ThE DeciSioN

bright sunny windy wed afternoon. wad the hell am i doing at home? no needa work? hah.. on mc today... and y ?? cuz...... i did something drastic ytd nite.

*

y??? tot i got myself dead drunk issit? haaa...... actually erm... erm... went for a small laser surgery...

*

guess.. guess.. wad did i do to myself??

*

actually, nothing lar.. juz got the mole on my chin removed.

*

stunned?

*

actually frm young i had hated my mole. hmm.. don know if it was retribution, but when i was young, i hated pple with mole. i find mole v ugly and disgusting. and as always, life is full of ironies. the more u hate it, the more it will come to u.

*

it started off being a small flat dot. and then it started to grow... i remembered clearly there was once, when i was really young, i sat in front of the mirror, staring at my mole and started crying. i knew it will grow and, being someone who find mole ugly and disgusting, i cannot accept it at all. but again, like wad i mentioned, things tt u don wanna happen, will always happen. and so, the mole grew.......

*

along the way i started accepting.. oblivious to it. i don know how it appeared to other pple, but to me, i tot it wasnt all tt obvious and all tt big.

*

until don know when.. when i looked thru the pics... i tot the mole is actually pretty obvious. then i started feeling conscious all over again. and then the thought of removing it came to me..

*

and so, i finally did it ytd. after much hesitation and procrastination, i did it ytd.

*

quite a fast process. some cream, one injection, some laser shooting and it's gone! but then... it wasnt as clear cut as i tot. now the place when the mole was supposed to be became a big hole. yes a big terrible looking hole. the doc said it will heal within a wk and b4 ny, it'll be fine. but then he added something like "at most 2 wks, it will be ok".. so issit gonna be a wk? or 2? kaozz.......

*

ok.. and so... byebye mole.

*

hopefully it can heel quick and flawless.

*

cheers!

DinnEr And DaNCe 2008

attended my 1st company D&D on 25th jan 2008. prev only attended 2x grad nite, once in sec4 grad nite @ Regent Hotel and the other time in JC2 grad nite @ Ritz-Carlton. This year's co's D&D was held at Shangri-La and i was excited.. high class hotel.. should be v grand ba... received the invitation card abt 2 days beforehand. interesting design... it really looked like a passport.. the theme this year was 007 James Bond ..

*

*

*

anyway.. so much for the anticipation.. i think the only gd pt and the only part worth going for was the fact tt it was held at Shangri-La. i must say.. i did not enjoy the D&D at all. The emcee was lousy though he tried really hard. As the theme was James Bond, the performances were more like a sex show than anything else! and the performers were own staff, not professional performers. boring and draggy and non-engaging. the food were ok but there were only 6 courses w/o counting the dessert. and somehow, i only managed to eat abit of every dish.. either cuz the servings were too small, or we were all big-eaters. and then, gotta wait a hell long time b4 the next course is being served. lucky draw prizes werent attractive except for the top 5. the waiters and waitresses took soo long to respond to us. simple things like asking for chopsticks also need to ask a few times b4 someone got it done. wah kao.. Shangri-La lei... this kind of standard..

*

all in all, i was disappointed. didnt expect it to be like tt. i think i enjoy wedding dinners much more. i guess largely due to the fact tt our table's at the side of the stage and we can only look at the screen and not the stage itself, hence unable to engage. somemore, my seat was quite near to the screen and at an akward angle.. v diff to even look at the screen.

*

some pics..

*

*the ballroom*

*my 1st lao yusheng for the year*


*lady in the middle, my immediate head*

*cheerz!*

*charlie angels??*

*charlie angels acting cute???!!*

*uncle lek*

*bond girls?? haha*

*the 3 immediate heads*

*one-level-higher-up head*
*

actually there is still a head who is still higher up. in fact, highest in my office. wanted to take pic with him but decided not to.. in case pple tot i boot-lick..

*

yep.. tt's abt all. the whole event went out of schedule.. 11.30pm still not ending.. and we left ard tt time. hopefully i did not missed out on the lucky draw!

*

O and tdy after tuition, went to the malay stall downstairs and tabao a packet of rice. ginger rice + mutton + fish + long beans.. guess how much? = $7.00! stunned.. i took out $4, thinking tt it'll be more than enuff, when the uncle told me it was $7. asked him how come so ex? uncle said "mutton $4, fish $2.50". woowahh.. i sincerely did not know tt it's gonna be so ex. $7 for a packet of rice. woohoo! win liao lor ~

InTeResTinG

read an interesting comprehension passage in my tuition kid's assessment bk tdy... impossible to remember and put every word in .. but the story roughly went like this:

*

Long long time ago, there was a god named Braham. Braham created the world and thought it would be nice to have a human being living in it. Hence, he created a human being and granted him a lifespan of 30 years. The man was alone until he realised he needed a helper to help him with his work, and therefore, he went to Braham and requested him to grant him a worker. Braham agreed, and created a cow to assist the human being in his work. Braham gave the cow a 30 years lifespan but the cow thought 30 years is too much. The cow wanted only 10 years and the human being asked for the years that the cow rejected.

*

Soon, with the cow's help, the human being's possession increased and he decided he needed a watcher to help him guide his possession. Once again, he went to Braham and Braham created a dog for him. Braham gave the dog a lifespan of 30 years but the dog too think tt 30 years is too long. The dog wanted only 10 years and again, the human being took in the 20 years that the dog rejected.

*

After a while, the human being feels that the world is too boring and he needed some amusement. He went to Braham yet again, and this time round, Braham created a monkey with a lifespan of 30 years. Like the cow and the dog, the monkey wanted only 10 years and similar as b4, the human being requested to have the 20 years that the monkey did not want.

*

So now, the human being has a total lifespan of 90 years while the animals each have 10 years.

*

Braham slowly realised the greediness of the human being and he decided to punish him.

*

Braham made the human being slogged like the cow until 50 years old. For the next 20 years, all the way till he turns 70, he will have to guide his house and properties/possessions, juz like the dog. And for the last 20 years, till he is 90 years old, he'll become old and forgetful and start doing silly things like the monkey to amuse his descendants.

*

so tt's wat life is all abt huh? some truth in the story, arent there?

*

and.. i juz received the news...

*

my new family member had juz arrived.

*

im officially a xiao-yi!

*

woohoo!

HapPy BiRdaY Ah Ji

specially took leave tdy to bring mama out to buy her cny clothings. other den taking leave, there's no other days whereby im free le. sat im busy while sun she's busy.. and cny is near... cant delay anymore. anyway, it's gd to take a break frm work~ don have to wake up so early... shuang! shuang! shuang!!

*

tdy's also sista's b-day. took this opportunity to give them all a treat. bro's absent as he's having in camp training.. too bad ~ and tt fat boy... rather slp then come for dinner... don gimme face ~

*

went to this chinese restaurant at amoy street....

*

*beautiful strawberry shortcake! yum~*

*the b-day girl*

*the daddy and mummy soon to be*

*

maybe i should have taken leave tmr as well... but anyway.. TGIF !!

Sighhhhhhh

im so depressed. things at work are not going on smoothly... im not getting the kind of support and trust that i needed at work.....

*

back in uni i remembered learning something regarding the conflict of interests within departments in a company. at tt pt of time, i really cannot understand y conflict of interests exist when everyone is working for the same company and the common goal is to get the company moving...

*

i guess now i do understand...

*

im juz too naive to think tt everyone is looking at the BIG picture and tt the whole aim is to get the company to move on...

*

in reality, everyone is juz trying to cover their own asses and trying to shirk their responsibilities....

*

y like tt?

*

needed their help.. yet they always said case is closed on their end and im supposed to settle the issue myself. no support at all. and.... when i know things involve them... i will get super worried.. cuz i know most of the times, they will flop things up and expect us to clear the shit.. no trust at all.. yes, i don trust they will do a gd job at all.

*

how? how to work in a company when u don trust ur fellow workers and u don get the kind of support u expected frm them?

*

rite on the 1st few days at work, my colleagues already warned me of this particular dept... how we r always on the different ends with them.. now.. i finally can understand wad they meant by " 以后你就知道"...

*

我真的知道了..

*

i wished i can settle the issues by myself and dont have to wait for them and tolerate their ineffiencies and ineffectiveness... but.... i have so many other things on hand.. how to settle everything? and... they juz wouldnt help.. o man..... and it doesnt help when ur superior do not give clear directions on how to solve the issue but juz tell u to push it back to them... if only it's so easy to push it back.. hai... i really don like to play taiji and push here push there and things juz hang down there and no one bothers to solve.... i really wish to settle the issues.. but... i really don know how....................................................

*

arent there anyone who is looking? doesnt the mgmt know anything? so many people have been complaining.... no one up there is aware at all? and... the most ironic thing was.... the highest man up there came to visit and even praise tt dept for their efficient and effectiveness. it must be the greatest joke ever! i guess he is too high up to understand anything.... juz like how the governement is too high up to understand the sufferings of the commoners........

*

im sooo soooo soooo sian...

*

even the fact tt tmr is payday is not able to cheer me up.

*

who can save me?

10th YeAr AnnivErsaRy

tdy while walking to the busstop, i suddenly remembered it's a brand new school term for the students. then it dwelled on me tt exactly 10 years ago, i was admitted to sec 1. ahaha.. one decade.. passed juz like tt. hmm..

*

some memories are still v vivid.. if i really go think abt it, everything seemed to have happened juz yesterday. i remembered how i hated my form teacher.. i remembered the game tt the music teacher would play with us.. i remembered the poor malay gal who was being outcasted by almost everyone in the class.. i remembered how i used to sit at the back of the class and looking out of the door hoping i can juz go home.. i remembered the canteen food.. i remembered how much i dreaded cca sessions and councillor meetings..... there were happy times, there were unhappy times as well. so many so many memories.

*

cant remember how many pple there were in my sec 1 class le. 36? 38? some werent close to me while some were closer. most already lost contacts, but lucky for me, i still have a few in my contact list. juz wanna take this chance to thank my 10-years strong frens.

*

thank you ah min, wl, shirley, xh, jas (who in fact i've known for >10 yrs!) and the many many more, whether we r still in contact or not. 10 yrs isnt a short time. hope there'll be many more 10 years to come. our topics r slowly shifting.. i hope there'll be a day whereby we'll all sit down and discuss how good or naughty our children are. hhaahaa..

*

cheers frenz!

*

i wish u all nothing, but all the best in wadever u all are doing!

*

btw.. i cannot remember wad our sec 1 class was known as le. only remembered 3P2 and 4P2 for sec 3 and 4.. issit 1E4??

*

my memory is really failing me

Happy NeW YeAr !!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR~!!! May 2008 be a great year for all of us!!

*

watched "I Am Legend" on eve. the show ended at abt 11pm and we went home after tt. too many "ah nei" in orchard.. and we decided it's not a gd place to stay and count down. but then, lucky tt we went home.. cuz there was countdown party at mount faber and since it's so near my house, we managed to watch the fireworks so closely. so near and clear. don even to have to sqz with pple. haha.. smart move to go home and watch fireworks.

*

took today to take a gd rest. wanted to tidy up the room, but as usual, did not in the end.

*

watched tv and took a nap. time to re-charge myself. gotta go back to work and the next hols will only be in feb liao. scary.. cny's juz a mth away... need to get new yr clothings again. gotta sqz with everyone again. hmm.. but after cny, then it really will be v sian liao.. cuz apparently nothing much to look forward liao. boohoo~

*

tot the BK trip will give me a gd break.. but apparently, im still v tired lei. all i wanna go is to slack and slp at home. hmm.. is this wad working life is all abt?

*

had dinner with family tdy. sis treated. yum~ welcome 2008. all the best!

*