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I think i really gotta be more positive. things are always the toughest at the beginning and tt is exactly where im now. i should not give up so easily and be depressed so easily. i should give myself more time and even if i have to fall, i will fall gracefully and make sure i learn and no more falling at the same place the next time.

i gotta be strong and bear through this very difficult period. it's tough. but i know it will be rainbow after the storm.

but that being said, the 1st thing tt needs to be done, is to make myself hate less wad im doing now and where im now. and the 1st thing to go abt making it less hatred, will be to have a more balance work life. tmr is the start of a new month, and it's the time to make myself feel better

1) i will have more time for lunch. even if it means ta-baoing back, i will go out, take a walk and tabao myself. no more sitting in the office all day long w/o even going out for awhile.

2) no more free OT. even if it has to be done, it'll be half an hr more. and if i must stay late, i will MAKE SURE I MAKE THE NECESSARY CLAIM.

3) i will stay focus and know wad to do. no more being a blur f**k and all ready to jump for help once something comes in. i will analyse wad is needed 1st, think thru wad to do, and do it. it's time to stop asking pple for help, since most prob, they'll give me nonsense as well. time to rely on myself.

4) i will understand that everything will have it's allocated time. i must complete the task by the allocated time and move on. and b4 the allocated time is up, i must not lose focus and be disturbed and lose focus.

i will learn to like my job. but i know i will continue to hate the pple im working with. it doesnt matter anyway, since i dont depend on them to survive.

i will make it. i will definitely make it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!