其实心理还是很难过。一次又一次。一次又一次。为什么？？

Baby RaYous @ 8 MonThs

ahhh my little boy has his first little 2 tooth liao!!! hahahahah. now at 8mths, he can sit, stand while holding on to something, toss and turn, crawl. and he can have semi-solids like prorridge (teochew muay kind). and i also tried feeding him small pieces of corn flakes, biscuits and whats not, and he's ok too. LOL. oh oh, and he started babbling pa-pa and ma-ma liao!! woohoo!

but then, he's also been crankier and 'stickier' than ever! expects someone to stay close and be with him at all times! will start whining and cying once ur away from him. 

diaper changing is a battle. better get it done before he starts to turn and crawl away! always have to 'catch' him back for diaper changing and it's just so hard to make him lie down and not kick profusely. always need to distract him. so usually, will need 2 person during diaper changing - one person to change him, the other to distract him! ha. shall get those pull-ups diapers the next time round! 

feeding is also getting difficult. will want to move around, then the food will kenna his face and hands and then he will continue to touch other things and put other things in his mouth.. and so, in the end, u get food everywhere. uh-oh. and like diaper changing, also good to have 2 persons - one to feed him, the other to distract him!!

and when we are outside dining, he will not want to be in his pram anymore. when put him on baby chair, he wants to climb out! ahhhh! and he's starting to shriek in public.. ahh! 

and night time..... still cannot 一觉到天明. will still wakes up a couple of times at night. worse was almost every hour at night!! believe it or not. haiz. lucky got MIL to 'share' the night times with me. phew. 

and yes.. he wants to co-sleep with us. we will put him to sleep in his cot but 1-2hrs later, he will definitely stand on the cot and cry... and then once we carry him over to our bed, he will go back to sleep again. haiiiiz. 

i guess i had been indulging him in the sleeping part. shouldnt have let him got the habit to sleep with us. but how not to? just letting him latch-on in the middle of the night is soo much more convenient and easy than waking up to warm milk for him right? but as a result, it caused him to want to sleep with us and i suspected that is also the reason why he kept waking up. cuz once he whine a bit, i will offer to let him latch.. so it kind of became a habit to always want to latch every couple of hours?? aiyah.. i dont know lah.. 

i guess the only easier task is - bathing! cuz he can sit on the tub liao. so no need to support him. and usually he likes bathing, so he wont toss and turn. haha. 

anyway, there's something i believe when it comes to parenting. he will not sleep with us forever. he will not want our 24-hr company forever. he will not latch on me forever. one day, he will grow out of all these and not need them anymore. so...... why not jus embrace and enjoy it while we can now?

ahhhh. my naughty little boy =)

Haii.

ok, so it's all cast in stone. 

though was already given the heads-up way back in dec, i still did harbour the thought that maybe.... just maybe. 

but alas.. what naivety! 

do  still feel disappointed and now that the final final verdict is out, i felt...... betrayed. 

haha. ok, a little too harsh a word to use.. but like no other better word liao leh. or maybe, 'sacrificed'? like a tight slap in my face.... yet again. 

many ways for consolation. i guessed i had expected too much and been overly confident. and again, too naive. to even had believed what some crapper had said. 

ha. 

ok, never mind. life goes on. i should learn to be contented. it's really very good already, premised on the soo many backgrounds. 

yah. ok. move on. 

just move on.

Ant's Bday

celebrated ant's bday at raffles city sushi tei.

and my 'incentive' for being early. a godiva ice-cream swirl! my 1st time trying! LOL

not cheap at all! it's $8 for this cone soft-serve! ant said it's super niceeee. i thought it will be those 'hard' ice-cream like haggen daz, din know it's soft-serve. nice is nice lah, but still overpriced in my opinion. and comes in 3 flavors only - dark choco, vanilla, and vanilla + chocolate mix. anyway, thks ant for treating this branded ice-cream. kekeke. 

Dad's BdaY

celebrated dad's bday at xi men ding at vivocity 

the food is quite good and at affordable price. but the serving is too slow. the dishes literally came plate by plate as if we were having a 10-course dinner.  super omg.

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catching up with an ex-colleague.  

happy =) 

麻辣诱惑

and so, i said i will try this 麻辣水煮魚 @ paradise dynasty again

woohooo! shiok! 

ok... i not so garang lah.  i actually 'washed' them in the la mian soup or plain water first, before sending to my mouth. too spicy and oily liao. will feel super guilty if dont 'wash' them. LOL. 

and that day, one colleague ate the mala hotpot from foodcourt. woah! din know it's quite nice also! it's actually not hotpot per se, as in, it's not the soupy hotpot thingie. rather, the idea is like yong tau foo whereby u can choose the liao u want, then they will mix in the mala sauce.. and then the whole thing will be served dry and spicy. i will call it mala yong tau foo lah, to put it simply. 

 i know there's such a stall in plaza sing's foodcourt as well. next time shall try!  but it's not cheap at all. apparently that bowl which he ordered cost $17. woahhh.

ahh.. what'r all these craze about mala man.... such a wrong addiction! 

omg. 

FreeinG SG / MoVie

had dinner at ashton at the cathay one friday night. long long loooong time since we visited that place. after dinner, down the escalator, happened to come across this - freeing sg - which is something like the escape game. 

i had always wanted to try this escape thingie. i totally have no idea how it works. all i know is that u will be locked inside the room and u r supposed to solve the many mysteries inside in order to get the keys and leave the room. so.. what is it all about huh?

and so, i happily took hubb to try out one game. and... woahhhhh... 

it's really really difficult! 

time limit 45mins. at about 22mins, we managed to open one door! happily and totally conceited, we thought we had completed the game. so much for everybody saying it's not easy! alas who knows.....when we opened the door, we actually walked into another room! so, we only managed to clear half of the game! there is another room and another door to be unlocked! 

and i tell u.. the mysteries in the other room are so much more difficult and laborious to solve. after failing to complete the game before the time is up, we were given the debrief and the 'answers' to the various mysteries. 

i tell u... it honestly has nothing to do with logic or common sense. in fact, u cannot use common sense to solve them! u really have to think out of the box and just try randomly. 

and the game is too much for a 2-some. i think the 2 of us will still not be able to solve the mysteries even if we were given 3hrs, let alone 45mins! will definitely need more pple to think and assist with the props. 

all in all, it's quite fun lah. now that we had an idea and a feel, i believe we will do better the next time round! hahaha. yes. will want to try again. brain crushing!!

$24 per pax if i remb correctly. not cheap at all. haha. spend money to let more white hair grow out. LOL

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took mum and dad to movie - long long time ago - at plaza sing.

honestly cannot remember when was the last time i watched a movie with them liao.

vaguely i remembered dad bringing us to the movies when young. haha. 

after that was dinner at this new restaurant - lok kee - at plaza sing.

they give condoms for free!

LOL. ok lah. they are wet tissues lah. kekeke. 

the food is not bad. but the service quite bad. some staff are quite rude and black face. and 2 of the dishes we ordered were later informed that they were sold out liao. wat the... 

this restaurant is part of the tung lok group... was honestly hoping for better service.... dont think will visit again le.. boohoo

初十三 & 初十四

this cny was one of the most fruitful one.. went to many pple's house for visiting and gathering. 

初十三 first to yh's house then to yan's house for food! both staying in the east.. haha super far. 

and my 8th yusheng for the year. from sakae sushi. kekeke

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and then  初十四 was to hubb's colleague's place.. also at boon lay area. 

and the 9th and last yusheng for the year.. huaaat ah! 

rayous is so used to taking group pics liaoo. LOL

steammm boat!! ate so many steamboat this cny. shioook!

yup. so cny has passed.. and we are in the last month of the 1st quarter of the year. 

time really fliess. 

jiayou everyone! 

Leap Day 2016

it's leap day again! 

refer here for 4yrs ago de leap day. and refer here for 8yrs ago de leap day. wow. a good 8yrs had passed... just like that..... oooohhhhh

last leap day happened when i was 27... 27 to 31... honestly the 4-yr jump in age doesnt sound scary anymore. 

this 4-yr jump (2012 to 2016) is definitely much more happening and eventful than the last 4-yr jump (2008 to 2012). 

in these 4yrs, i became a wife to someone, and a mother to someone. these are definitely life-changing events! 

work wise, i was promoted and i changed dept. again, it was a change in dept, not a change in company. in these 4yrs, i can feel myself growing alot, especially at work. im no longer the greenhorn and innocent me. im no longer the passionate and bubbly and happy me. 

in these 4yrs, too many new (and evil) pple came into my working life, changing me and transforming me - for the worse. yes. for the worse. 

they made me think alot (and doubt alot) abt myself... 

the evil pple taught me how not to anyhow shoot my mouth off and be more wary and less trusting to the pple around. 

the lucky pple made me doubt myself... why am i still stuck at where im?

the lazy and shameless pple made me think why should i work so hard?

the poker faces made me.... just want to roll eyes and oh... pls stop the bullshit. 

yes.. these 4yrs.... i had a real good chance to shine and climb.. but i did not cherish it... now... too late to lament already. 机会是留给有准备的人。我没有。也没资格。

很多东西，很后悔。但也于事无补。 如果可以重来，我希望我没有换部门，也不要认识他们。

i think growing up is an amazing thing. and it's really through growing up, that u will know many of the things are in fact not correct... and if there's a chance to go back... u will definitely not go thru the same route again. 

ermm.. u get what i mean??

too bad i do not have a crystal ball... and the only way is to learn the hard way. 

haii. 

anyway, next 4yrs... 31 to 35.. wooahh.. officially 步入中年... 期待，也希望会更好。

hopefully i wont be soo pessimistic about work anymore. haha.

四年后见！

side note to myself: just finished pumping and bathing.. now waiting for hair to dry... hubb talking about sia direct flight to amsterdam which will take 13hrs and whether i can take it or not..... rayous is at MIL's place.. kekeke