Im HurT

B.U.A.N.G

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it's funny.. i tot im prepared for it.. but then... when it happened, i still do feel sooooo sad...

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everything was fine. though the warm-up lesson did not go smoothly and tt lowered my morale abit, but it wasnt all tt bad. yet. the TP came in one after another and called out the students whom they were allocated. then came this big size malay guy and i was hoping to myself tt im allocated to him cuz he looked friendly enuff. and true enough, he called out my name and told me i was allocated to test route 1. my morale upped abit.. gd TP, gd test route, gd weather..and in fact, i wasnt nervous at all.. seriously, nothing should go wrong...should..

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1st station was the S course, the one tt i buang-ed quite badly during the warm up lesson and the one tt im most worried abt in the circuit. amazingly, success. then to vertical parking. success. then to slope. success. and then.....................................

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D.I.R.E.C.T.I.O.N.A.L C.H.A.N.G.E

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buang. madly. hopelessly. pathetically. mercilessly.

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i really don know wad happened. i managed to get into the slot... but then when exiting, i stroke the kerb. morale nose-dived. then i tried to reverse, wanting to go back into the slot so tt i can try exiting again... but then..... i stroke again.. and i knew it was game over. worse thing was.. i was stuck there for soooo long!! there was juz no way i could get out from that silly position. i was literally trapped. TRAPPED! kept striking the kerb until the dear TP finally assisted me in getting out. OMG!

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the kerb was at the door 'knob' when i turned. i looked carefully le. so y should it hit the kerb??????! i really don understand y. and.... it was really no help when little miss silly (illustrated with the red car) drove in and waited for her turn to perform the d.c when im not even out of the slot!! y she sooooo gun cheong leh?! she only L plate leh... cant she or her silly instructor see tt im a LL plate??? y they wanna come in and disturb me lehh?? they must be sooo amused to see how i buang-ed at the silly place.

there was no prob with the rest of the circuit. to the road also no prob. not many cars.. and even the most dreaded u-turn and right turn also no prob. everything was perfect except for the darn directional change.

wad happened?

this had never happen during my practice. so y now?

gosh.

on the way back, i was still carrying tt faint little hope tt perhaps the TP will still pass me cuz basically it's only the d.c which cmi. but..... he did not.

okay.. not his fault, not tt silly girl's (or her silly instructor) fault. it's plain my fault. im juz l.o.u.s.y. i should have stayed calm the 1st time i stroke and think of how to correct it. but i did not. i juz allowed myself to buang all the way.

boooooooohoooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im hurt. juz becuz of a directional change. so much for doing soo many silly things b4 the test. it didnt pay off at all.

when will the 2nd attempt be? im a little too demorlised to try again. it's juz too much to bear.. perhaps i should juz end here...

argh

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