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I think i really gotta be more positive. things are always the toughest at the beginning and tt is exactly where im now. i should not give up so easily and be depressed so easily. i should give myself more time and even if i have to fall, i will fall gracefully and make sure i learn and no more falling at the same place the next time.

i gotta be strong and bear through this very difficult period. it's tough. but i know it will be rainbow after the storm.

but that being said, the 1st thing tt needs to be done, is to make myself hate less wad im doing now and where im now. and the 1st thing to go abt making it less hatred, will be to have a more balance work life. tmr is the start of a new month, and it's the time to make myself feel better

1) i will have more time for lunch. even if it means ta-baoing back, i will go out, take a walk and tabao myself. no more sitting in the office all day long w/o even going out for awhile.

2) no more free OT. even if it has to be done, it'll be half an hr more. and if i must stay late, i will MAKE SURE I MAKE THE NECESSARY CLAIM.

3) i will stay focus and know wad to do. no more being a blur f**k and all ready to jump for help once something comes in. i will analyse wad is needed 1st, think thru wad to do, and do it. it's time to stop asking pple for help, since most prob, they'll give me nonsense as well. time to rely on myself.

4) i will understand that everything will have it's allocated time. i must complete the task by the allocated time and move on. and b4 the allocated time is up, i must not lose focus and be disturbed and lose focus.

i will learn to like my job. but i know i will continue to hate the pple im working with. it doesnt matter anyway, since i dont depend on them to survive.

i will make it. i will definitely make it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ENOUGH

seriously, im soo frustrated with wad im doing now. im walking toooo much yuan wang lu and bumping my head too much.

1) ask pple for advice.. but pple give me the wrong advice and i gotta amend wad i have done.

2) happily work through my stuff, thinking tt im so smart, but only to realise tt it's incorrect and have to re-do. shld i blame it on the person who did not infm me? or shld i blame myself for not asking??

now wad? ask pple, pple also give me crap. DIY, but also get crap.

is there no better way to learn how to walk w/o having to fall down?

this is real crappy and demoralising. keep having to rework, to amend stuff, to do corrections. and not forgetting the incoming new requests and stuff. dammit!!!

when can i get out of all these??

im super sad and unhappy. how how hoooowww???????????????

and the pay.... in the past still can supplement with OTs, incentives and wad's not and i enjoy calculating how much i'll be getting by payday. but now???? gosh.. this is really getting nowhere.

SAVE ME SOMEBODY!!

and i swear im gonna take it easy. no more cold and lumpy packed food. no more late nites. no more imbalance emotions!

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH

Pic

and as said.. that's shirley koh in the pic!

thanks gal for sending me the pic. kekeke.

FrienDs

finally met shirley koh for lunch tdy. so she's juz @ the building next to me. kekekeke.

she's my fren frm sec 1 and also my 'ying-yang-lu' kakhi. yup, we used to go to the movies to watch all the ying-yang-lu series. and that was soo sooo sooooo long ago.

long time since i last met her also. mayb since 21st bday? gosh..

took a pic with her tdy using my phone, but unable to load now as my netbook doesnt have the LG programme. will think of a way to load to computer then i can upload here. shirley, i send to ur hp then u load to ur computer and email back to me, can can???? hhehehe

anyway, i realise pple really come and go in life. was talking to her abt this impt fren who has left my life. seriously, i have allowed too many pple to leave my life. issit me who left them out? or them who left me out? much as i seem like i dont care, i do care.

issit my problem? there's a mortgage retention unit in bank where the staff will offer exisiting customers with lower interest rates for their housing loans so they do not redeem the loans and go to other banks. maybe it's time to learn how to retain my frens in life.

as much as i can, no one will be allowed to leave my life from now on. to each and everyone of you, who bothers to read wad is gg on in my life, pls know that i do treasure and cherish u. i may not say it out, i may not express it, i may not contact u, but pls do know that i will think of u and will pray that all is gg well for u.

pls keep in contact with me.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im so dying

i tot i've gone to heaven. but in fact, im still in hell. and probably, in a even lower level of hell.

boo

illusion!!!!!!

well, it's really depressing. i dont get to lunch properly. i have to knock off late. i have to sacrifice my personal time. i have to tolerate stupid requests. i have to stick to senseless deadlines. i have to cover shit. i have to rush this rush that. i have to stand the chillness in office. and to top it off, i DONT GET AN EXTRA CENT !!!!!!

WTF?!!!

so god dammit!!!!!!!!!!!

pls lemme rant. if not, i will go crazy.

time mgmt is really super duper crucial now. im not superman. i cant pls everybody. im juz gonna f**k care everything. unless, i dont mind dying young.

really sick of all the stupid nitties gritties. surely there'r better ways to process things, arent there??!!

now... i really gotta be strong.

generally im a nice person. but if i have to be mean in order to survive, then i cant help.

make life hell for others, b4 they make life hell for u.

my latest motto in life.

TGIF

CBD oN a SunDaY

and as planned, i went back to work today.

to my surprise, the whole tanjong pagar was like a dead town. i mean, i did not expect to see many pple, but also not as few as that bah. i think only 5 or 6 pple on the street and construction workers carrying out their work only. all the shops were closed, including guardian, starbucks etc. even the traffic was super light. it's really like a dead town.

seriously, i did not expect that. u mean there's no one who'll shop/walk ard tanjong pagar area during wkend??? it's really quite scary leh.

there wasnt any1 when i reached. my colleague came awhile later and when i left, another colleague came. the whole office was v quiet. but the light works well, the vending machine works well, the water dispenser works well, the machines work well, and the toilet works well too. just that there was no air con, but we had the fan on.

it's really quite cool. no one bothers you. can eat, drink, listen to radio. i don mind slacking during wkdays and come back on sunday to clear stuff, since it's juz a bus ride away. but it's kidda silly lah, since i wont get any xtra pay. mmm...see how things go bah.

and all shops at the train station were closed too. really stunned. really no one will go cbd area to shop during wkend one mehhhh????

and time passes really really fast. i went from 11-4pm... but i managed to clear only a bit of stuff. issit that im really slow? or issit time tt is too fast? this is really scary......

KTV

ktv last nite with my dear cmd colleagues. but only a few came. many other kakis cannot make it. 1 new colleague whom i 1st met ytd and sus's sis and sis's bf joined later.

glad to see them again. and hopefully it wont be too long b4 i meet them and the rest again.

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today is a saturday well-spent. did not go out, but slept and rest at home. most prob will go back office to clear some stuff tmr, if not, i will die on monday.

 poor thing, arent i ???

1st Month @ New PlaCe

exact 1 month since the 1st day at the new job. 4th day with the new team. starting to struggle. i stayed till 2030 today and that is w/o any OT claim!!! i can foresee myself coming back on sat to work. shucks.

i hate the pple i have to liaise with. i hate the dingdong here and dingdong there. i dont know if they r in a rush, or careless, or unaware, or bochup or they are juz plain stupid. simply unable to follow instructions and continue the same nonsense despite ample emails to let them know wad went wrong. and when everything gets delay, it always seems like we r at fault. kaoz.

how to work with idiots like that??? brainless.

and, it's sad to realise that the pple whom i tot are nice, are in fact not that nice. and here, seems like every1 is protecting their own interests and trying to push things ard. i mean this is inevitable everywhere, but here, it's ultra blatant. haii.. dont know wad to say.

miss my colleagues at cmd. sian, we all sian together. not happy, we all not happy together. but here... mmm....

glad that i'll be meeting them tmr for ktv. hopefully the load tmr is not heavy and i can meet them on time...

good luck to me.

OuTing/AkiRa Jap/Sands Casino

met up with my 2 jc mates last thurs. had dinner at this jap restaurant - sho teppan - at ion.

~ may and jennifer ~

i think their specialities are the frying dishes whereby you can use their electric stove to stir fry your food. but somehow, jen and me ordered the soup base meal and it ended up something like steamboat. the food is not too bad, but a little too saltish as you eat.

May is now a Mrs. so happy for her. finally tie the knot with her bf all the way from jc. unlike my indonesia-chi colleague whose plan is to earn enuff here and return to indonesia, this burmese gal is planning to stay here with her now-husband, who is also a burmese. sweeeet!!

after that was coffee session at starbucks at the building nxt to wheelock. it's a 24hr outlet. and sad to know, the BK has cease to exist. boohoo... i still remb mugging at that BK for A levels.....

good to knoe they r all doing well :)

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i want to introduce this jap buffet at akira restaurant, which is located in link hotel which in turn, is located near tiong bahru plaza, abt 2 stations away.

this restuarant was intro to me by yy. went online to check it out and realised that the reviews on this restaurant are mainly adverse. pple complaining that the serving time is vvvv long, the portion is vvvv small for repeat orders etc.

but, having faith in yy's standard, i still decided to give it a try.

and yes, all those comments on the net abt this restuarant are unjustified!!!!

the staff are friendly. the serving time is short. the variety is large. the food is fresh. and the price, given the kind of food included in the buffet, is low! each pax is abt $35 and u get to enjoy unlimited supply of wadever jap food u can think of. no joke! and if u spend >$50, the parking is free!

we were seated at the sushi bar and saw how the chef handled the food. they will only cut and prepare when u order, at least for the sashimis and sushies. but do not be decieved by the menu, cux the menu will show v big portion while in actual fact, the portion they serve is not that big. i think they will serve according to the nbr of pple u have. the more pple, the bigger the serving. but large or small, u can always order again and again and again. so i dont see that being an issue.

sis has decided to go there for our father's day dinner. and when i have the time, i will go write some reviews to give this restaurant the justice it deserves!

it's really highly recommended. go go gooooo give it a try!! this is the place for you if you are mad on jap food.

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went sands casino last last wkend. many shops still unopened. seems like all are branded shops. unlike wad i tot, the casino is big.

does not differ much from that in macau. just that i din expect the scale to be the same.

dinner at nite was at long beach seafood restaurant in east coast. not bad. can give it a try if u dont mind the travelling time :)