i should be super emo and distraught the same time last yr. cuz in a few days time, i'll be back to work after a good 4mths maternity. hahaha. yep, i went back to work on 17.11.2015. so fast, coming to 1yr liao! 

hohohoho.

back to work 1yr. nothing much has changed. except for my mentality, maybe. why work so hard when everyone else is slacking their way off? 

很多东西，看不顺眼，也看不过去。很气愤， 但也知道孤军作战是没有用的。 

if you cant beat them, join them. 

yeah.

being in such an environment really de-motivates me. it really really makes me wonder why i should work so hard. it makes me feel stupid. really.

so now, i also stop being a stick in the mud liao. 

just do what i deem fit. of cuz i wont totally slack off. that will not do me any personal good either. i want to improve myself, not becoming lazier and lazier (though such an environment really encourages that. lucky 我还算出污泥而不染. LOL) and i want to be a good example to rayous. 

and must really learn how to let go. 人家是人家的事。顾好自己就好了。

i will really go mad if i were to keep bothering myself w other pple's actions and doings. 

看开一点总是好的. 

加油!!