time.. bring him to in laws' place again... 

so..... it's really 很无奈的...

anyway, i should take it positively! 

finally a night whereby i can sleep through, that's something which hasnt happened for months already! finally can talk loudly in the room at night! finally can do things 'normally' and not act like some discreet rat having to do everything gently and softly. woohoo! 

and tmr (or rather, later..) is my free day! can go do some shopping, get some new outfits for work, and facial! i think i havent done any facial since my wedding!!! omg!

and who knows? maybe i enjoy it so much.. that i would prefer to let rayous stay overnight with my in laws to staying with us. 

hohoho.