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o gReaT .. 9th MaRch ... ThE dAy mY bLog waS LaUncHeD...

always felt that blogs are very boliaoz stuff.. online diary ?? since young, diary has always been known to me as something very private and confidential and tt i will kill anyone who knows the content of my diary. i feel that wad can be made known to others will not be something private and confidential anymore. so, how can an online blog, something which every one else can read, be a dairy ?? ridiculous!but... suprisingly, now im starting to write on something which i'd always tot is silly.. so who's sillier now? anyway, no intention to post anything really private. juz felt like writing down some feelings. and as time passes, i can remembered how i felt in the past.. lol ..

flunked the damn 308 quiz today. though it's only a quiz.. and only 10%... and is only a ge.. but still felt lousy after failing it. i mean, i din really study for it.. but.. juz before it, i did try to catch a few chapters. and while doing the quiz, i tot i can pass... but.. haii.. wad the.. regretted taking 308. i know it's juz a ge and there's really no big implication involved in failing it. But, it's afterall a banking and finance module! it really wouldnt reflect well on me as a banking and finance student if i cannot even handle fix income securities..argh.. i really shouldn have taken 308!!

and.. it din help when xiuhui told me she got selected for the gss thing. how come hk result's still not out yet??! out in mid-april? tt's still so long.. and by tt time, the air tix will be so much more ex than if i book now. and no need to plan for jobs and stuff meh? mid-april .. totally way out of schedule. FRUSTRATING!! i really really wanna go hk lar! 6 weeks in hk.. how shiok can tt be? i'll spend everyday and every night on the ever so happening streets in hk. pls pls pls approve my application!! or maybe, my result's just too lousy to get me anywhere.. haii.. get a job ba.. 4get about exchange programs.

jobs... another problematic area..wl juz told me jul and herself signed the bond to become teachers! hahah.. my sec sch fren.. becoming teachers.. hahahha.. o well, went to the website and briefly read abt it. the pay seems gd.. but, having biz bachelor allows me to teach primary sch only! cannot teach sec sch.. pri sch? omg lorr.. one tuition kid is enuff to make me puke blood.. one whole klass of them? cannot imagine.. haii.. somemore being teachers of this era, in this country is super stresss... i doubt i can make it. and gotta sign a 3 yr bond, i think.. after 3 yrs, it will be damn hard to get back into the corporate world.. wad's the use of my bnf bachelor degree then? but then again.. i shiver at the tot of having to apply my bnf knowledge in companies.. as.... basically... i have none!! 3 yrs in ntu.. 2 yrs in banking and finance.. and yet i don know wad am i doing.. shit.. the future suddenly seemed so bleak ... really cannot imagine how life will be after graduation. but.. it's not my fault tt i cant get a job rite? already sent out resumes liao lei.. but.. no news so far. is results really tt impt? wad the hell lorr. Ahh.. recalled this sickening email regarding MOH looking for job applicants. they are offering 5 positions and know wad? for the eligibility, for every one of the 5 positions, the very 1st critria is "a good honours". wahh... honours is not enough. It must be a GOOD honours. best lorr.. so those without honours can go sweep the floor le lorr. great. government sector.. no doubt.. anyway, see how ba.. if really cannot find one in the corporate world.. then maybe apply for teaching and let the kids kill me! pray for me.. lemme get a good-paying job SOON!!!