can someone please spare me the ordeal????!!
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seriously, it's not about the ordeal itself... it's really about the waiting time before the ordeal takes place..
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how should i put it? it's juz like taking a v impt exam, say for example A levels GP paper. it's not abt the GP paper itself but the process and preparation and waiting towards the taking of the paper. the paper will only take 2hrs, but the whole process b4 tt will take years of hardwork. similarly, say for example ur waiting for a health report. it's not abt the result of the report, but the process of waiting for the report to be out. u will only need 1min to look thru the result, however, the waiting time b4 that can kill. that kind of anxiety, tt kind of fear, tt kind of worry.... omg.. i cannot breath.
how should i put it? it's juz like taking a v impt exam, say for example A levels GP paper. it's not abt the GP paper itself but the process and preparation and waiting towards the taking of the paper. the paper will only take 2hrs, but the whole process b4 tt will take years of hardwork. similarly, say for example ur waiting for a health report. it's not abt the result of the report, but the process of waiting for the report to be out. u will only need 1min to look thru the result, however, the waiting time b4 that can kill. that kind of anxiety, tt kind of fear, tt kind of worry.... omg.. i cannot breath.
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i hate to wait.. especially when it's waiting in fear and nervousness. i juz want everything to be get over and done with, regardless of the result (ok, tt's not true. of cuz i will hope for positive result). but too bad, tt cannot be done. i will juz have to learn wad is P.A.T.I.E.N.C.E ....
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havent been sleeping well these days.. been having weird dreams ALL night long. even when the alarm goes off and im juz enjoying tt last few min of snoozing b4 i truly wake up, a dream can occur. amazing isint it??
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i feel sooo disturbed and i wake up eveyday with shoulder and neck aches. wad is happening? am i thinking too much in the day? if not, y am i dreaming so much at night????
i feel sooo disturbed and i wake up eveyday with shoulder and neck aches. wad is happening? am i thinking too much in the day? if not, y am i dreaming so much at night????
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ugrrghh... i dont like it this way!
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