MisSiOn NoT DoNe

Today's supposed to go out with hubb to study de... wanted to go to tt burger king near bugis, cuz usually quite vacant. but ended up.. haii.. he came over to my hse ard 2pm. then we slack, talk crap, do crap etc till 5 plus then left home. went tiong bahru 1st cuz wanted to claim something. then took dinner there as well. went to this western restaurant at the top level. our 1st time there. haha...the menu looks gd, with a wide variety of food. but due to money constraint, the 2 cheapo us settled for the student's meal. only $4.90 per set. i ate fish and chips and hubb ate dory on some special rice. hmm .. can lar, not bad. and the drink is served in a jar, not in those normal cup. yep, quite a large drink, so we can juz share. hehe.. cheapo eh?? gee..

Us in the restaurant

After eating, we went vivocity cuz i got a 10 dollars haggen dazs voucher and there's an outlet in vivocity. the ice-cream at HD really kidda ex eh. i tot 10 dollars can get me something, but in the end, except for the single and double scoops, nothing else is below 10 bucks. how sad.. alot of choices to choose, and in the end, we settled for this ice-cream called "The Perfect Match". i wanted the brownie ice-cream de, but it's too common le la. so ordered this instead..

Ice-cream prata??

erm... that big piece of thing... it's name is don-know-wad-bread on the menu.. but seriously, it's juz a not-so-oily version of a prata. the whole thing costs like $13.90. even with voucher, we still have to top up $6, with the charges inclusive. yah lorr... 2 scoops ice-cream with a prata = $16. best! but it's delicious la. but then i still prefer swensens ice-cream lei. hehe...

after tt went shop ard and went daiso.. bought many boliao stuff.. wasting money again.. haii..

Bought this eyebrow shaver. finally! hehe.. wanted to buy quite sometime ago le, but always hesistating cuz i don know how to use and the tot of using seemed scary. and sis was telling me tt if i don know how to use, i better dont. true.. it's a blade lei... wad if it cuts my skin? or simply shave off all my eyebrow?? so i always see see look look but never buy though i really wanna try. today finally bought liao. eh.... seriously, it's not as scary as i tot. and it's quite easy to use also. haha.. interesting item. it's specially designed... wont cut skin le. shld be quite safe ba. haa..

Wonder y it wont cut the skin...

Another item tt i bought. a handheld fan. hubb bought 1 too.. but his one slightly different design.. hehe.. was having jb in mind when i bought this. next time cross tt stuffy and hot m'sia custom, even super long queue also no need to worry le. guess many situations also will need this mini fan. so bought it lorr.. can juz carry ard and when hot can juz use. cool !

then bought aromatherapy stuff also. this one is backside itchy one la. juz buy and try try. hmm... actually not much use lei. 1st lit up is quite fragrant de... but after a while, the smell seemed to be gone. the smell cannot last de lorr.. and the oil v fast evaporate de.. so have to keep "refilling"..quite dumb.. waste money... or maybe the oil's cheap oil.. that's y the smell cannot sustain?? hmm... think im really slow. when everyone's crazy abt aromatherapy, i din wan to try. now die down liao... then i go buy and try. super last mover!

Pls fragrant up my rm so i can have a sweet sweet sleep!

woo.. and the oil is APPLE fragrance de.. hehe.. purposely choose de. it's a very sweet smell... but like i say.. cannot sustain. sad.... tot i can make my rm smell so sweet and then i can sleep sweetly. boohoo!

Yep.. and as usual.. took pics of ourselves every now and then..

haii... supposed to study de.. instead did so many nonsense thing and ended up not studying AT ALL. wad the hell are the 2 of us doing arrr???

24th JuLy 2007

ok.. so wad's so special abt this date?? haha, it's convocation day! o well, received the email informing us abt convocation. 24th July 2007, Tuesday. Have to arrive at 9.00am. seated by 9.10am and everything will end by 11.30am. hmm... frm the schedule, apparently there's only 1hr plus to present the certs and stuff to all the bachelor of business. so many graduands, 1 plus hr enuff mehh? i wonder how tt day will be like. it's an impt day, no doubt. as written on the homepage "Convocation marks a milestone in your life, as you complete your journey here at NTU ...." but then.. if i only get a pass degree, and all others tt i know got something better, isnt tt goin to be darn malu-ating? hmm.. then the most meaningful day becomes the most paisay day ... (-_-"') how sad....

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im darn tempted to organize and format photos which i have then can post.. also very tempted to start planning the itinenary for my taipei and hk trip.. but i know now is not the time. after exams i will have plenty of time to do it. ok.. juz one more week.. yes i can do it! juz 1 more week, i can tahan de!

SuffeRinG FrOm PGS

I know im suffering frm PGS - Pre Graduating Syndrome. Yes. Im suffering frm it. i cannot believe im goin to say byebye to sch, maybe forever. I cannot believe im already 22 years old (by year). I cannot believe im stepping out into the society SOON. No, i cannnot accept.
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primary sch sometimes seemed so far back. but sometimes, when u really go think abt it, there are many things which i can still remember clearly. suddenly pri sch seemed like juz yesterday. when ur in pri sch, u know u'll have to do well for PSLE so tt u can go into a gd sec sch. when ur in sec sch, u know u'll have to do well in order to go to a jc. and when ur in jc, u know tt u MUST do well in order to reach the final destination - university, or else, u'll be worse than a diploma holder. and now... i've reached my so-called 'final destination'. in fact, im leaving my final destination soon. i don know where else to go liao. all the while, i know where im heading... pri sch, sec sch, jc, then uni. but now.. im lost. wad's next?
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but, wad do i really want? do i juz want a stable job, get a steady pay every month, be a xiao3 ren2 wu4 in the co, and work till i retire? or do i want to compete, climb the corporate ladder, and be someone hong1 hong1 lie4 lie4 in the co/industry? being the former is relaxing, not much pressure, not much responsibilites, and of cuz no one bothers to stab u, cuz u r only a xiao ren wu. equivalently, u'll earn little. stable, but little money. most prob for the rest of ur life, u'll be like most of the other singaporeans. juz a commoner. being the latter is challenging, pressurizing, and full of responsibilites. many pple will be watching u, and i guess u'll be involved in many politics. but then, u can earn alot. then u can possess the 5 Cs or maybe even excced the 5 Cs. how?? wad do WU HUIPING want? even WU HUIPING herself doesnt know.

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juz watched a taiwan variety show. interviewing this taiwan artiste. he said b4 he was famous, he lived on only 10 taiwan dollars per day. then he gotta work those boliao jobs which earns vv little. then finally, a director gave him a chance, and he finally managed to "salted fish turnover". i think in life, most of the times, u r only waiting for a chance lor. if no one gives u a chance, no matter how gd u r, it's no use. all u need is a chance to prove yourself. but how often can we find someone who's willing to give us a chance? haii.. ok.. see? i already said im suffering frm pgs liao.. getting more and more pessimistic and not proactive. i used to think that u don wait for pple to give u a chance, u urself go grab a chance. but... grab a chance? how?? u can be proactive and do this do that, but ultimately, if no one gives u a chance, tt's it, rite???

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anyway, i juz cannot accept tt im 22. im no longer the little gal whom i know. im no longer the carefree gal whom i know. i no longer can act like a little gal, cuz im not anymore. suddenly i feel like crying. pple often say when ur having transition periods in ur life, u tend to be depressed. now i really believe le. im entering into the next phase of my life. a new chapter will be written. im scare. i don want to grow old. can things juz remain as it is now? i don know how long pa and ma can be with me. when i get older, they'll get older too. one day, they'll leave me.. i cannot accept. 我不想, 我不想, 我不想....

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i know everyone goes thru the same phases. study, work, married, give birth, children grow up, ownself die. this is life, and since im a human being, like all other pple, i have to go thru this cycle as well. i used to kan4 de4 kai1 de... and i understand fully tt there is no other way out, i will have to follow these cycles. 根本轮不到我选. 其实也根本没有别的选择.

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ReaL Cuiiiiiii

Juz completed the 311 exam. in free access lab now. haii.. siann.. last core paper liao.. i shld be happy de. but somehow, i don feel happy at all. i wonder y. the paper simply cannot make it. so long, so tough. crapping my way thru. don know can make it or not. sad.. everybody's responses more or less the same. but who knows? some pple will claim tt it's diff and etc, but in the end still get gd results de. anyway, in a real siann mood now. ultimately, im really worried abt the degree thing.. haii.. don know how.. don know how... don know howw.....

CanNoT WaiT

i cannot wait for this to be over. i guess tmr by this time, i shld be v happy liao. cuz my last core module in ntu will be over and done with! then left 2 more ges. still got one more week before EVERYTHING will be OVER! alright!! jiayou! very fast de! yeh !!!!hurry hurry HURRY!!

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Ok, a pic sent to us by our 214 tutor, prof lee hon sing. i guess we shld all be like the frog?? though in the mouth of the bird liao, but still struggling to escape?? lol.. ok.. jiayou all!

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WE WILL SURVIVE !!!!

GonE

juz saw my 311 coursework grade. real cui... only got a B. not even a B+. 50% coursework, 50% final exams. wan dan le... if final examz i got a C, most likely for 311, i'll get a final grade of C too... o.. o man... O MAN!!! y is this happening?? haii.. sian.. seriously speaking, im quite disappointed tt i only got a B. i mean, it shouldnt be tt bad lor. at least a B+ baaaa?? aiyohhh....
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i realised for me, in ntu, whenever i thought tt i'll do well, i will not do as well as i expect. and whenever i tot im confirmed gone, i will do ok. diaooo... really lorr... for some modules, im quite confident and am expecting a gd grade, but ended up not. then when i tot i'll cfm do badly, it will turn out okay. haii.. don know wad's wrong man!

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juz went to take a look at my degree audit. haii.. im really worried.. i wonder wad degree i'll receive... i wonder how convo will be like... wad if i cannot even get a pass with merit?? now im not even hoping for a hon. juz a merit. diaoo.. how failure can i get? sometimes i wonder wad did i learnt in ntu? after spending so much time and money, wad did i achieve? if i had a chance to start all over again, would i have done better?

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seriously i think uni life's not for me. uni requires alot of discipline, initiatives and self-motivation. no one is there to push u. no one is there to scold u. no one is there to force u. u learn wad u want to learn and no one cares. maybe tt xplains y im so slack and y i have this 'cant-be-bothered' attitude. and uni really requires u to be smart. in a 2 hrs lecture, they can bombard u with so much information. if ur not smart, there is no way to catch up. the pace is juz too fast.. haii...

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cant spend too much time here. wait till exam's over and i'll post a long and detailed entry on my "感想" of my 3 years uni life. i juz hope everything will turn out fine and tt my worries are unduly. pls.. gimme at least a merit... plsss !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FracTioNs vs NumBeRs

went for tuition today. i simply hate teaching fractions because the kids can never understand that fractions can be equivalent to numbers, BUT fractions are NOT the SAME as numbers!! y cant they understand??? last time i almost puked blood teaching the p4 gal... now.. same thing again.. primary fours...!!! arghh....how to xplain to them?????? y cant they see it???

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Doris spent 3/8 of her money on a doll and had $40 dollars left. How much is the doll??

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they simply cannot see the connection between 3/8 and the $40. it's problematic man.... i remembered last time, there was a question that asked "how many boys are there", and the p4 gal left the answer as "3/5" or something like tt. anyway,she left the ans as a fraction la. come on lorr.. the question asked "how many".. is there such a thing as "3/5 boy"????? diao.... already said 100 and 1 times tt fractions is not the same as numbers.. why they still cannot get it ???

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i sincerely don know how to get thru this fraction chapter smoothly. it's a big chapter lor. siannn.... can anyone teach me how to teach them and make them understand?? ok, i shld stop blaming the kids. it's me who's lousy. i don know how to teach fractions. fine, i admit!! arghh..

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and 311... 2 more days to the exams. real shitty. the case's so messy lor.. i hate this kind of case whereby the industry is very confusing de.. i prefer those like panera (food industry) and making it big (clothings)... easier and closer to me. unlike these industries - automobiles, hotels, telecomm etc - very chim, i cannot understand.. haii.. sian.. don know how.. juz hope exams can faster over... then i can go for my hols le!!! yeah!!!!

I Can'T BeLiEvE iT

am i crazy?? am i nuts?? am i going to be alright? was i too impulsive?? was i too much?? o man...... i still cannot believe tt i booked air tics to go HONGKONG for 10 DAYS 9 NIGHTS!!!!! o my gosh! im going hongkong?! im going hongkong??!! IM GOING HONGKONG????!!!!!!

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yep. ok. it's true. i juz went to pay for the tix. not me alone. will be travelling with hubb. ok... im crazy, i know. bascially no one supports my decision. mum said don go, bro said im crazy, and wl said im wasting my money. but..i can explain... yesterday i received a call frm ntu IRO (international relations office??). they asked if i wanna go shanghai for exchange. of cuz i rejected. then i asked abt the hk exchange tt i applied for, and tt person said tt the exchange to hk are all filled up. only left shanghai. so... i cannot go hk for exchange le. all the while, im planning to borrow frm sis to go hk exchange, now tt it's no more, maybe i can borrow money to go hk for tour? there are many benefits if i go hk for tour rather than exchange :

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1. save money. if go for exchange, confirm need more money.

2. no need worry abt convo. if go exchange, the dates will clash with convo. then if i wanna come back for convo, i'll need to incur the extra air fare. so it'll be like frm sing, go hk for exchange. then frm hk back to sing for convo. then go back hk to continue exchange, and finally, when exchange ends, come back to sing. abit dumb rite? u think i so richhh mehhh??

3. no need to worry abt all the miscellanous concerning the exchange

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since in the 1st place, i already decided to borrow frm sis to go for the exchange, so y not juz do it? though the exchange is off, i can still go tour, right?? somemore more benefits. and 10days... though fewer days then exchange can allow me, but still 10days.. more than enuff le baa?? of cuz.. u can say tt i can juz don go waddd... but then... i really wish to go hk once more...

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and so, i did wad i did. after taipei, it'll be hk. i'll promise to settle down and hurry find a job once may ends. gimme a gd break and i'll stop all my nonsense. i'll be down to earth and will spend every effort to EARN MONEY!! i promise!!!!

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but then, indeed i feel quite useless. borrow money go tour. wad the heck am i doing? 22 years old, and i still need to borrow money to go tour. haven't i been working part-times every vacation? haven't i been giving tuition?? wad happened to the money? wad happened to the angbows i received for my 21st bday?? wad happened to the angbows money for cny? wad happened to the money tt pa gave me when he got his bonuses? wad happened to the bursary award money? o mann..................

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haii... tp and hk trip. basically, i only paid for the tp tix and accomodation. the spendings in tp and all costs invloved in hk will be borrowed frm ma, pa, and sis. though they say no need to return, but come on... im 22 years old!!! PLS STOP STICKING OUT YOUR HAND AND TAKE MONEY FRM FAMILY MEMEBERS !!! o man..... i better find a jobb soon. loaded, not with money, but with debts... haiiiiiiiii

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and i wanna thank hubb here. the guy whom i claimed i have prob communicating with. diaoo....(-_-!!) this time will be his 3rd time to hk. i know he's quite reluctant. but, he still parted with the money and go with me. im crazy and yet he's willing to accompany me in this craziness. thanks hubb. i will take care of u in hk. no worry tt u know nothing in cantonese. no worries at all! .. heeeeeeee

How??

Interesting lyrics from 李圣杰's song...

你想要的我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路

exactly how i feel now... when i care too much, im accused of being not trusting. when i do not care, im blamed for being half-hearted. i don know how to strike a balance. i don know how to do it right. i don know how to give pple wad pple want. i don know how to explain myself. and so, i chose to keep quiet. to stop trying to explain my way thru. to stop trying to make pple understand. to stop hoping tt someone will understand. because i know, when pple doesnt see wad u see, they can never understand wad u've said/done or wad ur trying to say/do or why u want to do certain things. communication becomes fruitless and pointless. how to continue when communication seemed impossible? how to continue when viewpoints are so different? how to continue when wad i think is impt becomes rubbish in other pple's mind and vice versa? how to continue when wad i think is a problem becomes a non-problem in other pple's mind and vice versa? i don know how. i really don. wad more can i do? wad more can i say? no one understands me.

Size Is ReLaTiVe

i've seen the advertisements of these mini cornettos before. but i din know they are really that mini until tt day soh soh brought some over. these are the minis, standing alone.... when compared to nothing, they dont seem small, right??

now..... compare them with their predecessors, the normal-sized ice-cream cone..

might not be so obvious in the pic.. but they are really small compared to the normal-sized. maybe only a quarter of the normal-sized...

and now... compare to my hand.......

ok, they are really miniii..... im really quite surprised. din expect them to be so small. on tv also not tt small. 2 bites and they are gone. and i think these minis are not cheap either. anyway, size is really relative. there is no absolute big or small... only relatively big or small.. hahah... sounds v scientific, dont i ??

ok .. i know im darn boliao... i also don know wad am i doing.. exactly one more week and i'll be having 1st paper.. and yet.. im still slacking. yesterday i took out the textbk and tried reading already.. but somehow... i juz felt like sleeping... somehow, i juz cannot concentrate... somehow i juz cannot finish reading and i juz feel like SLEEPING/do other stuff !!!! omg.... i don know how to continue, or rather, how to even start this very last battle. somehow, my heart is not there anymore. anyway, only 1 core module. 4aus. die or not die, also wont be very much affected by this 4 aus le. and 308 only ge. both modules also 50% final exams, 50% coursework. unlikely to fail ba... haii.. i know this is very not proactive and very pessismistic.. but.. haiii... my heart is juz not there and i juz don wanna think.

today hubb came over. it was fine at 1st... but we ended up quarrelling. there seemed to be soo many problems. why?? maybe we r really incompatible.. we juz held different views in sooo many things.... i understand tt relationship is about compromising and giving in. but .... doesnt that change who i actually am? if im a person who is tempremental, then because i have to compromise and give in, i changed myself to be less tempremental... then that is not me anymore, right?? why should i surpress myself and hide the real me?? why cant i be me and i do wad i like?? why is it like tt ???? if he loves me, he should love my flaws and everything also rite?? if tt's true, then why do relationship still need giving in and compromising ??? i don get it.... i really don get it.....

Full MonTh !!

woo.. today's my blog's full month! hhaha.... one month passed liao and my blog's growing strong. 1 month ago i started it cuz i was so sian and tot of writing some tots down so tt in future, i can "go back" and "see" wad happened before. and tt period i was having cold war with hubb, so decided to start a blog to "keep me company". yep.. and now, like wad i said in my previous post.. i seemed to be addicted. organising the pics to post and stuff took up so much of my time! haiii... i should really stop all these. at a crucial period like now, instead of studying and sending out resumes, im here spending all my time blogging! wth.... anyway, pls collect a box of cake each. a token of my appreciation to all of u for seeing the birth of my blog and seeing it slowly grow up! lol ....

May my blog continues to grow strong!

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Yesterday was the annual grave-sweeping day. yep, apparently, in a year, there will be 2 occasions when my ma will be super busy. one is new year, and the other will be qing ming. 7th month used to be quite a hoo-haa also, but now not so already. other than tt, the rest of the chinese festivals like nothing much le.

and so, we set out at ard 1030am. frm a few years back, we started hiring a van for this occasion. gotta go to 2 places, one is at bishan, and the other at cck. yep, with a van it's much more convenient. anyway, at bishan is to pay respect to my paternal grandpa and grandma and some other relatives. the place's juz beside RI. think tt place renovated b4. now very airy and clean already. hmm.. somehow like not so many pple le lei. last time i remembered there'll always be many pple... but year by year, pple seemed to get lesser and lesser. yesterday was a real hottttt day.. sweated like crazy~

The offerings

After praying, we will always stop at this little coffeeshop to rest and to makan the offerings tt we brought with us. and i took this chance to take a few pics. haha..

The brothers, expressions quite in' sync huh ~


My sis's gonna kill me for posting this pic and.. wad's my ma doing? so unglam!

I hate my bro for this! he's supposed to take me and the rest... but .. he only took my left eye and my hand! such an ass!!

The in-laws

The cousins. I loved this pic!

Something interesting to note. my sis is 5 years older than my tang jie. and my tang jie is 5 years older than me. interesting huh? opps... am i revealing their ages?? haha...

The Wu cousins!

This pic was suggested by my tang jie. know wad? i think the 5 of us had never taken a pic together b4. and tt was y my tang jie wanted to take one. it's so diff to get the guys to take pic. esp my bro. irritating means irritating. take one pic also so mafan! the one in black is my bro. and the one in white and brown sleeve is my tang ge. but the most interesting thing in this pic was..... who's tt guy popping a head behind and smiled a goofy smile??!! hahahha.... pa can be sooo cuteee sometimes!!!

Yumalicious!

And finally, dinner was at home. can expect a sumptuous meal. year by year, time really seemed to be faster and faster. i still remembered last year, bro-in-law came too and after grave sweeping, he drove me to tuition and tang jie to hospital to visit a fren, while he and sis went to buy stuff. abt dinner time, he drove us back home to have dinner. one year ago. ok, lemme see wad is significant this year. hmm... we took photos, it was a real hottt day, i wore a cap, and o, ma's finger was a little injured cuz of a smalllll accident. yep... ok, we shall see wad happen next year!

Disclaimer: This is grave-sweeping, not new year. appearance is super casual. and after half-day of sweating and being "smoked", pls do expect the persons who appeared in the pictures to be at least 50% better looking in real!

A DaY aT EasT CoAsT

finally gave in to hubb's request ... went east coast to cycle with him..o well.. i cant say it's not fun, but east coast's really too far la.. the journey took soo long. yep, and the weather was not v gd. raining on and off. we reached and snacked at a jap restaurant there. after tt rented bikes. 1 hr, free 1 hr. then cycle and took many pics. after cycling, i actually wanted to roller blade as well de. been years since i roller blade. but hubb don wanna. boo.... after tt dinner at the steamboat stall there. and then home sweet home!

i think i really shld stop blogging. yesterday i spent like don-know-how-many hours formatting the pictures and stuff.. was already so tired when i reached home and yet i slept at 430am! wad am i doing? can i stop all these nonsense. im addicted.. and it's time to get out of this addiction!!

WheN PeopLe oF DiFfeReNt FreQueNciEs ArE GroUpEd ToGeThEr

物以类聚,人以群分... i think i finally can understand y students are grped into em1 and 2 frm young .. and y everything in life must be classified and grped accordingly to likes. not tt i don understand why, but now i understand why we cannot not grp the pple of the same kind together.

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if pple of diff freq are grped tog, some will benefit, but some will simply suffer. i jus don understand y there are pple who likes to question the teachers so much. who cannot accept what the teachers say. and who when the teachers reply, must rebutt. if they really need to question, y don they say loudly so tt the whole class can hear and follow? why must they make it like a private discussion with the tutors when it's supposed to be tutorial time and everyone's involved?? dont they realised tt there are other pple in the class? why must they mumble, mumble, and mumble till only the person next to them and the tutor can hear? why must they take up so much of the tutor's time till the tutor cannot finish wad he/she's supposed to finish? why cant they question when the class is over? they are juz so enthu and jus so inquisitive. they just wont let go easily. for me, i juz cannot wait for the lesson to end. to me, these pple are wasting my time and dragging the class. i feel sooo irritated. why must they do this to me?? ok.. i know it's my problem.. and i shouldnt blame them. who am i to stop them frm learning?? who am i to stop them frm questioning?? they paid to learn, and it's only right to make full use of the tutors. maybe the whole class was happy that they questioned... only except me... im juz a slacker. a darn slacker!!! it's my probb!! or maybe it's the sch's fault? they shld have juz grped slackers like me tog, and the enthu ones tog?? lol..

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thinking again.. maybe tt's y. maybe tt's y they are A students while im a C student. maybe tt's y it seemed as though i'd learnt nothing out of my 3 years uni life. maybe tt's y im so lousy. maybe tt's y i still cannot get a job .. haii... i should have been like them. questioning and questioning and questioning. maybe then, i could be an A student. maybe then i could have felt like ive learnt a hell lot things in my uni life. maybe then, i would not be so lousy. maybe then, i could have gotta a 3k per month job ........ maybe..... yes, maybe....

HaPpy BirtHdaY To Soh Soh !!

Tmr's soh soh's bday, and we celebrated for her today. went to tiong bahru plaza. there's this jap's la mian restaurant. erm... don know wad's the english name, but the chinese name is 别府. yep... ate till so full... and i paid for the meal. haii.. just at this period when im so cash tight. well, mum offered to pay me back, but suan le ba. long time since i gave them a treat. though im really poor now, but i guess, $50 bucks i can still afford ba. :s sometimes i really dislike going makan with ma and sohsoh. ma will always want to order many stuff.. she'll claim tt she wants to eat. but when the food comes, she doesnt want them anymore. and wad happens? she'll force me and soh soh to eat them up! then when i asked her y she order when she doesnt want to eat, she'll say she ordered for sohsoh to eat.. wad the... if pple want, pple will order one rite.... gei kiang!! order order, in the end doesnt want to eat and force others to eat. full means full la.... how to force worr!!! irritating de! always like to make decisions for others.... grrr..

FoOd, FoOd, And MorE fOoD! yUm Yum ~

so who's soh soh? hehe.. soh soh = 嫂嫂... not sis-in-law horr, but is the cantonese 称呼 for "auntie". she's my neighbour la. a very close neighbour. hmmm.... close till hmm... like a second mum to me? she knows my relatives and my relatives know her too. she'll always come over to my house to chat with ma.. and .. ya la.. juz close la. according to ma, soh soh was already staying here when we moved here. we've been staying here for >25 years? so, soh soh watched me grew up. i remembered when i was young, when i was still in primary sch, there would always be dental appt in sch every now and then. and most of the time, it was soh soh who brought me there cuz no one's free in my family. when i was young, ma and pa both gotta work, and sis n bro gotta go sch. so i'll be all alone at home. then soh soh will come over and helped do the chores at home, like sweeping the floor and mopping the floor. when it rained, she'll come over to help me fetch the clothes back. now no more already la, since i already grew up le. but even till now, when ma's not at home, she'll buy me breakfast and if at night, if no one's at home and she knew ma neber cook dinner for me, she'll bring dinner over for me. not everytime la ... but occasionally will. she's really a v nice person. v thankful to have such a close neighbour. i remembered there's once, she came over when it rained, to help me collect my clothes. then, i think it was shimin, she was at my house and she was so surprised tt i had such a close neighbour. close till can juz come over to help me collect clothes. haha... im so very used to it.. but to others, i guess they'll be surprise.

The 2 Mums ??

Us !!

IndiVidUal ShOtz

Happy Birthday to Soh Soh. i wish her longevity, good health, and happiness!!

PS: thanks to ah yan and yh for teaching me how to "merge" the pics. hhaha.. ok, im an IT idiot. fine, i admit!

TiMe To SaY GoOdByE

in ITL1 now.. juz completed discussion on Cesim final presentation. there is this grp of pple in front of me happily and nosily taking photos. how duhh...... ok, great! they are leaving. my ears can be peaceful again!

today, i had the supposed last lecture and last seminar in NTU. supposed because there is no guarantee that i will safely graduate. anyway, i cant help but feel sad..... hahahah... ok, u know im lying! woohoo.... how time flies.. memories of year 1 were like still so vivid la. 3 years had passed since then? i entered NTU in July 2004. had no close frens with me at that pt of time and i was so darn worried abt not being able to find frens and having to end up as a loner. the 1st lecture attended was the econs lecture. i still remembered that the LT was full and tt i ended up sitting on the stairs. year 1 1st lecture, everyone also enthu, i guess. then 1st tutorial was marketing, i think. maybe it was the very very 1st tutorial that we attended, tt's y the bonding in marketing class was stronger compared to other classes. there, i met my close frens in NTU.

i remembered yanling was the 1st person i saw. she was standing outside the tutorial rm. then i went into the room, and the 2nd person i saw was gloria. she was the only one in the class and sitting in the first row, at the extreme left hand side. i was like quite shocked la... all alone in the classrm and so enthu seated rite in front. i went over and talked to her, and gloria became one of the v 1st fren i got to make. then subsequently pple came in. i remembered joanne, cuz she was the only one with red hair and after tt, she's constantly referred to as "the red-haired one ar".. i remembered yingying, cux she was one of the latest who came into class, and she had this v stylish haircut and i tot she looked really lian and tt she must be an ah lian! hahahaha... hmm...of cuz there were xiuhui and jas, who were my sec sch mates... then in came seow kok boon... the don-know-how-to-describe marketing tutor.

as time passed, i've made some really gd frens in NTU. can be divided into 2 grps, the ntu gang, and the bnf gang. ntu gang consists of gloria, yingying, joanne, qiuyan, and irene (though lately she'd been missing out on our outings and it'd been a long time since i last saw her). and of cuz, bnf gang consists of qiuyan, yinghan, xiuhui, and jasmine. yanling and xiuwen also in bnf, but not exactly in our gang la. yup.. am really glad tt at such an "old" age, i can still make gd frens. i heard that in nus, it is unlikely tt u can hang out with the same grp of frens and hence, difficult to make gd frens. yep, so im really thankful tt these grps of gals came into my life and make my uni life more colorful. not juz study, projects, presentations, and reports. thank gals and may our friendship be everlasting! o... and byebye to lectures and seminars!! :) ok... hubb is waiting and i gotta rush off for my 2nd yoga lesson le!! yeah!

CoNgRaTuLaTiOnz !!

congrats to myself for a number of things. congrats that i've passed the 1st quarter of the year. now entering the 1st third of the year le. 1st third?? sounds weird.. hahah.. how time flies.. it was only recently when i went countdown with hubb. now april already? and i tot chinese new year jus passed? how come it's grave sweeping period already? diaoo... i cannot accept this..

ok, it's a new month and i should give my blog a new look. congrats to myself for managing to successfully help my blog change a new look. hubb said it looks better. yeah! the backgrd i wanted to get frm somewhere de, but somehow, cannot work lei. resorted to using the template provided by blogger.. then i realised actually can make changes to the colors of the template provided and tada! purple and pink shades are the main colors. i think it's not bad. hahaha... ah yah lar.. doesn't wan to help me with the backgrd!! hahahahha, no lar, not her fault, she was having tuition.. don anyhow accuse her here. heeee... thanks ah yan for recommending me the website to make my blog nicer.. hehehe...

third congrats for finishing my part on the darn 308!! spent such a looong time on it. irritating. now finally done with the report and the slides le. tmr's the last lesson on 308. yeah yeah yeah!!

and the fourth congrats is for the fact that....... i finally went JB le!!! hahahhaha... it's my 1st time ne... hope it's not v sua ku of me. o well.. finally did it. not as scary as i tot. went kranji, think it's the 1st time i alighted at kranji station. took 170 and reached sg's custom. then board again and reached msia's custom.then the nightmare occured. i don mean to be nasty, but... there really is plenty of room for improvements in msia's custom. it was dark, crowded, old, and simply HOT!! super hot lorr.... hubb sweat like crazy. and the queue took soooooo darn long. i think we queued for almost 1 hour, or maybe more than tt. it was there when i realised that i really made a wrong decision in wanting to go JB. both me and hubb agreed not to do it again. stranded at the custom.. simply unbearable. and the queue was just so messy. is the custom at tuas jus as bad?

o, and there was a little hiccup. this hubb lar.. kuku.. put a pen knife in his bag then forgot to remove. then throughout he was thinking where to hide his pen knife. to leave it in the toilet 1st and collect when we return? or juz bring it along and hope nothing happens at the custom?? then i tot of so many scenarios, like if he left it in the toilet, wad if something happened and pple tot that the knife was a xiong1 qi4? hahha.. think i watched too many detective shows liao. anyway, he finally decided to dispose it. and, yah, i advised him to clean away the fingerprints, juz to prevent any repercussions. but then, if repercussions really were to occur and they traced it to him, wouldn tt make him seemed more guilty? if he's not, why shld he clean away the prints?? lol.. k, i think too much liao.

finally we got to cross the custom and reached JB. hahaha... well... different experience. went to city sq and shopped. the stuff there are soooo cheap. we ate at a western food restaurant named Vivo City Square. Ya, it's vivo city.. lol.. 2 soups, 1 salmon spag, 1 chicken lasagna, 1 coke float, and 1 choco ice cream brownie for only.......... $15.82 sing dollars! i think it was damn cheap lor.. as far as i know, i don think i can get all those stuff at such low price in sg. And, it's a restaurant lei. something like pastamania de. and the food were delicious lorr. o, and no service charge. cheap and gd..

Real cheap and good

Ice cream too big for the brownie

and i bought 2 pairs of shoes for only $25.60 sing dollars. woah! how could tt be possible in our Singapore? for tt kind of design, cheapest also need $19.90. And hubb bought a tee shirt at only $8.80. hahha.. it was then when i decided to go JB every weekend. interesting place. good to shop. sales persons are friendly. much better than sing. and so many other places to explore in JB. think after exam, JB will be my hunting place. hahhaa... but am i contributing to spoiling sg's economy? the m'sian come here to work, earn sing money and spend in their own country. me, as a singaporean, also earn here and spend in m'sia. o.. think this is really bad for sg's economy.

Johor Bahru

Hubb and Me in City Square

Wahh, big big bowl of la mian!

came back to sing ard 8 plus. sing's custom really super cool. aircon, spacious, bright, and clean! and we din need to queue at all. there is this "self-service" thing whereby u can scan ur own passport and simply press ur finger against a machine to leave ur fingerprint. as simple and easy as tt. but only me and hubb and a few others using lei. the rest still preferred to queue. i wondered why. next time no need go kranji take 170 le. go jurong take 160 also can. easier and nearer. had dinner at the zhu2 chao3 stall near my house. had my fav stingray!simply delicious and sinful! i offered to go dutch with hubb. but he said no need. and then, when he reached home, he complained that i spent too much of his money! true, he paid for the meal in jb and the dinner. and he contributed rm20 for my shoes (cuz i got no more rm!). but...wah lao... cheapo hubb.. pls lorr, u teach so many tuitions.. don know earning how many more times than me lorr!!! spend a little on me cannot de meh ???! angry ....

besides tt, he also complained tt he had been accomodating me and tt i haven been accomodating him. but then.. i really don like to go to the zoo, sci centre, sentosa, croc farm, hiking, or cycling ma. so why force me?? haii.... had a fun day de.. but he kidda spoilt it towards the end of the day. i think we really have different interests ne... how arrr????