Pregnancy - Blood Streaks....

and so, i was put on mc for a week from 10 to 14 Nov, the 1st time i visited the gynae.

that one week was a turmoil really - worried about the blood test results, wondering why the blood never go away, popping hormones pills, and bearing the jabs.

and if i remb correctly, i still did not tell anyone of the pregnancy. just stayed home and worry alone! omg.

and the more i read online to find out on the bleeding, the more worried i got. so many scary stories online....

anyway, if i remb correctly, the 2nd gyane visit was on 22 Nov (yes, in b/w i still visited the clinic 2x per week just to get the jabs, administered by the clinic assistants).

and know what? the gynae gave me hospitalization leave for 2 weeks from 24Nov to 5Dec!! there were still steaks of blood and he couldnt really explain why cuz from the baby scan, everything seemed to be ok. this time round, we went to mum's place and stayed liao. too long a period, i couldn't be alone at home. 

turmoil again!! why with the pills and the jabs.... there's still blood???!!! whyyyyyy???

it really was vvvvvvvv worrying and demoralizing. so much so that i wonder if the whole thing will work out afterall. so much so that i cried a number of times. so much so that i had phobia going to the washroom, dont know when to see blood again. so much so that im wondering if the blood came from my baby's parts. so much so that hubb who was initially very positive, also started to have doubts if this will work out well afterall. 

super terrible, wasnt it?

and the pain from the jabs started to take effect on my tighs. the jabs were 2x per week, alternate tighs. the jab itself wasnt painful, it was the after-effect that was painful. like blue-black that kind of pain. then had to cover with warm towel to lessen the pain. 

and there was 1 time which i remb clearly.. the blood was quite abit... that i wondered if miscarriage was in progress. yes. really. 

lucky... it was just me worrying too much. 

anyway, believe it or not.... on the 6dec, we visited the gynae again. and this time round, he extended my hospitalization leave all the way till 26dec!!!! yes. so practically for the whole of dec, i was on hospitalization leave. huh. win right. 

and still... the blood never went away...... 

*to be continued*